CARREE LOVES BILLY #7 CARREE SETS THE DATE The following contains ADULT SEXUAL SITUATIONS. Do not read any further if you do not wish to read material of this type. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.
I lost my William early in 2001. He was a writer who, one day, planned to use my diary's, which I kept through our courtship and beyond, as a basis for a true erotic story. William and I enjoyed reading erotic of this type to each other. He planned to use the pen name Billy Hand and wanted to share our sexual experiences for a means of helping others understand what a true loving relationship was, and how sexual one can be. Few of the we read on sites like this dealt with true love, sex and sexual acts with the candor and tenderness we actually showed each other.
As a means of therapy for dealing with his loss, I have taken up the project. Though not as accomplished as William as a writer, I too, write professionally for travel and vacation guides.
I hope you enjoy our as much as we did living them. Whether you believe our or not, trust me when I say they have been embellished little. Names and places have been altered to mask our identities, but the basis and most of the situations are true.
I will always truly love the character you will know as "Billy" or "Bill" Wilson. Once Bill became a published writer and author, he was always known as William. This will be the Seventh entry in the series after the genus story: Carree Loves Billy
This is, - - - - - - - - - - - - CARREE SETS THE DATE Finishing our final year in when we already had potential careers promised was very much akin to waltzing through your senior year of high school when you had already been accepted to a college. A certain amount of pressure had been lifted for both Bill and myself knowing exactly where we were going to be for at least 2 years following graduation. My employer, Arens and Ponds, had been gracious in offering to find an affordable place for us to live until we decided where we wanted to settle. My mentor, Miranda Ponds had found a potential home for us in the Baltimore suburbs that was near Baltimore mass transit, the MTA. She described it as a "Leave it to Beaver" type of neighborhood, with a MTA commuter line less than a ten-minute walk away. The ride to the Amtrak station on the commuter was 10 minutes. Miranda talked to neighbors and found that typically you could be on an Amtrak train in 25 minutes from the front door, depending on schedule. It would make a 3 hour train ride for Bill, each way. While that sounded atrocious to me, Bill, with his laptop, considered it office time. Last summer, while interning, he often commuted the 6 hours in a day and used his train time for writing, and reading, and studying. Bill was never bored. If I chose to drive to the office I need only get on the interstate less than a mile from the house and go 9 exits. The house was owned by a principle in a company we had bought out to get some Ocean City accounts. Arens and Ponds wanted more local dealings to better their relationship with some of the Maryland Chambers. We have received a lot of Maryland Education business and had little Maryland flavor to our business besides that. Arens and Ponds held the paper on the property and had it leased until June. We could then sign a 24-month lease at $600 per month, plus utilities, and then exercise an option to buy or move. It seemed too good to pass up. We planned to visit and check out the house during the Christmas break. This could end up the house we owned when we got married.
Bill had fallen into a nice niche at Time. Environmentalists had come to lay a lot of pressure on Canada about acid rain and its effects on New York forests, as well as New York Nukes and the West Valley clean up. Upstate New York had become a hotbed of Environmental news, so, Bill was the environmental reporter for upstate New York. He covered press conferences and enviro around Western and Northern New York. It gave him lots more free time for himself and me. It kept him in the loop at Time and got his name on by-lines and "also contributing to" credits.
Arens and Ponds kept me on top of things using me as a copy writer. They would give me account profiles, and goals. I would submit creative ideas and submit copy to be critiqued. Miranda kept me totally on top of the entire goings on with accounts and new so I could step right in as her assistant when I finished school. Both Bill and I had pretty cool situations. I, personally, could not have written a better ticket for myself. I really stepped in it.
Henny, Maria and I had become even closer in our fourth year of rooming together. We really wished we had taken a place off campus for our last year, but I was impossible to get hold of for the summer and they could no longer hold the place they wanted. A four bedroom 3 bathroom place could have meant boyfriends sleeping over and lots more privacy.
We confided as sisters on intimate details of our lives, especially sex, and that put our lives in better perspective. To share and trust, and compare notes, I could not have found better friends. We were sisters.
Maria had detailed her summer with John to Henny and I. She had moved in with him for 6 weeks while he house-sat in Port Jefferson on Long Island. He had an aunt who had to go to Boston for a heart procedure and she wanted someone to stay in her house while she was away. Maria's didn't like it, but she convinced them it was the right thing to do. Maria was relieved to find-out how compatible they were and were going to set a wedding date for a year after her graduation.
As she finished filling us in on her summer, she looked at Henny and told her there was something she had to get into the open that I already knew about. She explained to Hen about her seeking out "faceless fucks", when she would be separated from John for semesters at a time while he went to school out west. She felt that since I knew it and Henny didn't, there was dishonesty between us. "They were just faceless fucks, they don't mean anything. I go out and pick up a kid, someone young, and show him a few things." She confessed to Henny.
"I go to the hang-outs where the freshmen are. Not so much here, but over near the other area schools. I show them a good time, they, in turn, make me happy. I have to feel like a woman sometimes, you know. I became dreadfully horny and lonely and felt little like a woman. I slipped one day and mentioned it to Carree, that's how she found out. I felt sexually empowered. I would be the aggressor, show these some real tits, how to eat pussy, and what it feels like to get a real blowjob. I don't fuck them. I may act like a slut, but I'm no whore."
"Wow, Maria, that sounds like me before I really hooked up with Nicky. I would fuck anyone. Hell, I won't lie; I loved it. Fucking is great, but making love is better."
"Well, I know I'm going to hear an "I told you so" from Carree, but I had a bad experience the last time I did it before we went home for the summer. I'm telling you both this, because the guy knows where we live, and although I don't even know if he is around anymore, I think I should warn you." Maria explained.
"Why didn't you report it to the Police, if you had a bad experience. I assume the guy tried to make you do something you didn't want to?" I asked.
Maria got real flustered at my question and began to lose her composure.
"Oh yeah, just what was I supposed to do? Tell the Police that I wanted to just blow him, and not anything else, and if they caught the guy and charged him I have to testify that I wanted sex, just not that much? Plus it gets out in the papers and my and John find out. I WAS STUPID, OK? TELL ME THAT YOU TOLD ME SO. I KNOW IT, NOW." Maria said as she became undone.
I went to her to hug her.
"Maria, I can't judge you, but it sounds like you want us to. Yes, you were stupid to do it that time, but you were just as stupid all the other times, but nothing ever happened, so you felt the power of the situation and the safety that you were never caught. I don't think any less you. C'mon Maria, we all love each other too much for that."
"That's all I could think of all summer, was how you were going to beat me up for being so stupid, especially after you warned me. I should have known you wouldn't judge me and would sympathize with my predicament. I guess I really WANTED you to beat me up, as my own punishment. Well, I won't do it again. It made sex hard to enjoy for the first few weeks with John on Long Island, the guilt ate at me so."
"So, what did this creep make you do, if you don't mind saying," Henny asked. "I remember you were saving it for your wedding night, he didn't ruin that did he?"
"No, the last time John and I were together before then, we finally did it. We finally gave in. But the bastard . . . . . he, , he made me do other things." And then Maria went into a full bawl, calling herself names and banging her fist on the sofa.
We had a group hug to comfort Maria and told her to give us a description of the guy, in case he might come around. But, Maria wasn't through yet.
"I have to tell you what happened. No one has ever heard the and I have to tell it to someone so I can get it off my chest. I know it's my fault, but I want to tell it so maybe someone can tell me that it wasn't, OK?" She explained. "It's actually pretty gruesome."
"I went to a sports bar nearby and sat at the bar, sipping a soda. I knew a couple were checking me out, but they seemed and one of them goes to school here. But, there was a table with 3 guys, and I assumed they were freshmen, they all had soda's too. They had eaten, and it was almost 10 o'clock. That's when they proof the place and all the underage students have to leave and the band starts. I asked the waitress if she knew any of the 3, but she only knew they were freshmen at the Ag school. I asked her if she could get this one kid, a cute haired guy to come to the bar. She said she would try, but figured I didn't want to be too forward. When two of them got up to play pool, she told him that I wanted to speak to him. He hesitated, and then came over wondering what I wanted, and asked if I was one of his sisters friends. I explained I was looking for a date to go dancing with, and I hated to walk into a place alone. He told me he was underage, but had proof that said otherwise. We talked for about 10 minutes and I suggested we leave to go to FudPuckers, or some place. He acted real shy and I figured I had a good one on the line."
"Usually I take them some public place, like FudPuckers, and we park the car, but before we get out to go in, we neck a bit and get "friendly" with each other. It usually doesn't take long to talk them out of going in, and going someplace more private. I know a few good places to park. go for my right away and that usually keeps them happy for a while. Once they try to put a hand down my pants, or up my dress, I stop them."
"I tell them they can't screw me, but that I love to have my eaten, and if they do it right, I'll repay the favor. By this time they are drooling and tripping over their tongues. This guy, he said his name was Dean, was just like the rest. I bailed over the seat and took off my and invited him to dive in. Like the others I had to show him how I liked it, and I kept him going by telling him how I was going to suck his cock so good when he got done."
"Maria!! I can't believe you talk like that," Henny said. I thought you called it a pee!!"
"Please don't joke Hen, this is pretty awful," Maria warned.
"Once Dean got going it was apparent that he had done this before. He was trying to stick a wet finger up my butt and I kept pushing it away. He sat up and grabbed me by the throat and told me under no uncertain terms that he WAS going to stick his finger in my butt and that he was using it to get ready for his cock. Well, this scared the shit out of me and I said, "forget it" and went to get back in the front seat. He slapped me full force, full hand across the face and showed me my keys in his hand. He slapped me again on the other side of my face and I knew he meant business. I also knew I had lost control of the situation. This guy was a sicko. He turned me on my stomach and pushed my face in the seat. He walloped the hell out of my ass with his hand and then spit on my ass and stuck his finger back in. He kept it there and kept spitting on my ass. I was delirious with fear and pain. Then he stuck his dick up my ass and fucked me like a goddamn animal."
Maria had kept her composure for the most part of her story, but she was beginning to cry now.
"I was in so much pain, I thought I would die or pass out. I felt if I just cooperated he might finish faster and I could be through with him. But, he had other ideas. He pulled his dick out of my ass and made me suck it. He told me that if I bit him, he would kill me. As he said that, he had his hand around my throat and I no doubt he was able to squeeze life from me. Humiliated by being sodomized and forced to taste my own ass, I wasn't doing quite well at the he was getting, so he set about to slap my face again, full handed, each side, real hard. I was dizzy and in total panic. He grabbed my head and stuck his cock down my throat and fucked my mouth hard and deep, making me gag and throw up all over my self, while it was still in my mouth. Let me tell you both, that I thought I was going to die. I was THAT scared. He finally came while fucking my mouth and told me if he saw one drop outside my mouth, he was going to pull out all my hair. I didn't doubt him. I swallowed and swallowed and gagged and gagged, but made sure I didn't lose a drop of the disgusting stuff. I thought I had never been more humiliated until he finished and let me lay there about 10 minutes and the told me he had to piss, and he was going to do it all over me. I lost it and told him he had done enough to degrade me. He grabbed me and slapped me again, this time slapping my bare breasts, I was sure he broke the skin had ripped them off. I rolled into a ball in the back seat and figured he would beat me to death. I was planning on playing dead as he struck me. He slapped my ass real hard a couple times and I stifled screams. He grabbed me again and spit on my ass again. He wanted to fuck me there. I didn't see how I could take it. I wanted to die. After working his dick in there, he let his fly."
How Maria kept her composure during her description was beyond me. I was crying for her, but she was brave in wanting to confess how stupid she had been.
"Once he was done, he pushed me out of the car and drove away. He hollered out that I would find the car at the bar where I picked him up. He tossed my clothes out and he was gone.
After crying, shitting and puking for about an hour I finally was able to get my clothes together, and I found a stream where I could wash a little before walking to my car. I must have walked 5 miles, and I avoided staying on the road where anyone would see me. When I got to the bar, it was closed and my car was the only one there. When I went to it, the keys and my purse were on the front seat. All my money was still there, and all my credit cards and ID's were there, but everything was taken out and neatly laid in rows on the seat. I sat and cried for a while and finally drove to a motel. There, I showered and washed my clothes in the tub, and slept until the sun came up. Once I knew you were in exams, I came back here, in my damp clothes, and put my self back together."
By the time Maria finished the story, Henny and I were both in tears.
"Why didn't you go to the Police," I asked.
"What do I tell them?" Maria answered. "I wanted to pick up a virgin, and I gambled and got a pervert? I didn't see any way around the fact that I PICKED HIM UP! How do I explain that to John, or my parents?"
"The fuckin' bastard raped you, sodomized you, Maria. He should be locked up!" Henny said, boiling mad.
"LOOK, I was a stupid whore for doing what I was doing. Carree warned me that I could run into a loser one night, and I didn't listen. This guy may have scared the shit out of me, violated me in ways I didn't think possible, but he also cured me of being stupid. Forty-eight hours after it happened I was no worse off. He could have killed me, for Gods sake."
"Why don't you send him a thank you card, for Christ's sake Maria? If you ever see him, point him out. I'll pick him up and bite his balls off, the bastard!" Henny stewed.
"Let's just drop it!" Maria shouted. I only told you because I have been living with it all summer. I thought I was going to end up in therapy over it, but I'm not. My sex life with John was great and I am no worse the wear for it all. We even tried it, you know, . . . back there and I was OK with it. No bodily or emotional scars. I take all the blame, I just had to get it out!"
"OK Maria, but if you ever need to talk about it or have issues, don't hide them. We can all talk and try to fix things, OK? Listen, I love the both of you and hate to think that this happened to one of us. We have to look out for each other. Maria, please don't hesitate to come to us, OK?" I implored.
"OK, but I think I'm fine, OK?" Maria said.
"I don't see how, but I'll take your word for it," Henny said. "You're sure that everything was OK with you and John? I mean the sex part. You don't think of the rape every time you have sex do you?"
"No, because that wasn't sex, that was violence. I'm pretty strong willed and know that neither John nor sex had anything to do with it. I'm OK really." Maria insisted.
Never one to mince words or be genteel, Henny asked, "Even when John did you in the butt, you didn't flash back?"
"God Henny, leave a few things in her life sacred," I implored her.
But, Maria, knowing that Henny was Henny, said, "That's OK, and I guess it's a good question. Yes, I did think of it, but John did it lovingly as a lover would. I would have been doing it reluctantly anyway, but I really kind of liked it, at least with John."
"Yeah, butt sex is great, I really love it," Henny said as if she just said the sky was blue. We were truly open with each other, especially Henny, who knew no bounds of taste or decorum. But, if you knew her, you had to love her. Henny and I looked out for Maria a lot for a while, to make sure she was over the ordeal. If she had any side effects of her attack, she never let them out. It's almost that she felt she deserved what happened to her and she got punished to learn her lesson. I couldn't ever feel that way, but Maria must be a much stronger individual.
Once classes got underway it all seemed like a bad memory as the three of us got back into our routine. What was different was that I saw Bill at least once a week now, and we planned to keep it that way until the snow flew and travel might be dangerous. Maria coaxed John to fly home from school whenever there was a break of any kind. Flying in from the mid- west sounded expensive to me, but I gathered that John's had money. I also think that Maria let him know how lonely she was getting, being away from him. I think he suspected she was seeing someone else, which really wasn't true, but the rape must have left some seeds of doubt for Maria to sow. She must have changed a little.
For the long Veterans days Holiday weekend I had thought the three of us had went home. But, on my return on Monday afternoon with Bill, figuring on a little afternoon delight before he drove to his campus, we found Nick and Henny in the dorm.
"I thought you went home for the weekend? I asked.
Henny just smiled at me and said, "No, I decided to stay back and do a little local sight seeing."
The look on her face bewildered me and she was about to explode with news she wanted to tell me.
"Just for the last month or so, I've been going to the sports bar where Maria picked that asshole up. I was just hanging around for short times, grabbing something to eat and a soda or something. I became friendly with the barmaid and was somewhat of a regular. When we got talking about boyfriends I said my name was Dean (the name the guy who raped Maria used).
"Oh, really," she said. "You mean the Dean who hangs around here?"
Henny said, "No I doubt it, I don't think he comes in here."
"Well," the barmaid said, "I hope not, the Dean who comes in here is a pick-up artist. He thinks he's God's gift to women. If I see him come in, I'll point him out, because if he's your boyfriend, you ought to lose him."
So, anyway," Henny continued, "I went there a few more times and once the barmaid saw me and motioned me to a corner of the bar, out of sight line of the tables."
"Deans here," she said, and she pointed him out.
There sat a haired blue-eyed guy who looked about 16. He caught the two of us looking at him and he smiled.
"No, that's not my Dean," Henny said. "That guy is a kid."
"That's good," the barmaid said, "I hear he's into rough stuff, but I guess some like that."
So, armed with this information, Nick and Henny were prepared to go to the sports bar all weekend waiting for Dean to show up. He showed up Friday night. They noted what kind of car he drove, and then followed him back to his dorm.
They kept an eye on him all day Saturday. About 9:30 p.m. he left and went right to the sports bar. Most of the students from the area were out of town so it was slow. Nick told Henny that he didn't think Dean would hang there long, there were few cars in the lot, so they waited for him to come out. When Dean finally left, there was no one else around. They were able to jump him and get like a canvas bag over his head and arms.
Then Henny paused. "Well, what happened" I asked impatiently. Hen reached to the sofa and picked up the local Monday paper and pointed to the front page, below the fold.
"Local Student Beaten in Fraternity Hazing" the read. . . "A local student was found beaten and tied in a canvas bag to his waist Sunday morning. His feet were tied with plastic restraints, typically used by Police in holding cells. When the manager of the Third Base Sports bar came to open at noon on Sunday she saw the lone car in the lot. She didn't find it that strange, except there was thick yarn tied to the cars door handle that led into the wooded area behind the bar. The other end of the yarn rope was tied to the feet of victim, Dean Doe a sophomore at Agricultural Tech. While Doe insisted he was not part of any Frat hazing, Police said the fact he had been urinated on made that hard to believe. "It's typical frat house stuff", said Officer Petersen. "With all the frats on local campus' that are on probation for hazing, it's no surprise he is denying it." Petersen did not make it clear if there would be any further investigation."
I dropped the paper and was dumbfounded.
"Henny, you and Nick did this? Are you crazy?" I asked.
"Carree, we never said one word. He never had a clue if there 2 or 3 of us, if we were all or what. He kept on shouting names of who he thought we were getting for. He knew why he was getting his ass kicked, he just didn't know who it was from. He finally got quiet when he got punched every time he hollered." Henny said so proud.
"Carree," Nick said, "Henny would have killed him if I let her. She kicked him in the balls about 4 times. The little fuck was crying when we left him. Henny went back and pissed on him, so I did too. After Hen told me what he did to Maria, I had to get the bastard."
I didn't know what to think. I was afraid they would be found out and be caught, but I had a little glow of revenge inside.
"Listen, we cannot be caught. We covered every possible track. No one saw us. No one can place us anywhere. He has no clue who did it. He shouted out different names, saying like, "It's for Sherry, right? Well, she wanted it rough."
Man, he was so confused. Then we really let him have it. He got a good beating and probably thought we were going to kill him. I wanted to scare the shit out of him." Henny said.
"But," Henny added, "We CANNOT tell Maria we had anything to do with it. I want her to see the article, but I do NOT want her to think Nick and I did it. OK?"
I agreed, but was still in a daze, not believing she and Nick could be so larcenous.
"Carree, don't go and get Goody Two Shoes on me here," Henny said. "You have that look on your face. Do you think I could stand to think of that little bastard running loose after what he did to her?"
"But, Henny, you can't take the law into your own . ." I started, before Henny interrupted.
"HE STUCK HIS DICK UP HER ASS AND PISSED IN HER, CARREE," she said as she held a defensive pose to me.
I thought about that for a second, and said, "OK, I guess it was something you had to do. Maria was wrong not to have him put away. I won't say a word to her."
"Don't even point out the article to her. Let her find it," Nick said. "If she doesn't see it by Wednesday, point it out to her as you are tossing it out, you know by accident."
Henny and I agreed and never said a word to Maria. Later that week we saw her read the article, and by the look on her face, she knew whom it was that got beat. I asked her what it was, trying to draw her out, and she just said "Oh, Nothing." But she was humming and smiling the rest of the night.
I guess I always had a horror in the back of my mind of being raped. I was always aware of catcalls and whistles when I was in certain situations and always chose to not pay attention. When Maria told us of her rape and brutal violation, I almost felt it happened to me. That was funny in it self, because Maria seemed to have forgotten about it, or took it in stride. She truly thought that going out and picking up a lover for the night was OK, because it was strictly sexual for her own satisfaction. To her it was enhanced masturbation. Yet, she portrayed a Polly Pure front almost all of the time, even when talking among us girls. I was flummoxed to her thought processes.
Maria may have purposely planted a seed in her fianc‚, John's, mind that she was lonely and desperate enough to seek other company. He made the long flight in for a weekend every month to be with her. Even though he could well afford it, in their first few years of college, John was only home for Christmas, and usually met her for somewhere. He had taken Maria and her love for granted for the last time.
Just as we got ready to go home for Thanksgiving weekend, Maria took me aside and handed me a newspaper with an article circled: "Local Ag Tech Student Convicted."
"A local AG Tech student was convicted of a July kidnap/rape in Woonsocket, R.I., where he resides. Dean Doe originally was going to accept a plea bargain for probation in the July incident, but decided to let it go to trial. After his alleged victim was convicted for marijuana possession, Doe recanted his earlier confession in hopes of influencing the court that she may have brought the rape upon herself."
The went on to say that he could get up to 25 years, but expected he might serve 3-5 years.
Maria looked at me with a smile and a tear in her eye.
"It's over, but the he raped was my fault. I am really sorry for that. I read a while ago that he was found beat up in a Frat hazing, and I felt vindicated, I had a of sorts. I forgot about what a next victim might mean. I never thought of that part."
"He's gone, you're safe, your love is safe, Maria. You would have lost everything if you accused him, and he could have beaten that charge then. Don't fret that you could have saved someone else from him. He's done now." I assured her.
We hugged and held each other tightly, she wanted so bad to share this whole thing with someone she loved and trusted. It truly was over and to this day I don't know if she ever found out that Henny and Nick were the ones who beat up Dean the scum.
That Thanksgiving Bill broke his tradition of a long weekend in Vermont. He drove up ahead of his family as soon as he got me home on Wednesday around noon. He went ahead to ski with some cousins and met his parent's there Wednesday night. Right after the families big Dinner on Thanksgiving, he headed home to spend Thursday, Friday, and Saturday evenings with me up in his writing study over the garage.
I had just finished drying the last dish after our Holiday Feast when I went to sit with my in front of their new fireplace. We waited to serve the dessert pies for Bill. He was going to sit by the fire with the 3 of us and talk. Then after that we were to be off to be alone. and Dad offered to let him stay with me there, but I am sure they understood our need to be alone. It was still only down in the high 30's at night, so the Franklin stove was plenty enough to keep our little hideaway warm for us. Besides that, we had a lot of heat to share with each other.
Dad had just put a few more logs on and poured the hot chocolate when I heard the growl of the engine. Bill was here. I felt myself blush just knowing he was here. When he came to the door I rushed like a schoolgirl to hug him. and Dad hollered their hello's from the living room, allowing us a private moment and word.
Bill whispered to me, "Lets start to discuss dates tonight, OK? Just to get a ball rolling and feel them out."
"I'm not ready to set a date, Bill," I said.
"Geez Care, I'm not either," Bill whispered. "But my are asking me about it, and with them getting friendly with yours, lets just make them think we're looking into things. So, if they talk about it between them . . . I'm sick of saying we haven't discussed it yet. Maybe we'll actually get some ideas."
"OK, Bill," I said. "I assume you know best."
We went into the living room and Bill made sure he made a big deal about the new fireplace. My Dad got a lot of help on it, but he did the most of the work. He was so proud. It was a real piece of Americana, though, the four of us curled in front of the fire with a homemade and hot chocolate on Thanksgiving night.
Bill broke the "date" ice.
"Carree and I are beginning to look at possible wedding dates. Now we don't want to jump the gun or anything, but after graduation we would like to have a date set. But we are certainly in no rush. We discussed a window of . . .how long Carree?" he hesitated as he looked at me for an answer.
"Two years," I blurted out as Bills eyes bugged. "We figured we were in no hurry and if we had to wait 2 years it would be fine. We want time to plan and do it really right and make sure everything is accommodating to both families, and of course, us. It's going to mean Bill and I having to plan time off way in advance from work, we will be living in Baltimore then. We will need all that time if we plan on getting back here, and we do."
Suddenly Bill wasn't so shocked that I ad-libbed "two years". I think he assumed I would be in a hurry to get married, and deep down I was. But, I know my and Bill's Mom, with their only son and daughter, wanted the day to be a special one to last forever in their memories.
The three of them were all pondering my words, searching their minds for some place in time to work from, to or fro.
As they pondered, I added, "Unless you want us to just elope and call you from the Justice of the Peace office to tell you we were married."
My mothers face turned ashen as I said it. My Dad rolled his eyes.
"For Gods sake, I was kidding." I assured them. "You have a look on your face like I was serious."
"Although," Bill added, "If we decide to buy that house in Baltimore, my Dad has said that maybe we should get married, legally, at a JP, and just not tell anyone."
"I wouldn't like that," my Dad kicked in, "But he may have a point." I would suggest if you do that, don't tell ANYONE."
"You would tell us, right?" my asked, all worried.
"Silvie, you would be happier not knowing, I'm sure. How do we know they aren't married, right now?" My Dad said to make a point to her.
"Well Carl, I'm sure they would have told us," my said and then looked at me imploring, "Wouldn't you?"
"That's my point." My Dad said. "We don't know and would be better off not. If a legal situation makes it to their advantage to get a legal marriage, they might be better off. Nothing would change, that would concern us."
"Well Carl, now you've given me something else to worry about," my said.
Bill stepped in. "I can ease your mind. We are not married in any way right now. If we did do it for any reason, I am sure you and my would know. Don't fret it. It was just something my Dad suggested to make things better financially. Let's worry about it when we have to."
"Actually, we plan on taking a trip overseas, possibly to visit some of Carree's Dads relatives in Poland. We have wanted to go for a long time and one of his brothers is planning an excursion. That expense and a wedding would be hard to handle in the same year." said.
"Well, that's exactly the reason why I wanted to bring this up," Bill said. "We call rule OUT times that are bad for each family."
"OK, Bill," Dad said. "I'll look into things with my brothers excursion plans, as well as things at work. They are planning a move to a bigger complex, and that will eat up tons of my time as well. Way to look ahead on this. We have to get together with Doris and Willie and see what works for them."
My had that worried "Mom" look on her face. I knew she had something to say.
"In this 2 year window you are working with, what would be the soonest, you might look at?"
"Geez, Kasc, that's a good one." Bill said. "What do you think Care, 4 months after graduation?"
"If push came to shove," I began, "We could pull it off that soon, but I would hope for a year. When I daydreamed in high school, I always thought of August or September after we graduated from College, but with jobs and a house in place, the tail is wagging the already."
Bill pushed himself off the front of his chair to get closer to the fire. As he sat in front of chair he drew up his knees and I saw the outline of his crotch. I blushed as he caught me looking, as he smirked.
"I tell you what," Bill said. I planted the seeds, but let's not stress anymore over it tonight. Let's just enjoy the fire and each others company."
"Good idea!" Dad said. "Silvie, how about we refill the hot cocoa and get seconds on pie."
We each held up our cups, game for Dads suggestion. Mom took her tray and piled the empty plates and cups on, saying she would be back with refills. My Dad got up to help her. I slid off my spot on the sofa and sidled up to Bill. I looked around to be sure and Dad had left the room. I brought my hand right onto Bills crotch.
"Aren't you the sexy one, with the tight pants tonight?" I said. "I want seconds, but not of pie."
"These pants aren't tight at all, they just snugged up when I slid down." Bill defended. "You just have a dirty mind." He couldn't hide his smile.
"Well, I haven't eaten what I like to eat for over 2 weeks, so be sure there's plenty for me." I whispered as my Dad led my into the room with a tray of cocoa and a tray of selections.
"Here we are," my Dad said. "I wouldn't want to send you two away without making sure you tried some more pie. Carree made the apple, Bill, so you know you'll always eat good."
I raised an eyebrow to Bill as my Dad made his innocent comment to him. I was just licking my cocoa spoon as he heard the comment. I think I saw a bead of sweat rise up on his forehead.
We all sat and quietly reflected watching the flames dance at the end of a busy Holiday. Bill and I anticipated being with each other by this time and were waiting for the right moment to say our goodbyes. Maybe my wanted some alone time with Dad in front of the fireplace, because she was the one who broke the ice.
"Well Carree, do you have a bag packed with things for the next few days? I guess it doesn't matter much, it's not like you're going to be far. Your Dad has to work tomorrow, so anytime you show up for breakfast, I'll make it for you. You aren't planning on doing any Black Friday shopping are you?"
"I don't think so, Mom," I said. "When we get up, showered and dressed we will be over. I don't think it will be too late. Then, I'll drop Bill back so he can finish something for his journalism class. Then I'm coming back here to study myself. Meg Parker is going to come over in the afternoon and help me perm my hair. She has something she says I HAVE to try. I'm getting it cut for Christmas, so if I hate it, I only have to live with it for a few weeks. Then, I'll get Bill and we'll be here for dinner, if you don't mind. Well, as long as its leftovers!" I presumed.
"Yes, it will be leftovers, and you know this is always your house to come and go as you please, as well as eat. We firmly believe in that "not losing a daughter, but gaining a son" saying. We love you both being here." said.
As she finished, Bill was helping me up and we got coats and I picked up an overnight bag I had to get me through the next couple nights. We were staying in Bills study over the garage, but we had the run of the Wilson's house, so we could shower and eat and all. We could have even stayed in Bills own room, but he felt funny there with me. I guess I understood that. We both kissed my and told her we would see her for breakfast. We told my Dad how sorry we were that he had to work tomorrow, and then I hugged and kissed him and Bill gave him a hug and a handshake.
As many times as we had been together, alone, I still had wet pants anticipating it all over again as we bound off the porch of my house to get to Bills car.
On the short trip up the road to the Wilson house I sat with one leg crooked on the seat. I put my hand right over my and cupped it, catching Bills eye immediately.
"I hope you still want more dessert, because I have a piece of just aching to be eaten, devoured, even." I said as sexy as I could.
"Geez Care, You're going to make me drive off the road. Don't worry I'm still very, very hungry." Bill said with a smile.
"I guess just sitting in the house with you there got me all worked up. I've been looking forward to this for two weeks. I just love sleeping together. Do you think Baltimore will be as much a dream as it was last year? I'll miss the simplicity of the apartment, but a house, one that might be ours, how cool is that?" I bubbled.
"I'll have to admit that about half the way down from Vermont I started to think about you. Seeing you naked in my bed, and how much I wanted you passed through my mind. Damn, the blue devil is back at school too. I'm kind of getting that itch to do the nasty." Bill said with a wink to me.
"Never mind the nasty this weekend. The Back Bay train station has been shut down for a couple days. I had such heartburn on Monday I took a couple of those Pepsid tablets to kill the burn and it shut down the system. I haven't went since . . . " I was saying before Bill stopped me.
"Whoa, more information than I need at this time. Lets discuss bowel habits another time. OK?" Bill said, a little disgusted.
"Well, Billy I was going to tell you anyway, in case you had a wandering tongue tonight." I said, a little embarrassed.
"OK, I guess you're right. Too bad, you know how much I love your butt." He said with a smile.
We just got to his driveway as I reached out and touched his hand that he had rested on my splayed knee.
"Don't worry," I said, "Something tells me we might have fun tonight," adding a giggle.
Bill took his suitcase from the car and opened the side door on the garage. I felt a little blast of heat as soon as he did.
"You were here, already, weren't you? You're so sweet, you got a fire going." I said.
Bill just smiled and turned on the light and said he would be right back as he ran to the main house. He was going to turn on the heat there so we could shower tonight, before retiring.
I went up the stairs and found the room to be warm and I noticed a distinctive sweet smell. Flowers!! There were two nice bouquets in vases, one on the computer table and another beside the sofa/lounger (that Bill called the slouch couch). I had just set my overnight bag down and was fishing for my gown when Bill came up.
"The flowers are a nice touch, Bill, how sweet of you!" I said.
"Flowers?" he said looking around. "Wow, they are nice. My must have put them out. How do you figure? I had the feeling they weren't really too hot for us staying here these few days, and she does this. Oh, well, lets go with the flow."
I clutched my gown to myself and sat on the couch. I was tired from the long day of food and anticipation. I sighed heavily and asked if he were going to shower with me, or if he would meet me there after stoking up the fire.
"You know, if you're tired, we can skip showers tonight and just crash in each others arms. I'm pretty tired myself. Besides, I showered this morning and I'm pretty fresh, and I'm sure you did too right?" Bill asked.
"Showering tonight means not getting to bed for another 45 minutes or an hour. I want you now, baby. How dirty can we be? We can freshen up here in the bathroom." I said agreeing with Bill.
Relieved that I didn't have to run from the house to the garage in the cold after showering, I took my gown to the little bathroom in the study. There was just a toilet and a sink, but Wilson had left a pile of towels there for us so we were set. I stripped off all my clothes and before slipping into my gown I washed myself, giving myself a little tingle doing so. I've never had any reluctance to taste Bill when he wasn't just fresh from a shower, nor he with me. I suppose if we had worked all day or been running, it might make a difference. But after rinsing a little, all that remained was our own musk, that we keenly craved. When I came out of the little room Bill was there, waiting to get in himself. We kissed and I told him I would meet him on the couch.
When Bill came out he was wearing just silk boxers that I had bought for him on Valentines Day. The room was warm enough, he didn't need a shirt, and he looked delicious. Bill came over and adjusted the "slouch of the couch" to its lowest position. It still wasn't flat, but it was not bad for sleeping. It wasn't quite as wide as a double bed, but we slept close, so it worked.
A sheet, a quilt and a comforter assured us that we would be warm, not to mention a considerable amount of body heat we planned to share. I laid myself in Bills arms and we hugged and luxuriated under the covers. Alone at last, the moment we waited for. After a long hug, running our hands over each other Bill kissed me and we were soon necking like 2 kids in the back seat of an Ford. Say what you want for sex and all the joy it brings, being attached at the mouth to Bill was so romantic, so fulfilling, so sweet, it truly made my whole body tingle, this communication so simple. After a good 10 minutes of kissing, and biting at each others lips, necks and tongues, Bill had worked his way on top of me.
"I want to taste you and feel you engorge and under my tongue. I want to make you happy and show you how much I love you. You know I love you forever Carree," he said as his eyes burned into mine in the winter moonlight through the skylight.
He kissed me full on the lips again and rose up a bit to kiss my forehead. He trailed down my neck to the ties at the top of my robe. With his teeth he undid their simple knot and parted my top. With his hands at either side of me to hold himself in a like position, he licked and at my breasts, holding their nipple in his teeth as he pulled his mouth up, letting the nipple bud slip from his grip as the pain of his toothed pinch reached its nadir. With my own hands I squeezed my to satisfy that yearn and to feed them to him again. When I could no longer stand the pain of his bites I covered the nipples between my fingers and felt his tongue trail to my navel. He ate at that for just a moment and sat back onto his knees. No ties were left to be undone. The rest of my robe hung from my hips, but he slid it up, just past my navel. My vagina, smooth and fresh, was his. He chose to kiss and lick every molecule of my sensitive skin until all that was untouched below my waist was the puffy engorged outer flesh of my slit. He tried to fill his mouth with the whole of it but he was denied. I was swollen in anticipation. He quickly sought to worm his tongue to open my and expose my lips. As soon as its treasure was exposed, he flattened his tongue to my clitoris and I shuddered. Bill's tongue danced on my clit until it seemed like it was reaching out to him. He still was using both hands to hold his body over mine, so his tongue was all he had to draw me out and my clit felt like the size of my thumb. It didn't take me long to start to cum and I let him know it with my coo's, grunts and cheering. Just about all of Bill that was touching we was his tongue tip, usually he had fingers in me or was fondling my breasts, but tonight he knelt between my spread legs, his arms holding him up at my side. He reminded me how much I just loved to be eaten.
Once my second orgasm came, the rest were just one blur. I almost used my fingers to try and intensify the electricity by pushing my clit to his tongue, but I was just riding the wave. I was a little lost in my own world of pleasure when I realized I wasn't breathing, I was holding my breath and my clit was like an exposed nerve. It was like I came in the door from the cold.
"UghhhhhOhhh!" I forced out of my lungs as I pushed Bills face away. "No more, No more, I'm going to explode," I said.
Bill tried to get his face back in there, but I had protectively sealed off my with my hand and moved into a semi fetal position. Bill scooped me into his arms like a rag doll and sat back on his knees holding me. My eyes caught his as he smiled and pivoted a little and fell back onto the sofa with me in tow, now on top of him.
He loosened his grip and I stretched out over him.
"How did you do that, Tarzan?" I said as I ground my butt into his groin and rolled off him. "You handled me like an animal," I said as I roared like a lion.
"I thought you were going to hold me down and fuck me, sodomize me, like a beast. I thought I was going to have to fight you off." I said half kidding, half serious, remembering his hard cock touching my ass as he held me in his arms.
No," Bill responded, "I just wanted to feel your body against me. I wanted to play off your orgasm, you were electric."
"Oh, don't worry," I warned him, "You'll have your own orgasm." I said as I wrapped my hand around the base of his package of manhood. "I wish you could fuck me tonight, spontaneously like that. Just shove it in and drive me nuts. But, someday it will happen, and it's getting closer too, baby." I said as I covered his face with kisses.
I wanted to slowly work my mouth down to his cock, but I had it and part of his ball sack in my hand already and I couldn't wait. With one hand around the base of his cock and the other cradling his balls I knelt beside him and took the bulb of his cock in my mouth. Oh, the smooth velvet surface under my tongue! That musky of mine taste! I loved his cock. I gently worked his balls in my hand and stroked him slightly with my other. Meanwhile I was loose lipped around his cock head, up and down, up and down. I know how to drive my crazy.
Bill was whipped right up to the edge of cumming already. "Ha haa haaa, Oh my God Carree, that's wild." He said as he reached down and took his cock in his hand. I sat up and looked at him, quizzing his move with my eyes.
"Get between my legs and suck the out of me Carree. Let me watch you milk it and drink it. You're so beautiful when you do that. Ahh, do it now, suck it off." He implored me.
I scooted down and brought his leg over my head and knelt right between his legs.
"I'll do that Bill. I want that cum. I want all your love juice." I said as I took him in my mouth, with no hands, and milked him with my lips and cheeks.
God, I wanted it, to taste a hot from him to me.
I had barely got into a rhythm when he began to leap at my mouth and I could taste some salty pre-cum. I didn't want him to go this fast, but he was ready to cum. When I felt he was right on the brink, I wrapped my hand around it and jerked it hard. His first blast of watery hit the top of my mouth and I began swallowing. I was milking and swallowing, one spurt, then another. He shuddered and then another blast leapt to the back of my throat and then he melted back into the couch. I would milk and until he had me stop, and it didn't take long to reach his breaking point. When he pushed me away I removed my mouth, but kept his cock in my hand, massaging it between my thumb and forefingers. I wanted to hug it to my cheek and fall asleep with it, but he was calling me.
"Come here baby, come here lover. Give me those lips and lets taste each other," he said as I crawled up and mashed my mouth to his. We kissed and held each other as we caught our breaths. The next thing I knew, the morning sun just peeked through the east-facing front window of the loft/study over the Wilson's garage.
I wasn't sure if it was 6, 7, or 8 o'clock. I just knew I really, really had to pee. I also knew the fire had went out and outside of the quilt and comforter it was cold, and the seat on that was going to be like ice.
I turned a little to see Bill and he was just opening his eyes.
"Holy crap, Care. We passed out!" Bill said as he realized we were still nude under the covers.
"A fire Bill, build a fire. Warm! Please!" I pleaded.
He obeyed well as he rolled out from under the covers and I watched his cute ass run to the stove and open it. "Hot dog!" Bill said, there's still some embers," as he put some smaller pieces in and followed them with one larger piece of log.
"That should get things started, until I piss," he said as his cute ass disappeared into the little bathroom. He came out a minute later and I asked him if he warmed the seat for me.
"The electric heat is always on, at like 55 degrees, to keep the pipes from freezing, but I closed the bathroom door last night, so it's warm in there." He said.
Hearing that I jumped out of the covers and ran to the toilet holding my arms across my to combat the cool air of the room.
Once I got in the warm bathroom and sat I hollered out to Bill. "I'm staying here until you tell me the heats up in there."
"I guess I'll just have to jerk off by myself then," he hollered back.
Hearing that I jumped up and wiped myself and ran back to the bed. "That's my cock and you leave it alone." I said giggling as I jumped back onto the warm sofa.
I reached down between his legs and he was raising a pole.
"Did I do that?" I asked.
"Yeah, you did. When I got back in the couch after peeing I hit your warm spot and I could smell you. Bingo! Hard-on! We ARE like animals," he said smiling.
I was about to tell him I would finish off for him, if he wanted to start it, when I felt a familiar feeling.
"Shit!" I shouted. "Literally! I haven't crapped in 2 days and all of a sudden NOW it decides to come calling. I can't wait." I said as I ran back across the cold room.
As I just made it to the john I heard Bill say to no one. "Man, could I ask for a sexier babe, or what?"
If he knew what my getting my bowels back to normal might mean to our sex life tonight, he may not have been joking around. I wanted to feel him inside me. We hadn't been that cozy in months, and being together, sleeping together for 2 more nights made me want to get close. . . real close.
By the time I finished in the bathroom Bill had gotten up and had our things together to trek to the house for showers. Ten minutes ago I was ready to eat up his sex juices, but nature calling had kind of ruined the moment. I was pretty sure we could make up for any lost moments.
I put on shoes and yesterdays clothes and ran through the brisk November air with Bill to the house. I hated wearing dirty clothes, but it was just until showers.
Bill turned up the heat and made a pot of coffee while I sat and shivered in the kitchen. Once he made the rounds of the house to be sure all was fine he came out to me.
"Do you want to shower first, or do you want to have your coffee?" he asked.
I stuck out my lower lip to pout. "You mean we aren't showering together?" I wondered.
"It's just a regular tub Care, not a lot of room." He warned.
"Then we can hold each other closer. Don't you want to hold me under the hot water, . . . . and soap me up?" I said with a wink.
"You sure you want to get naughty in my shower?" Bill asked through narrowed eyes.
I stood up and put my arms around Bills neck.
"I really don't think of it as being naughty, as much as making love to you . . .and I would make love to you anywhere, OK?" I said seriously. "It isn't where I am, it's who I'm with, and you're the only one I care to be with."
"I'm sorry," he said. "I guess I just can't get over doing it here in their house."
I slid my hand down the front of his sweatpants and held his cock in my hand.
"I bet if I put your cock in my mouth in that shower, you would do just fine." I said in a low whisper.
Bill rolled his eyes and said "Ohhh Yeeahh, I'm sure!"
We made our way into the shower together and washed each other thoroughly. To scrub, rub and touch each other's bodies under hot water has such an erotic sensation to it. At one time I had a problem with Bill washing certain personal places on me, but after all of the sexual situations we had shared, our bodies held no secrets.
That morning, with soapy fingers simultaneously at my butt and vagina, I came to a loud, exhausting orgasm, ending with my holding onto Bill around his neck to regain my composure. He never ceased to amaze me with the height's he could bring me too.
We barely finished rinsing when the water began to cool and we had to cut our shower time off. I was disappointed I had not gotten a chance to reciprocate my love to Bill. Making love to his penis under a hot water spray had a distinct erotic quality to it.
As we dried each other off the smell of hot coffee from the kitchen made us hurry to taste the morning brew. We took our cups and went into the Wilson living room, with Bill fetching the morning paper from the front stoop. While Bill sat in an easy chair taking in the news, I spread the black Friday ads and flyers in the floor to see if there were any sales I couldn't pass up. At one point I looked up and saw our reflections in the dark screen. Bill consumed in his news, with me at his feet next to him, reading quietly, sharing a peaceful moment separately, but together, with our coffee. This was how our life together would be. I smiled inward to myself, happy that life had been so kind to our spirit.
I turned to share my reflection with Bill and I saw he had stopped reading his paper, looking at me and perhaps sharing the same thought. I knelt up and turned to him seeking his lips for a kiss to seal our shared thought. He smiled and touched my hand as our lips met. The vibration told me we had shared the same thought. I smiled as I went to go back to my ads and flyers. Turning, my eyes passed the opening in his robe. The treasure that eluded me in the shower was peeking up and out. While Bill seemed to turn his mind back to his newspaper, I suddenly had other thoughts.
I spun a little and knelt up again, taking his penis in my hand and mouth in one movement. Stunned but not shocked, Bill lifted his paper and looked down at me adoringly. Our eyes met and then I closed mine as I moved more between his legs and gave my attention to my purpose at hand.
Bill stroked my hair exulting aloud of how good it felt, how much he loved me, and how these moments would be many in our life's after we were married. I drank in his words as I reveled in the great feeling it was to have his penis in my mouth, where I could feel his heart beat and savor a feel and taste that was him and him alone.
"Ooo, I'm gonna cum, Do you want my cum, Carree?" Bill said, short of breath, suddenly getting close to orgasm.
"Ummm hmmm," was all I could answer as I sank my mouth deeper over his prong, as if I had time to refuse it, if I wanted to.
Quick jets of his juice hit the top of my mouth as I swallowed and teased the underside of his penis head, trying to coax all he had from his balls. He was salty but sweeter than normal this morning as I continued to milk him to get the final drops he had for me. He was throwing his head back in jerks hoping I would release his sensitive dick. Finally I took hold of it in my hand and held it out in front of my face.
"Anymore?" I asked. "Lover, anymore?" I asked with a smile for him.
Still unable to speak, he just shook his head.
I pulled his robe over his cock and patted him on the thigh.
"Come on, baby. Lets get dressed and let my make us a big breakfast. We earned it today. Despite my appetizer, I'm still hungry." I said. Then reaching into his robe to grab him one more time I teased, "Unless, you have more for me."
With that he jumped up and offered a hand to help me up.
"No, I couldn't take any more right now. Wow, you are amazing Carree. We sure know how to love each other," Bill said.
"We do, I replied. "Maybe we can do something extra special tonight." I said sliding his hand down to my butt.
I put my arm around him to walk out to the garage study together. We walked through the cool morning air back to get dressed and head to my house for breakfast.
My fixed us a huge breakfast, despite the fact we ate so much on Thanksgiving. She asked if I could drop her off at the Mall and pick her up if she needed a ride later. With all she had done for us, it was hard to refuse.
Before I dropped Bill back to his study he went with me to drop off and on the way back he asked me to stop at the Super Drug to get HBA supplies for going back to school. He grabbed a hand basket and went off while I looked for a few things myself. He found me with his basket full of shampoo, pre-shave, razors, mouthwash etc.
"I borrowed lots of stuff from my room mate the last 2 days at school until I could get to a drug store. You can see I was out of most everything." Bill said. "Can I add a few things to your basket?" I asked as I put 2 Fleet enemas and a tube of KY jelly lube in with his load.
"I'm not making any promises, Bill, but I think my other problem cleared out this morning. We don't have the devil though, (my "little blue devil" anal plug/dilator) so you know sometimes things don't work." I said. Then grabbing his arm and pulling him close I whispered, "Since we're alone I want to be special tonight, up inside me. If it doesn't work out, I'm sure we'll have a good time."
Bill knew what I was referring to. A couple times in the past we had anal sex without using the devil. I experienced a little more than the usual pain but it quickly went away and we got away without really doing all the right prep to insure a good experience. However, we hadn't packed the devil a couple other times and we tried it, but had to stop because I experienced too much discomfort. Bill hates it when it hurts me. Maybe without the devil, but with the enemas we can pull it off. That was why I was always in control with anal intercourse. If it wasn't working, if I couldn't open up, I stopped it and he never complained. Although I always experience some very minor pain, if Bill knew of that, he would probably have stopped. It, as well as oral sex, is the closest inter personal one on one, give and take, sex experience you can have.
Bill went to the counter and paid for everything. I brought him out to his parent's house, we kissed and I agreed to leave him to his work and would see him in the afternoon. When I got back to my house it was quiet and great for studying. I had the rest of the morning and early afternoon until Meg came over to perm my hair for me.
It was amazing how well I studied and how well my concentration was. I kept thinking that it was like Baltimore last summer where I could work all day with no stress, knowing my Bill would be there for me at the end of the day. Although I would have much rather spent the day with him, shopping, visiting friends, or going to movie, we were on the downward slope of college and wanting to finish with a flourish was important to me. I was always sort of disappointed that most of our alone time was spent having sex, because we were so much more than that. But, it seemed our time away was spent missing each other, so what do you do to cure that? As we had proved to each other in Baltimore, when we had so much time together, we made a great couple and were each other's best friends, as well as good bedmates.
I heard Meg's car come up our drive and I was glad to put down my book and stow my notes. I was getting to the blur point on the chapter I was reviewing. I looked to the door to motion her in and I felt like I was looking at a of me. I usually had my blonde hair cut into a short Meg Ryan type of shaggy look, and she had the long dirtier flowing tresses. Meg had lightened her hair and cut it much like I normally do. I on the other hand had let mine grow out, (Bill liked it like that - I hated it) and right away I knew what she wanted to do.
"Meg, you rat, you stole my hair." I kidded her as we hugged.
"Your told me that you let your hair grow out. When she told me you were going to keep it until Christmas, I knew what I had to do. I'm going to give you a Meg Parker special, and show you how to do it." She said laughing.
"Oh, Meg. I HATE it, but Billy loves it like this so I gave him till Christmas before I cut it." I said making a face. "I like the low maintenance, like yours."
"Oh, God. Jimmy hates my hair like this, but I hadn't cut it more than a couple inches in 12 or 15 years. I like it long, but I just wanted new hair. I lightened it so I would know when all new hair had grown in. I know I'm silly." Meg said. "Carree with your cheekbones and chin, if you do it like mine was, you'll look just like Michelle Pfeiffer."
"No, I'll look like you. How can you stand this? I must spend an hour a day drying and combing and styling." I said, wishing I had her low maintenance coif.
"Hey, we do it for our guys. Jimmy loves when my hair is long. He does all that kinky stuff with it. You Know!" Meg said.
"No", I said laughing. "I don't know."
"Carree, don't pull that innocent stuff with me. You guys lived together all last summer. Don't tell me that you've never gotten some of his stuff in your hair, and he doesn't like to rub his thing through it." Meg said, a little exasperated with me.
"Thing?" I said. "Meg, Bill hasn't got a THING." I deadpanned.
Although Meg and I have been best friends, we never got into the nitty gritty details of our sex lives once we really committed to our partners. We intimated some things, but never came out and said them. I think she wanted to talk about some of those things, beyond the giggly stuff we talked about at slumber parties and like that. One slumber party we played a truth or dare type of game where she gave us details of her first sex with Jimmy. But, that was a trying to act grown up. I guess maybe now was the time to open that door. As we got more and more committed in our relationships, having that trusted third ear was going to make a difference if a problem came up. Megan was the I never had. Meg's own sisters were moved out of the house by the time she needed them there to ask all the questions. She sought out their advice a lot, but there was never the spur of the moment one on one between sisters like she and I had. I opened up some doors to Meg, but I always kept a foggy shroud around the real details.
Meg looked at me stunned for a second. "No "thing", huh?" she laughed.
"No Meg, Bill has a cock, a dick, a prick, a penis. I'm sorry, I don't mean to pull an innocent act with you. It's just some things I consider way too private, but I suppose if I can't talk to you, who do I talk to?" I said, and then paused waiting for a reaction.
She exhaled, as if some great barrier had just fallen at her feet. Still, she said nothing.
"So," I began. "You want to compare notes, huh?"
Meg smiled real big and then hugged me.
"Oh, I do Carree, and not to be nosey. It's just you don't know what to think sometimes, and . . . "
"I know," I interrupted. " I have the same questions myself. I can't even really open up with my roommates, Henny and Maria, and I've lived with them for 4 years now. If you don't think THAT'S personal, you know every little bodily function; there are no private moments. Last summer Maria was brutally attacked and raped and she told us every little sordid embarrassing detail. I couldn't do that if it were me, unless I was talking to you."
Meg scanned her eyes around the room as if she were looking for some other person who might be listening. "Umm, Bill doesn't like to play with your long hair or anything when you're . . .you're giving . . . Oh, God maybe I can't do this!" Meg started to back off.
"MEG," I said, "do you mean when I'm doing him in my mouth? him? C'mon, you were the one who wanted to talk." I said, slightly peeved.
'I'm sorry, Care. I guess I had to get that first question out of the way. But, that's what I meant. If you're giving him head, isn't there some kink all have with long hair. Isn't it WHY they like long hair?" Meg said.
"I can't speak for all Meg, I have only known Bill, and no he doesn't have any kinks like wanting to wrap my hair around it. I usually have him so crazy he can't think or do anything anyway. Just so you don't have to beat around the bush, I don't get any in my hair either. It all goes right here." I said rubbing my tummy.
Meg's eyes bugged out of her head, "You're kidding! You swallow! How can you stand the taste? Ewww, I get sick!" She said making a face.
"Megan, it's Bill! It's the juice from his very core. It's the seed that will someday make our family. It has little taste, salty and sweet, and if you are sucking him while he cums, his orgasm is that much more intense. It drives him so crazy, that I LOVE doing it. Do you still want to compare notes, Meg?"
"I'm sorry Carree, I just didn't think that you would do that. It seems so disgusting." Meg said continuing to make a face.
"Disgusting? I make love to the that I love with my mouth. It is so personal. We are so close. I can feel his heart beat through his penis. He sweet-talks and exalts me while I do it telling me how much he loves me and how much pleasure I am giving him. So, when he reaches the culmination of my act of love, I'm supposed to be disgusted by it? It's one of the most wonderful; most personal things 2 people can share." I explained.
"This is a we are talking about, Carree." Meg said, still disgusted.
"Megan, you are I are going to have a problem here. I don't give blowjobs. I make love to the most wonderful man in the world, and some times I do it with my mouth. Just like sometimes he makes love to me with his mouth. We are filled with love and passion for each other. Don't ever tell me that I am anything less than a devoted lover to my partner for the rest of my life. If Bill was here to even hear you even say the word, "blowjob", he would jump all over you. We make love to each other to express our love and provide satisfaction and personal joy over our love." I said defending myself.
"Meg," I added, "Maybe we shouldn't talk about sex. Obviously it is something we have strong feelings about. OK?"
"Yeah, I guess so. You kind of shocked me there. Let me do your hair, and I'll give you those long crinkly tresses that Bill will find very sexy." Meg said.
I agreed and Meg went to work on my hair. She wanted to do the doo all herself. An hour later we were sitting with my hair rolled with all kinds of little sponges and clips, all new to me. I never fussed that much. When I grew it out, natural bob and curl made it look nice, at least to me, and of course to Bill.
Meg had come prepared with a hard bonnet hair dryer and all. While I sat under the heat I wondered what I had gotten myself into. The dryer was fairly quiet and we chatted while my hair dried.
"Did you have sex every night when you lived together, Care?" Meg asked.
"Umm, most every night Meg. Lying together and falling asleep in each other arms is pretty intense. When the stress of work would get the best of us, we would shelter ourselves in each other's arms. Sometimes we would fight if we directed the stress the wrong way, so making love was usually the better way." I answered.
"Jimmy wants me to move in with him, Care. In a lot of ways I really want to, but he says we should start having real sex again if we do." Meg confessed.
"Real sex, huh?" I said. "Just what is that?"
Meg welled up a bit. "You know, Care, real intercourse, fucking! We do it every once in a while now, but it makes me worry until I get my period. It's not that I don't like it, I do. But, when we do it now it's like he makes me feel guilty, like our staying away from it is his punishment."
"Punishment? Punishment for what?" I asked her.
"I don't know. It's like he's needy and only I hold the key. We have a lot of other sex, but he says none of it is as real as good screwing." Meg said acting a little confused.
"Meg, if you want to talk now, you'll have to be frank and straight forward, OK? Just what does "lots of other sex" mean?" I asked.
Meg blushed and then looked away and started speaking.
"I give him blowjobs, and jerk him off, let him fuck my mouth, my breasts. I can't believe I'm telling you this." Meg said, her voice wavering.
"Meg, what does he do for you?" I asked.
"He likes to watch me and sometimes he plays with me, or licks me there. I really don't care for much, he makes me feel so guilty." She said with a tear.
"Megan, what are you talking about? Guilty?" I ask, almost horrified at what I heard.
"Carree, I really love Jimmy, we have so much fun together, but when we get alone and we start to get romantic, it gets to a point where he says, "Well, since you won't fuck me, what can you do for me? I have given in and let him make love to me, and it's wonderful. But, like I said, the worry until I have my period is agonizing." She said eyed.
"Megan, he is abusing you! How can you put up with that crap. You've let it get out of hand. Sex without vaginal intercourse can be a full complete sex life for the both of you. Bill and I wear each other out, and he's never been inside my pussy, umm. . .sorry if that word offends you. Jesus God, I feel like going down and beating his ass myself, treating you that way. His dick isn't the most important thing in your relationship!!" I railed at her.
Megan was full-fledged crying now. I pushed the hair dryer away and held her head to my shoulder.
"WHAT ELSE CAN I DO, Carree! My sisters both got pregnant on the pill, and my warned me that, while they wanted children, all 3 of us were unplanned at the time. I'm petrified of getting pregnant and I don't want to lose Jimmy!" Meg blubbered.
"Well, I would love to tell you something nice Meg, but I think you're going down the road to an abusive relationship, and your self esteem in on the line as well." I opined.
Meg sat up and looked at me, tears in her eyes.
"I think it's already going that way. How do I stop it and still keep Jimmy. He is so good in so many ways. He's just being an asshole about sex. What do I do Carree?"
"First of all Meg you have to get control of yourself and stand up to Jimmy. If it is your firm decision NOT to have sex where you could get pregnant, that's it. That's final. If he talks you into it, it's rape. If that's the case, he does not respect you, pure and simple. Secondly, when the two of you get intimate, it is about BOTH of you. He should try as hard as you to make you happy. Thirdly, set your bounds so he knows how far it will go. Lastly, Meg, if he insists going beyond those bounds, you have to get up and leave. I know this all sounds easy, but you HAVE to sit down and talk with him and let him know that your relationship depends on this. You have to be strong enough to swing the hammer at this level. If he thinks for a minute you might give in, he won't budge." I lectured.
"Do you know how hard this will be? He's bound to just bolt from me, or try to manhandle me to get his way." Meg said.
"Then he's not worth keeping. Remember back in high school, I stood him down with words and he almost cried in my face when he thought he might have you. I would tell him that you are sick of being used and, more or less, raped. If he wants to see you again he can call you for a date. Start over again. Tell him how defeated you feel when you give into him. Wouldn't he like you to make love back to him, rather than be a sperm receptacle? Tell him he hasn't made you feel like a woman in a long time, and you're sick of hearing your girlfriends brag about their men. But, I also think you will have to show him how you can completely love him, bring him the most pleasure. If you act like his orgasm is poison, why would he want to have it with you that way?"
"I can't DO that, Care. It grosses me out." Meg cried.
"Well, at least take it and then spit it out. If you love him, that's part of him. Sometime I don't want Bills, and I get rid of it. Do it in the shower the first time, he might not even notice it." I suggested.
"Ewww, shower together? I don't want him to see me washing everywhere, or do I want to see him do that." Meg said.
I was incredulous.
"Meg, washing and touching EVERY part of each others body is making love all by itself. What in hell is wrong with you? I don't like this comparing notes thing too much, but I can tell you that Bills tongue on my ass, and I mean my butt hole, is one of those things that sends me right over the line. Since I know how good it feels, I do it to him too. Open up and start behaving like a woman, a passionate complete woman. If we were 18 years old, it would be one thing. But, you and Jimmy have been "getting married" forever. How in God's name can you marry a you don't know, and I mean know the way God put him here. You have to give your self and your bodies to each other."
"Carree, do you really think that's true love? I can't open up like that. I have my morals and standards." Meg said.
"Megan, if you don't feel that way about Jimmy, maybe you really aren't in love with him. He clearly uses you, and you're letting him. I know you may think I am jaded or something, but you really need to talk to someone else. Maybe I am all wet, but wet works for me. Can you talk intimately with Heidi, and I mean INTIMATELY. Can you discuss what we talked about today? Call your sisters and tell them you HAVE to speak with them right away. Don't pull any punches. Tell them the WHOLE story. If you can't WILLINGLY give your whole self to the relationship, you are kidding yourself. Megan Parker, you are the closest thing I have to a sister and I love you. I want you to be happy. I don't want you to be hurt. I pray all of my friends can be as happy as I am, as Bill and I are. I am heartbroken to think you aren't."
Megan jumped into my arms and we hugged and cried.
"Carree, I am so sorry for judging you. I was the one who wanted to talk and get advice. You only told me what you knew. I will talk to my sisters, hopefully tonight. I haven't talked to Heidi in a while; maybe this is an excuse to. She will be straight up with me." Meg apologized. "Sit down, let me finish your hair and I'll be on my way. Forgive me for upsetting you so."
"You just get your head on straight, and your relationship on track. That's what I want. Megan." I told her.
Megan finished taking the curlers, sponges, clips and what-have-you from my perm and combed out my hair. I had long crinkly tresses with a little bob to it. I knew Bill would be overjoyed, because I hated it. I still liked my low maintenance regular doo. But, I did look like a magazine ad. I could look very comely, very sexy. Here I was, at a point of crisis with my best friend, and the thought of how hard Bill would be just looking at me tonight made me flush.
As Meg packed up her stuff I offered her these parting words.
"Meg, when two people love each other, they give themselves totally and completely. No sex act, as long as you agree upon it, together, is too kinky or too anything. The more you open yourself to your lover, comfortably, the more at ease and confidant you will be with your love. If you cannot be that open, that confident, you may not be ready to commit. If you think that washing each others body, or even watching each other wash is over the line, you may have a commitment problem, or a confidence problem. Meg, you are every bit as good looking as any out there, and you know it. There is no reason to stay in a bad relationship, or even a relationship you want to BE good, but know is bad. There are lots of out there who would give their right arm to be with you. You are a smart, good-looking with a great personality. You are going to school and plan to have your own career. You would be a great catch. Don't feel like this is the end of your road and you have to settle. I like Jimmy, a lot, and I think he loves you. I just think that sometime in the past, and right now, he has used you. I am not even sure he knows he is doing it, because I think he loves you and would never hurt you purposely. But, you can't let him, or any dominate you. Let me tell you something. Bill Wilson is my best friend, my soul mate. There are things that happen in life that you cannot tell anyone, not you, not even my parents. I confidently share those things with Bill. He is the one who knows every little thing about me, and I about him. In the course of life, life happens, Meg. Remember, you have to share the good things, and then roll with the rest. Some things aren't pleasant, but are part of life. He's given me enemas. He's changed my tampon, and wiped my butt when my hands were bandaged after burning them last year. I've popped a boil between the cheeks of his butt, found and removed a tick from just beside his balls. We are each other. Can you say that about Jimmy, or could you think it was possible to, if it's not true, why not? That's how close we are, how much we are each other. I'm not saying every committed couple is like this, but could YOU be?"
"Carree, I cannot imagine being that close or confidant with anyone. I'm trying to find a way to talk about oral sex with Heidi or my sisters, even though they probably know or figure I do it. I can't beat down those walls you have. You and Bill are special, I guess. Thanks for the pep talk. I will weigh everything before I decide what to do. You are my best friend, I tell you things I would never say to Jimmy. I suppose it shouldn't be that way. I don't trust him enough, which speaks volumes to me, now. I'll stay in touch with you and talk before you go back tomorrow. I can always call you at school if I miss you." Meg said before hugging and kissing me.
Her eyes were filled with tears as she left my Moms house, her dryer and perm bottles in tow. "Thank You," she whispered as the door closed behind her.
I felt vindicated that I had defended my deep commitment to my love, and still sad that Meg was nowhere near in the relationship I thought she was. I tried to ask myself where she went wrong and came up with the first time she gave in to Jimmy at his families camp. She was a confused sophomore who was dating a senior and I am sure she felt she had to do it to keep him. If Jimmy had been as sexually experienced as he professed, it may have been different still. I was afraid that Meg loved being in love and may have forced the issue upon herself even when she had second thoughts early on.
I still had Megan in mind when the phone rang. My needed that ride home from the mall. I only needed to find something decent to wear to go with my new look. I didn't want to have Bill see me the first time with this look in a t-shirt and jeans. I found a tight pair of slacks and a sexy top that I could go braless with. If I thought my was going to see how I looked under my long coat I would have went more conservative, but she wouldn't. I was only going to drop her off before I went to meet Bill.
My piled bags in the back seat and got in the car at our meeting point. I had just pulled away from the curb when she noticed my hair.
"My Lord Carree, you look like a in that hairdo. You are so pretty when you frame your face like that. I hope you and Bill aren't planning to go out tonight, because once he sees you I have a feeling you'll be staying in.
"Oh, Mother!!" I blushed, but she was probably right.
I dropped my off with her packages at home and before I pulled away she again promised breakfast for Saturday morning. She said that if we got there by 9:30 or so we could have breakfast with her and my Dad. Not knowing what the night would bring, I told her I would call her in the morning.
As I pulled up to the Wilson house I saw Bill getting the mail from the box on the road. Knowing that my hair would stop him in his tracks, I slowed and asked in my best southern accent, "Hey Darlin' could y'all show me to the Wilson house, Honey? . . .Please?" "Holy Shit Carree, where did you get that hair? You're beautiful. You look like a in those underwear store ads. Wow, Megan did this for you. I'll have to buy her a nice present for Christmas." Bill overflowed compliments to me.
"Don't get too excited lover boy. This took over an hour to do and if you think I'm going to maintain this everyday, you're nuts. Besides," I said tipping my head to accentuate my sexiest pout, "You'd love me if I was bald wouldn't you?"
Bill leaned into the car and kissed my cheek and then pushed back my hair to nip at my ear lobe and then whisper to me; "I already love you bald, licky licky."
His insinuation made my cream and the rest of me shudder. He opened the door and pushed me over and drove us back up to the garage. As soon as he put it in PARK he turned and planted his lips on mine and pushed me back onto the seat. After kissing me and running his tongue over mine he sat up and undid the button of my coat. He wasn't prepared for what I was wearing underneath.
"My God Carree I've had a hard-on for the last hour thinking about making love to you tonight, and you show up looking like this, I may just in my pants. I know what I want for dinner and it's not on any menu." He said with a smirk.
"I had a feeling, my did too, that we wouldn't be getting out for dinner tonight once you saw me." I said giggling, as Bill mashed his mouth to mine and pushed me back on the seat.
We swapped spit like a couple of teenagers out in Daddy's car. It felt like high school. He took his lips from mine and just looked at my face smiling.
"I can hardly believe I can call you mine, you are so beautiful. What can I do to make you happy Carree? Anything. Just name it." Bill said while looking past my eyes and into a place only lovers see.
I misted up with tears, the power of our love so strong, so overwhelming, just knowing we had all of each other to share tonight.
"I want to be naughty with you Bill, that would make me happy. I want you to make love to me, and me to you. Eat me, fuck me, and feed me. How's that for a night between lovers? Lets show each other how happy we can make us each. I love you so, so much Bill. I can hardly wait until I can hold you every night." I whispered to him.
My words caused Bill to run his hands around me and grip me tightly to him.
"May this moment last forever," he whispered. "To know I can hold you so warm and tightly to me and that you are thinking what you are thinking is enough to make a life complete."
"Let's stop the words, and go inside, Bill. I want you." I said as I pushed my way to the car door.
"Go into the main house baby, we can shower and then run up to the studio, OK?" Bill said.
"Anything you want," I said as I made my way to the Wilson's door. We just got inside and the phone rang. It was Bills parents and they were checking on us. They planned on getting home early on Sunday and they wanted Bill and I to wait for them before going back to school. As long as they stayed away for tonight, I didn't care what they wanted to do.
Once off the phone Bill shucked his coat and turned up the heat. I decided to turn up the heat a little myself by taking off my coat to reveal my sexy outfit. My slacks were tight. I'm pretty sure they weren't even mine. I think they were Henny's, something mixed up from the laundry. My top was a sweater type cut of jersey, that I normally wore braless under a sweater. Without the sweater, I was a biology book. With my long hair, now made sexy and crinkly by Megan's perm, I knew I was playing to Bills fantasy. He never really liked me to dress for sexcess in public, but behind closed doors, he was fine with it.
I struck a pose as he walked around the corner into the dining room-kitchen foyer.
"Wow, Carree, you are some sexy fox. Have I ever told you how gorgeous you are? My God I . . . " he started before I took his hand and pulled him to me to embrace.
"Shhhh," I said. "Don't tell me how sexy I look. Show me what it does to you."
He pulled me into his arms and slid his right hand down my back and rested it on the round of my buttock, while his left went behind my head and held my face to his while he kissed me. Soon his left hand slid down to cup the other half of my butt as he pulled his middle to mine. His kiss deepened as he slid his hands up to the sides of my and pushed them together while waving his body side to side against my nipples. A giggle interrupted our kiss as a side effect of my braless nipple teasing.
"I wanted to be extra sexy, and just for you tonight. You know this isn't "me" in these clothes," I said.
"I know, I'm used to admiring Henny's ass in these slacks. I recognize them by the designer label at the crease of your cheek," he said as he patted my butt.
"You know these pants from Henny's ass? I hadn't realized you looked at her that closely." I scolded him.
"I love butts, and hers is sure cute. She puts it on display enough, with pants like these. But, no one, and I mean that truly, through and through, no one has a butt like yours, baby. It's sheer eye magic." Bill said.
"I hope you won't be thinking of her butt tonight," I said as I pulled him close and curled my tongue in his ear, "While you're fucking mine."
Bill shuddered and pulled me close.
"Don't worry. You will know who I love tonight." He said.
"Let's do the uglier part of getting ready for each other, so we can immerse ourselves in our passions, what do you say?" I said.
"You call the shots, baby." He said as he pulled me close and rubbed his crotch to mine.
"Bring me to the bathroom and peel me out of these pants. How's that for a starter?" I asked.
"How do we get from this house to our room across the way after showers?" Bill asked.
"You're going to make love to me in your room, Bill, in THIS house. The room where you jacked off thinking about me, is going to be your fantasy island tonight," I whispered.
Bill turned and then flushed, looking me in the eye. Then with a waver in his voice he said, "OK, but be gentle with me."
I shook my head and laughed at him. I was the one who was going to get a penis pushed up my exit ramp, but I must admit I was doing it willingly. Feeling him inside me was just so special, I just hoped there were no problems tonight.
"How do you want to do it," Bill asked. "Your butt, you call the shots."
"You are so sweet, your and Dad would be proud. Umm, why don't we do the Fleet bottles first, then shower and go to bed. To go back and do the poopie part later would break a mood, although I would love to have you RIGHT NOW. So lets go in the bathroom and get started so we can get to the fun part." I said reluctantly.
"Carree, we don't HAVE to do this. I love it, but, you make me happy in so many ways, and vice-versa." Bill said.
"No, Bill, I want this as much as you. I have a need for feeling you inside of me, and I can't lie, I LOVE this too. The fuss and the mess are a nuisance, but in the end, pardon my pun, it doesn't even play in my decision." I said as I cupped his face in my hands as lovingly as I could. I brought my face as close to his as I could without kissing and pressed my nose to his, whispering, "I want you to fuck me, love. Make love to me and let me feel you in my very core. If there is a problem, I'll let you know. I know you don't want to hurt me, cause me any pain. Now come, get me ready for your cock."
"God, I love you," Bill said as he picked me up and carried me to the bathroom.
Once he set me down, he kissed me gently while beginning to pull my slinky top over my head. Once he gave up my lips to get it over my head I heard him catch his breath as he saw and admired my breasts. He peeled my top off my arms and set it aside, bending slightly to kiss each of my nipples. I reached and held each for him to suckle. It felt so good to feel his gentle mouth there. Then he stood back and fumbled at the catch for my pants. Once solved, he lowered the zipper and then reached behind me to unbutton the snug and lower that short zipper. He pushed down at my hips to push the tight pants from me. I offered each leg for him to pull them off. I stood before him in a t-back thong.
"You are so beautiful Carree," he said. "Please don't get sick of hearing me say that. I can never get enough of just looking at you."
He hugged and kissed me again, running his hands over my side and hips, settling on my butt. As we broke the kiss I could see a mist in his eyes. I knew then, and whenever this happened, that we understood the depth and ferocity of our love. We were truly rooted to each other where tears of disbelief sometimes formed. Being this much in love hardly seemed possible.
I reached to my hips and pinched the waist string to my and began to lower it, while turning round and leaning over the counter. Bill knew I was anxious to get this little ritual over so we could dive into each other's love.
The first of the Fleet bottles brought more results than usual and I began to worry that maybe I wasn't as ready to open this road as I thought. But I was able to retain the second bottle, some 15 minutes later, for a long time with little result. It gave me a confidence that we might have a real positive experience tonight. We had spent the waiting time in the shower cleaning ourselves for each other. We figured this was ideal for having a sexless shower, so we could save ourselves for the bedroom. I wanted to wait a few minutes to be sure to purge a bit more of the enema fluid. I had read that the "sigmoid pocket" held a reserve that could show up if you waited long afterward for sex. After I threw Bill out of the bathroom I inverted myself and got that second little urge and took care of it. Then I stepped back into the shower to rinse and clean myself.
Bill had left me his robe to be warm upon leaving the shower and I donned it knowing I could look so much better in my own, if had brought it. Still I made the most of it trying to look sexy, I let it plunge to my waist, at the tie, and it wasn't too long. I went to his room where he was lying with a towel around himself reading, of course. I struck a pose in the doorway and cleared my throat.
"Oh man, I never looked so good in that robe." Were all the words he could muster.
He smiled and put down his magazine and knelt up on the bed motioning me to him with a crooked finger. I answered his beck by coming to meet his lips, but his strong arms pulled me down on the bed and he parted my robe in one move. He shifted till he knelt between my legs and began a shower of kisses, licks and caresses from my forehead to my belly button, that had me breathing heavy in anticipation in no time. Bill sat back on his haunches and grabbed a body pillow on his bed and doubled it over. He lifted my legs to his shoulders and pushed me back to where I almost thought I would flip, then let me down onto the doubled pillow. It was apparent he wanted my 2 pleasure orifices to be easy to access. He began to rain kisses on my upturned butt cheeks and eventually worked his way to that little strip of skin between my holes. I wasn't sure where he would go next and that was part of his tease. He snaked his tongue up my shaved slit and began to devour my lips but gave then up as my clit sort of popped up for him. He it almost like a little dick. I pushed the air from my lungs as a rush hit me, and then redoubled as two of his long fingers sunk into my pussy. I was on the verge of cumming already and he was just beginning to find my G-spot. I was about to go over the edge when his tongue left my clit and swirled at my exposed butt hole. He seemed to suck at it and put his tongue in it at once. Whatever he did, it felt great! Unfortunately it didn't last long enough because he was back at my clit in a flash and I was going over the top. I was just losing my breath and humping breaths when he removed his tongue and slid his thumb in its place on my clit. He sat back to watch me orgasm while he busied his other hand. As my orgasm began to subside he brought his mouth to my again but his other hand had a finger snaking up my butt. While he massaged my clit with his tongue his index finger went up my butt twice and then disappeared only to be replaced by his long middle finger. He sawed it over and over again into me and as I began to come from his tongue. Then, that long finger began to fade from me. Suddenly it, along with his index finger pinched together pushed up into my ass. I lost all my breath and felt a surge of quick pain, but another vaginal orgasm was working and my g- spot was about to be heard from. My orgasm was like a rolling pin up my chest as it pressed my breath from me. I felt my face turn red, then white as I clamored to stay conscious. A blast of fluid from my finally caused me to draw hard and tight into my lungs. My orgasm had taken hold of me and I was a mere spectator as it gripped my chest again and I bore down to push another release from my pussy. I remember hearing the splash hit something, probably the side of Bills face or his chest as I shot my hand down to cover my and pull any fingers out of it. I had to stop the assault on my clit or I was going to pass out.
I held my full in my hand and realized the only thing Bill had going was 2 fingers up my ass and he was plunging them in and out of me. The intense concentration on my clit was stopped but still I felt my g-spot wavering like an exposed nerve in a cold breeze. An anal orgasm was going right through me and gripping my sexual being.
I don't know how long I was doing it but I was rotating my hips to his cadence and shaking my head from side to side with each thrust of his hand. When I closed my eyes I saw myself like a movie, taking the pleasure of his fingers within me. My breath kept catching in my throat, knowing that a gut wrenching spasm was near, but his fingers were no longer enough to reach the spot within me to draw that out. I needed his cock in my ass, up into my being. I was ready.
"Your cock Bill, your beautiful penis. Put it into me. Please let me feel you fill me. Feel the warmth of my heat inside me. Fuck me Bill, please fuck me." I said staccato to his hand thrusts into me.
I opened my eyes to see Bills other hand squeezing more KY onto his cock, setting down the tube and then stroking it all over himself. Then suddenly his pistoning finger stab stopped and he removed them from me. Tipped back as I was,I saw the whole of my slick and just the puffiness around my private little hole. He laid his slickened cock on the groove of my and slid over it. Just a push downward with my finger or his would have sent it thrusting into me. The way the ridge of his rolled foreskin rode over my clit had me building a second simultaneous spasm.
"Inside, inside," I whispered to him and I am sure he thought of how nice it would be to sink into my pussy. I wouldn't have regretted one second of it if he did, but he let our vow to each other prevail.
He slid his cock back once again through the groove of my vulva, but dropped just out of my sight line and I felt it nudge to my butt hole.
One short, painful stroke put him about three inches inside of me. I thrust a hand out to stop further penetration as I turned my head to the side as if to keep the burning pain to myself. I waited for it to ebb, it didn't.
I stepped out of my crazed sexual state.
"Take it out Bill, it hurts like hell," I cried.
As always in this situation, Bill obeyed me right away. He knew I controlled it.
His penis no sooner had left me when his 2 fingers rolled together replaced it and he began sawing back and forth inside me again. This felt good still. The sudden widening by his penis of my was more than I could take at the time. He began to muscle a rotation with his overlapped digits, stretching me side to side as well as in and out. I closed my eyes and relaxed in the hard and soft pummel of my butt hole and big muscle being stretched.
I was about to tell Bill to try one more time when I felt his fingers leave me. I wanted to warn him to be careful and gentle in a second try when, with no perceptible pause, his cock went right into me where his fingers had just left. He slid quickly past my big muscle and stopped about 4 inches into me. His eyes looked to mine for approval and I just smiled. Maybe it was the angle before, maybe I was just not ready before, but this was it.
With my legs hanging back over my prone body it was hard to push back at him, but he got my message and pushed the rest of the way into me, his balls nestled in my crease. My eyes must have shown a shock to him as he sought my wordless approval. He wore a look of concern on his face, but my smile made him mirror that emotion back to me.
He was deep within me. We were one. He could now make love to me. He reached for and held my ankles as he started short thrusts into me. He quickened the pace and now my legs rested on his shoulders. Before I knew it he was pummeling me.
"FUCK me, FUCK me," my gravelly whisper matched his thrusts. Those thrusts got harder and he sought a fast orgasm as deep as he could reach within me. Without a second to think about it, an orgasm hit me, a seeming wave from deep inside me that rode across my using my clit as its release point.
"Ohh ohh, Ewww, ewww," I gasped out and in new breath to feed another orgasm and they came one after another, like 4 in a row.
The slap of his thighs against my cheeks sounded brutal,knowing he was in my ass, but the feeling was exquisite. I was at a state where I relished him being close, inside me, while orgasm after orgasm left me as I announced each with a grunt or holler. I was in a groove where I could have for hours it seemed, as long as they didn't get more intense. Then I felt him buck up and the cudgel within me rearing, swelling. He was going to cum!!
Oh, Carree, I'm gonna cum, gonna cum! Take it, take it take it, take it," he said slamming at me.
Finally he had to stop, no longer able to withstand the pleasure of my bowels squeezing at him, my butt hole milking him. He stayed within me and took my right leg and swung over to the other shoulder with my left. I lifted a bit so he could remove the doubled body pillow under me, and he slid down to the sheets in a perfect spoon. He held me close, gripping my breasts tightly.
His voice cracked as he spoke. "God Carree, that was wonderful. We were truly one. Just awesome, awesome," he emphasized.
We lay wordless attached in our spoon until reality began to creep up.
"You have a towel here, right lover?" I asked. He reached for the towel he had wrapped around himself after his shower.
"Here, I'll snake it under us, when I pull out I'll like diaper you, OK?" he asked.
"Ohhh, do you have to take it out?" I asked wanting it to remain a part of me.
After placing the towel under us he thread himself from my hole. I felt a gush of run out as I struggled to keep it in me, but I had little control. He did diaper me and help me up to walk to the bathroom. He sat me on the john as he pulled the towel away. While I pushed out air and the remains of his cum, he ran warm water for a washcloth to wash his penis. Once rinsed, he took another cloth and lathered it with soap and washed it again. I knew why he wanted it so clean. I was going to take him in my mouth. It had become ritual after each time with anal sex. I love to suck him, and doing so before butt sex wasn't necessary to get him hard, and I was afraid to get him too close to orgasm. He had no problem rising up a second time, so I could get my fill, the joy I experienced from feeling him in my mouth.
In the small bathroom I reached to get some paper to dab myself, dry myself and he was turning to put the washcloths in the hamper. His penis passed in front of my face, and I caught the plum of it in my mouth, freezing Bill, most certainly catching him off guard.
He looked down and saw me with just head in my mouth and a smile on my face. I thought he would scold me and pull from my mouth and go into the bedroom and wait for me. Instead he readjusted his feet and stood there, I suppose, enjoying the fact the end of his penis was trapped in my mouth. He ran his fingers through my newly permed tresses and stroked my hair.
"God, that feels so good Carree," Bill said as he nudged a bit more of himself into my mouth.
I took it that this was how he wanted me, as un-Bill- like as it was. He was one to have me take charge and show him how I wanted it. This was participation oral sex for me, my pleasure, as much as he also enjoyed it.
I looked up and my eyes met his as I took as much as I could in my mouth. I was getting better at this, but again, deep throating, choking, was not my idea of pleasure. Our eyes stayed together as I bent back and forth ever so slightly to stroke him with my mouth sucking at him. The velvet smooth of his penis head over my tongue made my squishy, that's how sexy this made me feel. Uncharacteristically I reached down a couple fingers to massage my clit, taking advantage of the wetness my actions caused. I began to get a faint taste of his pre-cum just as he began to push at my face a little. Within moments I was stationary, and he was providing the friction.
Bill was fucking my mouth in nice strokes timed with my and swallowing. I wasn't too worried that he would thrust too hard as he came, he was always aware of that fear of mine. Still, instinctively, when I was sure his orgasm was imminent I raised the palm of my left hand to the flat just above his genitals.
"Oh Carree, here's your cum, I'm gonna cum, it's cumming, cumming," he said as his eyes left mine and tipped toward the ceiling.
I hummed a sound of disappointment as his eyes left mine and he must have picked up what I wanted; to keep eye contact throughout orgasm. When he re-connected eye contact I smiled a little around his cock, just as the first volley of crossed my tongue. The second shot was huge and I swallowed fast, but anything else he had to offer just oozed out. Our eyes glued to each other, me reading his ecstasy, he reading my satisfaction. It was a loving experience. He smiled down at me, and I back at him just as I was about to suck the last dribbles from him. I all the way up to the head then gave the underside a snake-like lick.
"You're amazing. You're so good to me. Where did you learn to love me so, and be so naughty?" he said rhetorically, but I had an answer.
"From you, lover, everything just comes from our love. We are me and you are we. Everything we do is us." I answered him.
It was true. Nothing we did ever came to a real question. It was all making love. There was no point where I did anything, or put up with something, to get something in return. Every act was of itself, and we loved giving each other pleasure. I thought of Megan and Jimmy and how they had so much further to go, so much trust to assume.
I went to stand up and hug Bill and he put a hand to my shoulder.
"Wait, I saw something here you might like," he said as he pulled a vanity drawer open. He handed me sample packets of baby wipes. "These may be a little easier on your cute little butt, I know you like them and I see them here every time I reach in there for floss."
I then remembered the reason I was sitting on the john, to clean up and let Bills run out of me, as well as let loose of the air he pumped me full of. I opened the packet of wipes and Bill let me have my privacy. My little hiney was sore, but it didn't feel puffy so I was no worse for the wear that Bill gave it today. This was definitely one of the best days of lovemaking we had ever had. Maybe my little talk with Megan had convinced me as well that our love was something special, and I needed to prove it.
That night we made Bills bed up and cleaned the house and retired to the study loft over the garage. Bill built a nice fire to warm the place. We sat on the floor in front of the stove and talked about getting back to class and how we might not see each other until the Christmas break, but that was only 3 Sundays away. We held each other and reveled in our last night alone together. My and Dad had a big breakfast planned for us after church, we promised to go to 9:00 o'clock Mass with them. We would then wait until the Wilson's came home early Sunday to leave for school.
We held each other tight talking of our plans for the next few years in Baltimore and the beginning of our life together. We laughed and cried and giggled with anticipation. Finally we fell asleep on the floor, and woke a few hours later cold with the fire down to embers. Bill knelt up and loaded the cradle with more logs and, after it began to spark, he held out a hand to help me up and bring me to bed on the slouch couch. We stood and kissed and ended up slinking to the floor and having a sixty-nine in front of the fire. We got to the couch exhausted about two-thirty, knowing the alarm would go off in 5 hours, and fell right asleep exhausted from our loving.
We made the Mass on time, had a great breakfast and even had time to let Bill read the papers. We got back to Wilson's by noon just as they got back from Vermont. We visited with and Dad Wilson for an hour or so and were on our way. I was back in my dorm by 4 o'clock and Bill called me from his just before 5. Our long Thanksgiving Holiday weekend was over. Three nights of sleeping with my lover had me bright and confident. In a mere 7 months we would be living together as we would the rest of our lives. Although we, ourselves, felt no great rush to be married, our parents would bring the subject up a lot over the coming Holidays. We decided that setting a date would appease them and stop a lot of the questions. My commitment to Baltimore and Arens and Ponds was 2 years. If I really felt at any time during that span, that this was the job I wanted, we would get right away. However, Bill and I discussed the possibility of me being more of an independent contractor, setting my own pace once I was established. Then, having a could be done at our leisure and I could pace my work to fit my schedule as Mrs. Bill Wilson. Life's canvas had finally been set before us and we had to decide how to paint it. Would we simply fill in the numbers, or paint an abstract. My lips were still moist with Bills goodbye kiss when I heard a noise from Henny's room. The dorm did not seem to have the "occupied" feel yet for me to think that Henny or Maria had returned from their long weekends yet. Usually there would be fresh goodies from home on the counter, or local newspapers from home, or even an unpacked box or suitcase around. Something was not right. I contemplated how to handle the situation when common sense took hold of me. I grabbed my phone and exited the building as fast as I could and punched in my speed dial code for campus security.
"Campus Eye," a voice quickly answered.
Our on campus 911 was 393 or EYE. It was for locally handled emergencies, or for a quick decision whether 911 was needed.
"Umm, Hi EYE. I just got to my dorm from the long weekend and I think I heard a noise in one of our rooms and I don't think any of my roommates are back. We've lived together 4 years and something doesn't feel right. I mean, I think I know what's normal, and this seems different." I nervously stammered into the phone.
"Did you call out?" the EYE voice asked.
"No. I hope this isn't a false alarm. But I have a bad feeling. I know you are busy and . . . " I began before he cut me off.
"Don't sweat it Miss. We aren't busy at all and I am about to make a pass of the dorm areas anyway. I show you in Suite 1 of Hall Hall, correct?" he asked.
"Correct. What should I do?" I asked.
"Keep your distance, but try not to let the dorm out of your sight. Keep all entrance and exit locations in your sight if you can till we get here. I'm Patrolman Powers." He said as he clicked off.
I sat back and kept a distance outside and hoped I didn't do something stupid here. I envisioned 2 campus cops bursting in on Henny and Nick having sex. But, after Maria's rape, and Henny and Nicks revenge, I always felt a little wary if I knew I was alone.
The Campus Eye car pulled with Patrolman Powers. He drove right up the walkway, and another car pulled toward the back of the building. I identified myself and told him the about just feeling everything was not right. He radioed to the other campus cop and the descended upon our dorm. The other cop watched Powers go in while keeping an eye on the windows looking for an egresser.
I heard a shout from inside and the other patrolman spoke into his radio and then started walking to me.
"He's got someone, a female." The other cop said to me as I identified him as Patrolman Howard from his badge. "Let's go in and see if you can identify her."
We walked into the dorm and heard Powers calling for a matron to assist transfer to local police when I saw who the intruder was.
"Megan!" I shouted. "What are you doing here?"
"It's a long Carree. Please explain to the policeman that I'm not a robber or something," Meg said.
I did just that and explained that I had given Megan a key, but never expected her to show up anytime soon. I let them know that all was fine and apologized profusely to the Patrolmen.
"No problem, Miss, ahh Kasc" He said checking his incident form. "We weren't busy anyway. We get a lot of calls like this during the year. It happens, but it's usually an boyfriend." He said smiling.
The 2 cops took off leaving 2 embarrassed in the dorm. I had questions to ask Meg. I really had not given her a key, but didn't want to have her arrested for breaking in.
"Megan, what the FUCK, is going on?" I asked.
She burst into tears and reached out to hug me.
"It's the whole goddamn Jimmy thing, Care. I had to leave town and get away. I got in through the window of that room I was in. I thought it was yours, but it was dark. I've been here since about 4 a.m. this morning. I'm sorry I came up here to bother you, I just felt like I had nowhere to turn. I need to talk to you."
Megan had me totally freaked out. I could not rationalize her motivation to do such a thing when I was so easily accessible.
"The Police are looking for Jimmy, everybody's looking for Jimmy. They have his in protective custody and I'm supposed to be the same, but I took off. His knows I'm safe. You won't believe this whole thing. I went after I saw you to confront Jimmy on a lot of things. As I went I started thinking about a lot of the things you said and I began to realize that WE WERE beginning to get the way you and Bill are. But, somewhere along the line I began to notice he was putting up some walls. He used to break me down a bit, you know about being casual about being nude in front of him and stuff, and he was being cool about the sexual arrangements and like . . ."
"STOP!" I interrupted. "What does this have to do with Jimmy being wanted by the Police? Megan, get a hold of yourself and fill in some blanks here for me." I said, disturbed.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I am sooo confused. Let me sit and calm down." She said.
"After I spoke with you I went to see Jimmy, but decided to stop and talk to his first. When I began to tell her about my being reluctant to move in with Jimmy because I thought he was changing in some ways. His and I are pretty close and she always thought moving in together was a good idea before marriage, and she knew I planned to. It was then she laid a bomb on me. She has known for a while that the drugs Jimmy took after his accident could be a problem down the line. They could cause a personality change. One of the signs of this change was a turning into ones self, but to have a need to be glad handed by the ones he loved. Losing trust in loved ones may cause violent behavior. This was to facilitate pushing away the loved ones so he can be of himself, in himself. Pretty freaky stuff huh? As she spoke I told her that a lot of this was going on already. I'm pretty frank with her about sex and stuff and she kind of knows what was going on with us. She had to know some things for his doctors and shrinks. Obviously I really trust her. Anyway, she thought it was time to bring in a doctor to see Jimmy and maybe go away to a place where they could get him straightened out. I guess these personality blips have varying degrees of seriousness, but are common with people who have had the bombardment of drugs he had to get his body to survive his accident. As we were talking, Jimmy walked into the room and said he heard everything we said and he started calling us names, threatening us, and then left saying no one was going to take him away, he was fine, he would deal with us later. Obviously we freaked out and called the Doctor, who called the Police and everything. The cops got there right away and tried to establish if he had any weapons, but he didn't, to the best of our knowledge. While the Police were there Jimmy called. He was like a different person talking to me, saying he wanted to go out for wings and pizza after the that night. I was a little confused to say the least. His took the phone from me and demanded he come right home. Well, his personality turned on a dime right there and he called her names saying he was going to "get" us. Just as he hung up on us his shrink showed up and we all had a long talk with him and the Police and they decided to protect his and me. The Doctor was adamant that he would not harm himself, which is what I was afraid of. Soon 2 female cops showed up and said they would stay with us and the house would be under surveillance.
I freaked out and bolted in the middle of the night. I knew how to sneak in and out of Jimmy's house undetected. So, here I am. I called them to let them know I was OK. Everyone bawled me out, but I had to leave. I'm supposed to call back every hour or so to see what the is, if they caught him. He's not really wanted, they want to protect him from doing something that he really doesn't want to do. As long as his personality changes from nice Jimmy to freaky Jimmy, he's bound to show up anywhere. Carree, I am so scared!"
"You better tell them where you are Meg, your and friends, plus Jimmy's must be nuts worrying about you!" I scolded her.
"I'll tell them I'm OK, but I won't say where I am. I'm not really afraid of Jimmy; I'm more worried about him. The shrink assured me that with a minimum amount of therapy and work, he would be back to normal with no side effects. The key is to get him off the streets before he does something to get himself in trouble." Meg explained.
I handed Meg the phone and told her to dial home. I hesitated and dialed the number myself; just to be sure she really dialed home. I heard Megs answer frantically and I handed Meg the phone.
"I'm safe and I'm OK Mom. I'm sorry I left, but I had to get away." Meg again said apologetically.
Her face then lit up and she smiled, covered the receiver to tell me the news. "They've found him, and he's OK. He was taking a bus to the hospital in Boston. He knew he had to get better." Meg said.
Meg continued talking with her and tied up loose ends with her. It seems Jimmy was aware he had to get help and knew Boston was where he got the most help before. He asked for Meg over and over and told Mrs. Parker to tell her he was sorry. Megs said the psychiatrist said that showed he was not that deluded. He knew he had done some rotten things to Meg, plus he was anxious to be helped. It sounded like a crisis had been averted for Meg. Her Terry was on her way up to get her so she wouldn't have to take a bus back home Monday morning. This was going to make a late night for me and washed any plans of an 8-hour sleep to start classes after the Holiday.
While Meg waited for Terry to show she finally got a chance to meet Henny and Maria. In typical Henny fashion, Henny through Megan off right away with her first words to me.
"Ooooee, Carree! Great whore hair! That'll get you picked up in some of best biker bars in the country!" Henny said in front of a mortified Meg.
All I could do was laugh as I tried to explain to Meg how to take Henny. If Henny thought for a second that any of her caustic comments were bothering you, she heaped them on even more. Maria tried to buffer Henny for Meg the rest of the night while we waited for Terry to get here. Eventually Meg caught on to Henny and before the end of the night we were all getting on famously with Hen admitting to Meg that the perm she gave me pretty awesome. It just required too much maintenance for her (and my) tastes. Meg and Jimmy would eventually get it all together, but not until Jimmy spent 55 days "away", and then another few months in therapy. Jimmy and his illness spawned all Meg's "privacy" issues, and "opening up" issues. Meg admitted to me later that she knew she wasn't always like that, but had been brainwashed by his phobias. I really have to give her a lot of credit for sticking with Jimmy after all the crap he had given her over the years. Once all the problems he had with his own confidence, and then the results of medication effects, he turned out to be a great guy and partner for Megan.
The 3 weeks leading up to our Christmas vacation was a slow and arduous one. Bill and I never got together except for a little phone sex dirty talk. Getting ready for exams and filling course requirements. (Both Bill and I had extra credit work due for our upcoming jobs to assure class placement) This was probably the last time we would have to be this meticulous about our school studies. If there were anything that would draw a question mark over our job commitments, it would have turned up by mid-terms. We only need fill credit requirements from here out, and that was a given at this point. Time, Inc. was somewhat pressuring Bill into at least "looking into" continuing his education at Stanford on their dime. The writer Bill went away with last year apparently was pushing Mr. Wilkens into bugging Bill about this. Bill Wilson was not easily prodded into something he was not really into. He thought Stanford was too liberal for him.
Bill made me aware that he was greasing the skids to have his allow us to stay together in the study over the garage over the Holidays. Both he and I knew that if the temps got real harsh it would not work out, but to be together was definitely to our liking. Our summer in Baltimore where we more or less lived as a couple had made us keenly aware that we were made to be together.
We got into the home at school before the Holidays. With Christmas less than a week away I was primed to be home for the Holidays with my family, and of course Bill. Bill had called me earlier to tell me that his were open to our staying together in the study, but they would not do so without going and meeting with my parents. Even though we were both in our twenties, they felt it was the thing to do if we were going to be in-laws. I was a little afraid of my parents reaction, only because they may have envisioned "their baby" being home with them. I was a little more than shocked when I got back from class on Tuesday to find a note from Henny for me to call my Dad at work.
"Hello Daddy, is there anything wrong?" Were my first words after I heard his voice. I was semi-prepared for a lecture about not staying home with them; and just faintly prepared to hear some bad news, as he had never called me at school during the day.
"No pumpkin, there's nothing wrong. You must be surprised to hear from me. Is there anything wrong with a proud Daddy calling his little up?" he said.
"No, of course not, Daddy. It's just you never called before, and I know you met with the Wilson's. We don't want to cause any trouble Dad." I started to say, but he interrupted me.
"Wait Carree, hear me out, you might be surprised. Listen, you know my company was bought by a conglomerate from Denmark last year. They have people coming here all the time to assist in the change-over and adaptation. They have 2 suites on retainer at the new Residence Inn off exit 7 off the Interstate. They have them at one price, like $40 a night. We pay that everyday, and if no one is registered by 6:00 pm, they can sell the room. We have groups of and women coming in here all of the time from over there on a moments notice, so it's necessary. They told me that they would not be here again until after Little Christmas (the twelfth day), unless there were emergencies, so those rooms are available to us. My boss says I can have one of the rooms for use by relatives over the Holidays, as long as we are paying for it anyway. Honey, these rooms are suites with living rooms, fireplaces, full kitchens, dining areas, 2 bathrooms and 2 bedrooms, all really nice, plus free breakfast in the morning. You and Bill can have one right up until you go back to school or get bumped by one of our people. I only ask that you and Bill spend Christmas Eve in your homes. It's a time. You can both spend all your Christmas mornings together AFTER you're married. What do you think?" he finished.
I was flabbergasted!
"Daddy, are you serious?" I asked. "You would do that for Bill and I? You are the best Daddy. We will pay you back for the room too. Have you checked with the Wilson's?"
"First off, the rooms cost me nothing. We pay $40 a night whether we use them or not. You just pick up any phone calls, and it might be nice to tip the maid staff, too. Yes, I ran it by them and Bills parents like the thought of him our there rather than in the cold garage. Well cold, if it ever gets cold, it's been pretty mild so far." Daddy said.
"I'll run it by Bill, but I can't imagine he wouldn't like this Daddy. You are so sweet and understanding. You know how much I love Bill, don't you. I love being home, but to be with Bill is . . . . . " I started.
"I know pumpkin. You are certainly enough to make these decisions and sleeping arrangements. We know you were never happier than last summer, and your and I were pretty proud of how you handled being, ummm . . "married", if you will." Daddy admitted.
"Oh, Daddy this is the best present ever. I love you for understanding everything." I said just as we exchanged goodbye pleasantries.
I hugged my arms to my chest in my own hug of joy. I know I flushed as a grin as big as any I ever emoted gripped my face. I couldn't wait to tell Bill, but I never had a chance to dial his number as my phone rang.
It was Bill, and he was bubbling over as much as me. These Holidays were going to be real special for the future Mr. and Mrs. Wilson. The more we talked about it on the phone the more flushed I got with desire for Bill. Finally, at a break in his conversation I asked him a question.
"Can you guess where I have my hand right now and what I'm thinking about?" I queried.
"I have admit I'm a little horny myself, just thinking about laying with you every night Care." He answered.
"Wow, alone again, together every night Bill. Oooo, maybe some days we can take the phone off the hook and never leave the room." I said. "I could just lick and taste every single inch of you from head to toe, Bill, Especially that beautiful handful between your legs. My is so wet right now, just thinking about you. I'm holding my little clit between my thumb and my index finger Bill. Can you stick your tongue through the phone to lick it?"
"Godddd Carree, stop! You're giving me such a hard on. I've got my hand around that handful you're thinking about. I only wish I could lick that clit through the phone. Rub it Care, let me hear you right through the phone. God, I want you so bad right now." He panted. "Don't worry Bill, I'm rubbing it. Plus, my mouth is watering thinking about having that cock in my mouth. It's so salty sweet, and as smooth as velvet on my tongue. I love to fondle and stroke your balls while I suck on it. I know they're full of your juice, baby. Oh, that sweet juice! Bill, do you know how much I love to taste and that stuff. When that goes down my throat I know I've made you crazy with passion for me, just like I'm crazy for you. Oh, baby my is soo hot right now, I'm gonna real soon." I teased into the receiver.
"Oh, Jesus God Carree!! Just thinking of your mouth loving me has me close. You know how to drive me crazy. When we're alone I'm gonna want to be inside of you Carree. Deep up inside of you! When we get and I can make love to that beautiful pussy, I swear I'll fuck you 6 times a day. Until then, your cute little butt will have to do. How does that sound Sweets?" He cooed at me.
I was panting pretty well now. I sort of wanted to get serious and find my g-spot, but I really just wanted to cum. Bill talking about screwing me, being inside of me had me nuts.
"You know I love having you inside me, Lover. It hurts some time, but you're such a gentle lover, you always make it easy. Once it's in me, Bill, I never want you to come out of me. Oh Bill, I'm gonna cum. I'm thinking about the times we fell asleep with you inside of me. Ohhh, unghhh, unghhh, unghh. That's it Honey I'm there. Ohhhhhhh," I moaned as I caught my breath in my throat and came.
"Holy crap, honey. I'm cumming too. Your tight ass makes me nuts, just thinking about it. Oh, I'll fuck you there good, baby. Then I'll shoot THIS . . . RIGHT . . . UP . . .THERE!!" he said as I heard him through the phone.
Our breathing was all either of us could hear for a few minutes. Finally Bill broke the silence.
"Carree, I love you so much. Being apart is so hard. Just think, after Christmas, we only have six months until we live together in Baltimore. I'll love you every night, I swear." Bill growled into the phone.
"Billy, I never want to be apart from you. Just think, our time is coming soon. We can be together every night." I started to cry.
Through my tears of joy I told Bill how much I missed him and wanted to be with him. It would be less than a week until we would live together for almost a month. Our first time alone I just wanted us to strip and roll around on the floor feeling each other. It sounds kinky, but the feel of his skin next to mine while we breathe in each other's ear makes me want to cum. This was lust and passion for my lover and no one else.
We both had studying to do as reality caught a grip on us and we said good night. I lay there in my reverie knowing I would fade to sleep soon, if I didn't get going. Then a knock on my door snapped me to attention.
"Carree?" Henny asked. "Are you OK in there? Don't fall asleep. You told me you had lots of studying, why don't you come out here so we can keep each other awake? When Maria gets back from her class she has to cram too. Come on, before you fall asleep after that."
Henny obviously figured out what I was doing in my room. The walls were thin and it was hard to keep secrets.
"I'll be out in a sec, Hen. Keeping each other awake is a good idea." I shouted through the door.
I arranged my clothes and gathered my books and notes and went to the common room. Henny was set up on the sofa and coffee table. She was getting coffee from our contraband Mr. Coffee we snuck in this spring.
"Black with sugar, Care?" Henny asked as I assented with an "um humm".
She brought in the coffees and curled on the sofa next to me. She reached over and petted my hair. "Don't worry honey. You'll be with your lover soon enough. I'm so fucking horny I could toot." Henny said. "But, I have to get an A on this test tomorrow or I'm afraid my GPA may fall off the Deans list. I wish Nick would call me and beat off on the phone. He's too embarrassed to do it at the frat house. God, I need a fuck. I should borrow one of Maria's toys."
Sheesh Hen, I know it's just the two of us, but do you have to talk like that? . . or are we that familiar with each other? I suppose I'm being a prude, we don't have many secrets, do we? How do you know Maria has toys?" I asked.
"She was washing them in the bathroom sink and the phone rang. While she answered it I came back home, and she kind of forgot about them, . . . until I went in the bathroom. Man, did I give it to her. You know I had some fun with that." She said with an evil laugh.
"I can only imagine. I doubt she uses them as much now that Jack comes back more often. Hey, we all get stressed and we all get horny and have to release tension. We shouldn't make fun of each other and make each other self conscious." I scolded her.
"I know. I really love the two of you, you know. I never had girlfriends I could get along with before. I always felt they were trying to steal Nick away, even though I denied I loved him. He is so gorgeous. You and Maria almost seem to your guys, so I didn't worry about you two." Henny admitted.
"Don't think we didn't get hot pants over Nick, though. We used to call him "dreamboat". We're only human, Hen. I'll bet he's hot." I confessed.
Henny laughed just as Maria came in the door.
"Save me a spot on the couch. I gotta get 2 months of chapters into one night. I hope there's coffee." Maria chirped as she rushed through to her room.
In 10 minutes we were all buried in our books trying to make up for lost study time. Three with lovers waiting to whisk them home, trying to study while pleasures of life weighed on their minds. This would be our last Christmas vacation of our careers. Already I worried I might never see them again after we left school. Amazingly, we all stayed up and got a good study in to finish the semester with the kinds of marks we had hoped for. The last of us, Henny, hit the mattress at 4:30 a.m.
It was Friday with Christmas one week away when Bill picked me up to head home for the Holidays. It was after 6 o'clock in the evening when we left campus and for the first time I ever remember, I fell asleep on the way home with Bill. I felt his arm going around me, and a whisper in my ear.
"Carree sugar? Honey sweets? You're home, safe and sound." He whispered.
I was in another world when I opened my eyes. I saw my Mom and Dad at the door as I cracked my lids open and felt Bill pulling at me a little. Man, was I out of it.
"Holy Shit Bill. How did you let me drift off like that! Wow, I feel like you clubbed me over the head." I said.
"You were sleeping so hard and so sound I didn't want to wake you baby. I brought you right home so you could get your rest and catch up with your and Dad. We can't get into the Residence Inn until Monday so lets just stay with our until then. It will make them happy. Me sleeping here, or you coming over to the study with me will only cause problems with our parents. I wanted to talk with you about it on the way home, but you were GONE. Believe me, it's the best way. We'll be together until Christmas Eve and then back together Christmas night until we go back to school. We'll have lots of time for each other." He whispered as if my could eaves drop from behind the closed door to our house.
I was still groggy and spaced but he was making sense to me. I hadn't known we couldn't get into the Residence until Monday, but I would have figured we would sleep together no matter what. Bills words made me realize that being with our own families a few nights would make them all happy. Since we wanted to go back to school with a firm date set for our wedding, this alone time with was going to be good. Bill hopped out of the car and came to my door and helped my groggy self out. He walked me to the door as my Dad opened it.
"Carree fell asleep on the way home, Dad." I heard him say. "She's not as grouchy as she is in the morning, but I think she has a rough edge." He kidded.
"Oh, I can handle her Bill." He said.
"Let me get her stuff in and then we can talk a bit. Do you think Kasc can put on some coffee?" Bill said.
"Already done Bill, she saved some dinner for you both too." I heard my Dad say.
I hugged my Dad and then my walked me to the table where the smell of coffee was flaring my nostrils. I was waking fast and the thought of food was making me glad we were home. Whatever she made smelled like "home" and I was glad and comforted to be there.
"Beef au jus with spaetzel dumplings sound good, Carree?" said.
"Oh Mom, it sounds like heaven right now. I'm so tired and hungry." I answered.
Bill called home to tell them that we were here and that he would be home shortly. We both said later that our half expected an argument about the nights sleeping arrangements. We had now figured that as long as we would be together with their blessing for the next month, a few nights with the would not be a problem.
My laid out a couple nice plates of one of my favorite dishes, along with fresh coffee. They sat down with us as brought out a pie. As she cut pieces for her and Dad she looked at me and smiled.
"Carree, you are so grown up, I can't believe my little is a woman of the business world with a husband and around the corner. Oh, please don't let that sound like we are pushing for grandchildren already. It's just one of the things that goes along with marriage and like that. If you chose to not have children at all, it would be your decision. Damn, this conversation is getting heavier than I wanted it to be. I'm really just trying to say how proud I am, we are, of you; so smart in the ways of the world and your plan for life. The two of you are so much in love and we feel like you're already. The way you treat each other, look out for each other. I guess we're a little jealous that you don't need us anymore." said with a misty eye.
"Oh, Mom. Nothing could be further from the truth. Not need you? Come on! There's so much woman talk and decisions for us to make together, and Daddy too! Don't ever think I don't need you. Bill doesn't make me not need you, Bill makes us four, and with his parents, six! A of six, that's what we are. When we have children, and you know we do want to have children, we need you and the Wilson's to help and guide us." I explained.
Mom and Dad ate their with coffee while Bill and I wolfed down dinner. The look on my Dads face told me the was delicious. He looked at my more than once and grabbed her knee, telling her how good it was.
By the time we finished our dinner had cut for us as well, along with seconds for Dad. She brought out cold milk for the two of us and smiled down at us.
"I know you can't eat without milk, Carree. Bill, I assume you're the same way. Bill, I have an extra blueberry for you to take home for your Dad, I know he loves it too. We had lots of blues this year, so we'll have blue for quite a time this winter. So," said, changing the subject quickly, "You asked us to come up with dates we might suggest for a wedding, would you like to hear them?"
"Sure," Bill piped up. "We really should have a good idea when we go back to school. Maybe not an exact date, but an idea we can begin to work with."
My Dad had been quiet for a time, but he picked up the baton now.
"We think you should go through a whole year in Baltimore, adjusting to being together, commuting, living as a couple, working on finances, planning for the future. You have this opportunity to really test yourselves and make sure it's the life you want. To pressure you by adding marriage to it all would be crazy. Originally we wanted to drive you from graduation to the church, but we are confidant that the two of you know each other well enough to make the right decisions in that first year. We know you WANT to be married, but aside from a few of us, whose going to know your aren't? You'll be living as a couple with a plan for the future. By next Christmas you should have a pretty good handle on what's going on with your jobs, your careers. We can, the six of us, set a firm date then." My Dad said, surprising us.
"That's a pretty good plan, Dad." Bill said. "It kind of lines up with our thinking right now, too. Unless my have an objection, or we have something else happen to change things, we may just go with that. You really put it in the right words. We thought along those lines, but weren't sure of how everyone might take it. Don't you agree, Carree?" Bill said as I nodded eating my blueberry pie.
"I, obviously, want to get tomorrow, but we have waited this long, we may as well wait to do it right. Being with Bill is what I really want most, and I'll have that. You have no argument from me. When we settle in as a couple I don't want to have to get up and move a few months later. Let's be sure of where we are, and what we are." I said.
Bill came over to me at my chair and kissed my blueberry mouth.
"I really want to get home and see my and Dad. I hope everything goes as well there as here with wedding plans." Bill said as he looked up at my and Dads faces. "Mom and Dad Kasc, thanks for making this easy for us. If my have a problem maybe we can all get together and talk, but I can't imagine they will have any reservations about this plan, but you never know."
My Dad shook Bills hand and then hugged him.
"Son, I can't imagine a I would trust more with my daughter and her life and future. It's pretty obvious how happy she is and how well planned out your future is." My dad said as he reached into his pocket for a small envelope. "Here is a voucher and my business card for checking into the Residence Inn on Monday. You should have no problem; I was out there today. The voucher takes care of the retainer fee for the room. Any phone or extra amenities are up to you two. You shouldn't have to spend anything else. OK?"
"Thanks Dad," Bill said as he took the envelope and kissed my Mom.
I walked him to the door and we kissed goodbye again. He promised to call me as soon as he got up so we could get together for some Christmas shopping. I waved in the window as he pulled down the drive and disappeared up the road. I didn't know if I could wait until Monday night to be alone with him.
"I'm so happy to know that a can make you so happy, Carree. You obviously make him very happy too. You are both very lucky. I had to search so long and hard to find your father. I made a lot of mistakes. I would be almost jealous of you, except that I found the that made me as happy as you are now. I know how happy you are." My whispered in my ear as she came up behind me as I watched Bill pull away.
There was nothing I could do but turn and hug her.
"Oh Mom, he is so special. I see the way Dad still lights up your eyes, we are both so lucky." I said as we broke our hug and walked arm and arm to the stairs.
My Dad had just brought my bags up the stairs and was coming out of my room heading for his own.
"Goodnight pumpkin. It's so good to have you here with us and see you so happy. You must be exhausted, I know I am and I have to work a few hours in the morning. C'mon Silvie, let's hit the hay." My Dad said.
"I'm going to get up with your Dad so I can have the car for shopping, then I'll pick him up. Do you want to go Carree? I warn you though, I want to be there when the mall opens at 9:30." said.
"If I'm awake, but I doubt that, Mom. You go ahead. Bill is going to call me when he gets up and I think we are going out too." I told her.
I gave my one last hug as we got up to the top step and I went toward my room.
"I bet I could sleep till noon, Mom. But, I'm sure Bill won't let me. Leave the phone in my room before you go out in the morning, OK?" I asked.
Mom smiled and kissed me on the forehead. Then she disappeared into their bedroom.
I found my bag with my night t-shirts and found one that was warm and fleece lined. I took it to the bathroom and stripped down. I quickly used cleansing cream to clean my face and make me feel fresh for sleep. I took a washcloth and got it good and steamy with hot water. After I pee-ed I put the hot cloth over my whole vaginal mound and reveled in the warmth. I grabbed a fresh razor and did a mini- trim to keep my smooth. The warm cloth was enough to soften the slight stubble there was for shaving. I dropped the t-shirt over my head and headed for my room. I was a little tingly between my legs and wondered if I should Jill-off to help get me to sleep better, with all my tensions relieved.
Once I settled in bed I could hear sounds of love from my room and I put my hand between my legs satisfy my own urge. I always hear my friends saying they can't imagine their "doing it", or the thought of them "doing it" made them uncomfortable. My parents were still in my eyes and both my and Dad were still attractive. I could easily them "doing it", and there was nothing unappealing about it. Now, don't misunderstand, the thought of them making love wasn't the trip wire to any masturbation session for me. My thoughts of Bill and what we had in store for each other over the next month had my hormones doing time trials, the sounds from the other room only enhanced the moment.
But, apparently I was too tired any for that, because the next thought I had was the sun shining in my window. It was morning already and I heard my rustling around downstairs. I closed my eyes again and pulled the covers up, quickly dozing off. I think I slept another couple hours and was slipping back into reality when I got a look at the clock. 10:45. I distinctly heard the on and wondered what happened to Moms shopping trip. Maybe she didn't feel well. As much as I wanted to just stay in bed, I got up to check and see if she was OK.
My sleep was warm, but the cool winter air in the room chilled my legs as soon as I got up. I grabbed my big robe that covered me head to toe, and made my way to the bathroom, took care of business and wrapped myself warmly in the robe and headed downstairs. The sound of an Fred Mac Murray came from the living room as I went to check on Mom. There, sprawled on the sofa, fast asleep, was Bill! I stopped in my tracks and went to look in the drive for my Dads car, but it was gone. Only Bills car sat in the drive. I was confused.
I went back to the living room and sat on the backs of my legs in front of Bills prone figure on the sofa. He was sleeping heavily, and as I had done many times, I just watched him in his peaceful state.
Apparently his olfactory senses told him he was not alone in the room as he rustled and his eyes opened.
"G'mornin' Peaches," he said through a little smile.
"Hi," was all I answered. My eyes were asking him "the what" and "the how" of the situation as he smiled broader knowing my wonder.
"I couldn't sleep at home after my left for work. I called here to see if you were up as well. Your said your weren't and that she was leaving soon, but if I wanted coffee, to come over and wait for you to get up. That was at 8:15 or 8:30. I showered and came over and she and I had coffee. Then she left for shopping and here I am." He said through a grin.
I smiled and kissed him.
"Wait here while I brush my teeth, and then I'll give you a real good morning kiss, OK?" I asked him.
He smiled and nodded. We both knew which one of us had morning mouth.
When I came back he was snoozing with his arms folded in front of him. He fluttered his eyes at the movement in his space.
"Oh man, I can't believe I slipped off again. Can I really be that tired?" he wondered aloud.
I leaned in and gave him a proper kiss, full on the mouth.
"If you're that tired, maybe you should go back to bed," I said. "I bet there's still a warm spot between my sheets." I added suggestively.
"Well," he said facetiously, "If you insist."
As he rose from the sofa he put and arm around me and began to walk to the steps. I stopped and went to lock the inside screens on both doors to be sure if we were interrupted, no one could walk in on us.
We went into my room and I shucked my robe and slid between the sheets.
"Down to your underwear, please." I said. "I have to keep the sheets clean." I said, goofing on him.
Bill's clothes quickly went to a pile on the floor and he slid in next to me.
"I didn't say anything about underwear, Mister. Taking them off was pretty forward, if you ask me." I feigned.
"Sorry m'aam, but they're clean and I don't know where your sheets have been." He said, playing my game.
We fell into each other's arms and reveled at each other's warmth. He felt so good next to my skin. I wanted him right there.
"Bill, I want you so bad, and we've waited so long to make the moment right and safe for us. We have to start thinking about adding a little risk, now that school is almost over. I need to feel you inside of me. In my bottom is so satisfying, but hardly spontaneous. We should think about taking advantage of my safe days after I finish my period. I know those days aren't 100 per cent safe, but if you add a condom, we have to be close." I said with a little exasperation added to my want.
"God Carree, I've thought about that too, but we should wait until we are a little less horny to think this through. Decisions made in this state could be a little skewed, don't you think?" Bill said, sensing my state.
"I know, lover." I said, "I didn't mean right now, I'm far from safe. Over the next month, I'm sure we will have some special times when we can plan some hot stuff for each other. This morning I just want to taste you and feel your cock in my mouth. THAT will make me happy."
"Your words are enough to make me right here, Care. I can't wait to taste you either." Bill said rolling over onto me while seeming to suck half my face into his mouth, devouring me.
"No!" I protested, pushing back on him to make eye contact.
"I haven't showered or anything yet, and just went front and rear in the bathroom. I know it makes no difference to you, but it makes me feel uncomfortable." I said adamantly. "Please Bill? OK?" I implored him.
He knew I was serious. So many times he had dove right at me before I realized I wasn't as fresh as I might want to be. I knew his skilled hands could bring me off just fine to satisfy my urge at hand. Lying back after a shower to open my legs and bottom for his tongue was one of the true treasures of our love making. Being confident that I was clean and fresh made it perfect.
Bill straddled me while I scolded him and gave me a knowing smile.
"I know, I know, Peaches. I just want you as bad as you want me." He said as I slid down a little to get closer to his penis.
He spread his legs a little more and lifted his weight off his knees. He was in a 4 point stance over me, his hands gripping the headboard of my bed. It was pretty clear that he understood it was going to be my time with him. Once I gave up this position he would have plenty of time to busy his hands in my pussy, but for now, he was mine.
He seemed so hard in this position as his cock maintained a little curl. I decided to bathe his balls with my tongue to tease him more. Upon doing so I heard him inhale deeply as I each testicle deep into my mouth. He was fresh and clean and his sack was full of for me. I heard him sigh a little impatient "Ohh" as I redoubled my efforts.
"What's the matter baby?" I teased. "Does something need attention?"
"Oh God honey, give me your mouth. It hurts so bad." He whined.
When he begged, I knew I had teased him over the line. He was always so patient in letting me have my way with him. I couldn't hold back any longer, taking his swollen plum cock head into my mouth and hard on it.
"Owwwwww," he moaned as he got the present he wanted. I proceeded to take half his cock into my mouth and suck it back up to the tip. I repeated a couple times and then he twisted down to the bed where I could kneel over his side and bob and suck him. I felt his long middle finger snake right up my pussy, while his thumb rolled over and over my wet clit.
My mouth and his hands settled into a nice rhythm, pleasing each other amid our moans of approval. My eyes had been closed enjoying our loving and when I opened them I saw his sack, once impossible to fit all in my mouth, now tight and drawn up. I ran the flat of my hand up between his splayed butt and over his little and cupped his sack. That sent him, without warning, over the line. I was just about to start a long wrenching orgasm from his diddling when I felt my mouth fill with his to the shrieks from his mouth. His orgasm not only surprised me, but Bill as well. My touch to his sack had made it all spontaneous. I could barely fast enough to get the first shots of his cum. I felt some leaking from the corner of my mouth, and that was rare that I lose any. I stopped and he pumped at my mouth, still needing release. Two more good squirts covered my tongue as I grabbed his cock and took control, my own orgasm gripping me. My clit suddenly exploded into ecstasy as I began to milk the last drops from him. He drew his long middle finger from me and rolled my clit between his thumb and that slippery digit, setting off my own pyrotechnics, leaving me to drop his cock from my mouth.
Rarely did I lose a drop, and now a whole mouthful ran from my lips as orgasm gripped me.
"Oh God, Oh God Bill!! Ohhhhhhh!" I tried to pull from his grip as suddenly my clit turned raw. He managed to swipe his fingers over it a few more times before stretching back in his own post orgasmic posture.
I was an absolute mess with his orgasm all over my face, and some in my long hair. I had an orgasmic squirt all over my legs and Bills hands during that last flurry of his fingers.
"Yuck! Bill, look what you did to me," I laughed.
He looked at me and we both burst out in laughter.
"This is like a bad porno movie, Care. Sorry." Bill said as he went to get me a towel.
"Don't bother," I hollered to Bill. "I have to get in the shower anyway."
I tried to get off the bed and into the bathroom without getting any of Bills shoot on anything. I hadn't planned on really washing my hair, as I had an appointment to get it cut this afternoon, but this changed my plans. My long crinkly tresses really got me a lot of compliments, many saying it made me look like a model, but it was really too high maintenance for me. Bill had enjoyed me this way, but he understood my wish for a shorter coif. I ran my shower and hopped in and began to rinse and get myself cleaned up. Bill stuck in lathered hands to rinse them off and avoid having to run the sink and interfere with my water temp and pressure. With all the mess I had, he only had to wash his hands.
I called my salon and they said they could take me early, so I wrapped my wet hair and we were off. While I got my hair cut and styled, Bill was off to start our Christmas shopping. We both looked forward to Monday when we could move in together at the Residence Inn. Living together for the month was going to be awesome.
We really hadn't planned on any alone time before we got settled in our Holiday Hide-away, as Bill called it. That morning was just an opportunity we couldn't pass on. Actually it cooled our jets a bit so we didn't end up parking like teenagers Saturday or Sunday nights at he end of the driveway.
Monday morning came and I found myself up early to see my Dad off to work. I wanted to thank him one more time for the arrangements he had made for Bill and I. He shook his head and said he couldn't believe he set his own up in a shack up. I looked at him, by his words, and a grin crawled over his face.
"Pumpkin, I was just making light of the situation, don't be offended by it. I'm sorry. I know that you and Bill are in love and as already as some younger couples. I just thought, and your and Bills agreed, it was better than having you two sneak around trying to find alone times for yourselves, or sleeping in that cold room over the garage." My Dad said apologizing and making his point.
"When we saw the two of you in Baltimore last year we knew everything was right and the two of you would be fine. We trust you and approve 1000 percent of Bill, honey." My kicked in. "Don't let your ruin your time. He and I would have loved to have the same situation when we were in and had to up for the Holidays."
I hugged them both and went upstairs to start packing up my things for my mini-move. When I was putting my dirty laundry and bed sheets together for the day's laundry I was embarrassed by the big semen stain I saw on the bedclothes. I hoped my didn't notice it. Between what I swallowed, got on my face, in my hair and on the sheets, Bill must have a gallon in our Saturday morning fling. Just thinking about it made me long for him, and it was only 8 o'clock in the morning. We couldn't check in until 2 pm or later, but actually I would see him much sooner than that. Just being with him, and he with me, made us whole.
When I think back on us and how we were then, and how we grew later, I don't know how I have gotten on without him.
I went to the bathroom to get a few things to add to my packing and on my return to my room my was already stripping the bed.
"I see we couldn't leave the two of you alone for 5 minutes the other day." My said with a smirk. I must have turned 3 shades of red.
"I thought you were going to remain a virgin and not have intercourse before you got married. That sure looks like something that leaked out of you Carree. Don't go screw up your job or the end of your schooling doing something stupid." said.
I was a little pissed off at her comment, but my was never one to mince words, but neither was I.
"Mom, do I have to repeat what I said to you 5 or 6 years ago? I hope you know I kept my word." I said with an edge on my words to make a point.
"If you mean the time you told me that you don't lie and you don't fu. . . . screw, I'm afraid the evidence points other wise." She said.
I stepped right into her path. "Mom, I don't lie and I don't fuck. That's what I said a long time ago and I thought you trusted me to keep my word, even though it's really none of your business, anymore. I realize if I get pregnant it is your business. Goddamn it, PLEASE TRUST ME, and my judgment. That stain ran out of me alright, IT RAN OUT OF MY MOUTH, if you must know." I said intending to shock her. By the look on her face, she had just swallowed her tongue.
Mom composed herself. "I'm so sorry Carree. I just treated you like my little instead of my grown up woman of a daughter. I didn't need to hear you say that, and I guess I had it coming. I should know you have kept your word. I had no business being so nosy. I can't stop thinking of you as my little girl." said, dropping her laundry and hugging me. She realized her mistake and we were fine again.
My words with my probably changed our relationship forever, and probably to the good. She knew when I told her I was still a virgin that I meant that we did not have intercourse, Bills penis in my vagina. I'm sure she understood that we did other things, but could not bring herself to deal with the reality of it.
Bill came over just after lunch. He and his had been shopping together Monday morning and he had told me that they would lunch together before he came for me. I assumed they were each shopping for my gifts with each other's help. My and I had done the same just the day before.
My things were waiting for Bill to load into the car and he did so before he even came upstairs to find me.
"Hey lover," he said as he came into the room, hugged me and gave my ass a squeeze. He hadn't realized my Mom was in the room and saw his greeting.
"Oh, hi Mom." He said, embarrassed. " I'm sorry I didn't see you there."
Mom's only response was to come over and hug the both of us together. Everything was cool with now.
When we opened the door to our room at the Residence Inn we were both pleasantly surprised. It was actually bigger than our apartment in Baltimore, and much nicer. We methodically unpacked our stuff and made the place ours. I had finished setting up the bathroom and came out to see Bill sitting on the upstairs bed in the loft section of the room. I came over to him and saw he was in a pensive mood. I hugged his head to my stomach and petted his head.
"What are you thinking about so seriously, honey pie?" I asked.
"Lasts," he said. "The last time we do things like we have done them. This is our last Christmas with our families the way they are. When we go home on Christmas Eve it will be the last time we do that with our families. Then we will start having our own firsts. Sorry to get so sentimental. My and I talked a lot about a lot of things today. She even grilled me about sex. She told me to be nice to you, patient with you because she knows we don't want to get pregnant. I told her that everything about "us" was great and not to worry."
"My and I had a talk today too, but it had to do with the stain on my bed. She said it proved we were screwing, she knew it had to run out of me. When I told her it ran out of my mouth she knew she had wandered into a place where she didn't belong and that she should have trusted me." I told Bill.
Bill put his head in his hands.
"God Carree, how can I ever look at your again, knowing that?" Bill said with a chuckle.
"All will be fine," I said as I sat next to Bill on the bed and hugged him to me. I pulled him back onto the bed and did a little roll to end up having him on top of me.
"When are we going to be able to just make love at times like this?" I asked. "I want you inside of me so badly right now. You know, just spontaneous, like we are in the kind of lovey mood we are in right now. Thinking about us, thinking about the future."
"Maybe with a condom during your safe days after you finish your period, or is that bending too much? I know we're both anxious and could talk each other into anything. But, that seems like it would be more than 99 percent safe, don't you think?" Bill suggested and asked.
"You're probably right, but we've waited this long and if I ever GOT pregnant my would think we have been lying all along. Lets stick with the original plan. Our trusted us enough to do this," I said pointing around to the room we shared. "If anything happened we would be persona non grata in both their eyes. Maybe after we get settled in Baltimore we can just tell them that we are cautiously having sex, or is it really any of their business then?" I wondered.
"It would truly be our own business then, completely." Bill said. "I suppose you are right to have to wait. I don't think either one of is WANT to wait."
"That's for sure, Bill." I said as I kissed him full on the lips grinding my hips to his. "I don't want to wait at all," I said, still anxious for loving - NOW. "Get inside me lover. Screw my little hole. I want you so bad. We don't have any plans for this afternoon, do we?"
"Well, if I did," Bill said, "I wouldn't now. Are you sure you want to do this Carree? I'm always so afraid of hurting you."
"Billy, if I didn't want it, I wouldn't suggest it. We should be OK without all the messy stuff. I just want you in me." I demanded.
Bill was a little reluctant at first, but once he sat back up and I reached down to rub the growing bulge in his pants, he was convinced. He reached out and took the bottom of my sweater top and began to pull it up. With my new short doo it went easily over my head, and I didn't have to worry about snags, like before. As soon as he saw my he kissed my lips and pushed me back on the bed filling each hand with boob. He was so sexy. After a few light kisses he moved his lips to my nipples giving each gentle kisses just enough to sensitize the erectile tips. He sat back and reached for the snap on my skirt. I lifted my butt and he slid it off, leaving me only in my panty. I smiled as sexy as I could and turned around on my hands and knees showing him my butt. He ran his hands over my and then hooked his fingers in the side to pull them down. Once my was uncovered he slid his hand between my legs and ran his finger between my lips. He trailed that finger right up to my butt and rubbed a little of the moistness around. He bent forward and ran his tongue over and over my anus. I could barely stand the sensation and had to slip to my hip to work my the rest of the way off. I wanted to give him more access. I knelt back up and he put his tongue back home leaving me wet. I felt a finger slide up my and before I could catch my breath from that rush, I felt the flat of his thumb pressure at my rear. He was not wasting anytime.
"As soon as you think you want lube let me know baby, and I'll get you ready. You want it spontaneous, and here it is. If anything isn't right, just let me know." Bill said lustily. I didn't let him know that his thumb going in like hell and burned, I asked for lube right then. We had just put everything away in the bath, so finding the KY was no problem. He was back in a flash. In just a few seconds I felt the cool rush of his coated thumb go back into me, but it was much better than before. He forced the length of his thumb up into me as his other hand busied itself on my clit.
"Oh, baby. Carree, I want to fuck you so bad. To make love to you, to be inside of you, I want you. Let me know when you want to try it." He whispered.
I was still trying to get accustomed to his intrusion, but I knew his penis, being that much bigger, was going to me even more. I wanted it now.
"Try it now baby. Lube up that pretty penis and try me now." I said excitedly, even though I knew it would hurt some at first.
I heard him undo his belt and then his pants hit the floor.
"Oh Carree, my cock is so hard for you." He said as I looked back between my legs at his show.
He must have been full of lust because he began to rub KY over its length right away after he sheathed it with a condom. We hadn't prepped and I think he wanted protection in case I wasn't 100 per cent clean. Not a sexy thought, but a real one. He knelt up on the bed and re-inserted his thumb, this time sliding into me much easier. After a couple pistons with his thumb, it left me and I felt him run the head of his penis around my crease. When he centered it on my little hole, he pushed.
Good God, it hurt, but I pushed back to get him all the way in, past my little knot, and into me right away. A hot poker would have felt the same, but I hid my pain. Once he was in I reached back and grabbed his scrotum to be sure he didn't move. I wanted to push him out, but I knew the longer I could hold him in, the faster I would be accustomed to his size and the pain would ebb.
"Don't move baby, don't move, OK?" I hissed to him.
I put my head down and rested it on my hands. After a minute or so I instinctively rolled my butt a little and the movement felt good. I was ready to be screwed.
"Fuck me nice and slow, Billy. Take it easy and make it last." I asked him.
He began to move, ever so slightly within me. It didn't take long for the sensation of having something up my butt to turn into the sensation of being made love to. No doubt, the gliding effect of the KY jelly enhanced the feeling. So far, if this were the first time I was doing this, it would have been the last. But, I knew the end result would justify the discomfort I was feeling. Had I not wanted to be spontaneous and we had used the proper preparation, I would have no complaints.
I began to breathe in rhythm with his pushes at my core. Somewhere in the next minute or so I began to build toward an orgasm and all the thought of the pain and discomfort of his initial entry were gone.
"Oh my God, Billy. My sweet William! Fuck meeeee! Make love to me!" I began to cheer to him.
But, my cheers made him stop, as he bent and wrapped himself around my hands and knees position.
"I love you so much, Carree," he growled in my ear as his hands mauled my breasts. He then he pushed me forward to be flat on my stomach on the bed. He centered all his weight on his penis in my butt to move his knees to either side of me. He shifted his weight to his knees then and began to pump in and out of my flattened figure.
My first orgasm was building fast and I was losing my breath quickly. Suddenly I was without breath as it swept over me like a big hand crushing my body. I opened my mouth to exclaim my ecstasy and nothing came out. I was sure I was going to pass out when suddenly Bill lifted his weight from me as he knelt back, in turn pulling almost all the way from my anal pocket. That action forced me to inhale quickly to have enough breath to shriek and exclaim my orgasm.
"Breathe with me Carree, don't pass out," Bill cried out as he slapped his hand hard across the side of my ass cheek. It was not a violent slap, but one whose purpose was to right my thought process. He knew I could just orgasm and pass out from not breathing, but the sting of his hand filled me with an instant rage that quickly filled my lungs. That sweet breath fueled my next wave of pleasure and calmed that rage. I knew and my instinct knew that Bill would never strike me in anger. The sting of his hand only fixed my focus as I came again and again, feeding each wave with long and short breaths.
I could barely see how I could have one more orgasm. My throat burned from the hard growls and shrieks I made. My hips and stomach muscles cramped from seeming to draw each wave from me. Suddenly I felt my clit seem to bulb out and then a long squirt of my ejaculate went into the bed.
"ArghhhhhhhhEEEEEEE" was all I could manage make come out of my mouth as that hot hard orgasm hit. Finally I was able to reach back and put a hand to Bills back to try to get him to stop. He took the hint and laid atop me with his mouth next to me ear.
"Can't take anymore? Do you want me out?" he asked breathlessly.
"No!" I managed to say as I puffed like a sprinter. "Just stay still." I added.
Bill stayed deep within me but didn't move. In a few moments I gathered my self and senses to speak.
"There, I think I'm calmed down. Just pump me nice and slow Billy." I said as he tried to fulfill my wishes.
Even nice and slow brought me to orgasm too fast, which would have been OK if I didn't so hard, but I did. I felt my next orgasm building and I tried to nurse it, but when it crowned, I was holding my breath trying to muscle by it.
"No more Bill, No more," I said breathlessly as I tried to squirm from him. "I can't anymore, or my heart will explode, I swear."
He slid effortless from me leaving me feel empty. I felt cool air rush into my dilated bottom before I fisted it shut and tried to enjoy the end of the fucking I just got. I rolled into the fetal position holding myself tightly with my eyes closed as the last spasms and sensations left me. I was one long mild orgasm as I breathed.
I felt Bill pet my back and the side of my bottom asking me if I was OK. I was more than OK. I felt like the most loved woman in the world, cursed with being too orgasmic.
"I'm fine, I'm just riding the wave, Billy," I said.
Billy had become my pet name for Bill. I had used baby, sweetie, honey and all the standards, but Billy was pretty personal right now. I opened my eyes and saw Bill kneeling on the bed feeling the huge wet spot I had left. Our eyes met and I smiled sheepishly as if I could help my discharge. When I lowered my eyes in embarrassment I saw his hard-on still in a tight firm curl toward the ceiling.
"Peel that slimey, smelly thing off him, and I'll take care of that little problem for you." I said referring to his condom.
Bill looked down and grabbed the rolled base and pulled it up and off his penis. It was all slime alright, but no evidence of anything else, to my relief. I scooted over to where he knelt and took his cock in my hand. I looked up at him and said, "However you want me."
"Carree, I had you how I wanted you, it would have been great to finish that way, but I understand. Plus I don't like to inside a rubber. How do you want it?" Bill asked.
"You know I like to taste you Billy, but if you want to finish bareback in my butt, we can do that." I volunteered.
"No, I know I already you there. Sit on the edge of the bed and I'll stand in front of you." He said.
"Are you sure? I'll do anything for you." I said.
"You already have, you're such a wonderful lover, Carree." Bill complimented me.
I scooted up and sat on the edge of the bed and Bill stood before me. I could see that his penis from being swollen and engorged so long. I grabbed behind him and took each of his butt halves in my hand and brought him to my mouth. My warm mouth cavern going over his hurting dick made him sigh loudly. I chuckled a bit at my power to make him feel so good. I went up and down a couple times and then he brought his hand to his penis.
"Just hold the head in your mouth. Let me stroke it. I have to right away." He said as I relented his shaft and just held the head in my mouth. I worked my tongue around and over his head paying special attention to the sensitive underside V near the head. He only stroked a few times and I tasted his pre-cum and I barely had time to think about it when he moaned loudly and my mouth filled with his cream. One-two- three shots and I swallowed and then another two more before I just put my tongue over the head so I wouldn't choke if there were any more blasts. I swallowed 3 mouthfuls before I felt his hand go away and he sighed. If he were disappointed about not cumming in my butt, he was passed it already.
"Zzhiiiiiiiiiii-OH" he exclaimed, as he grabbed his cock in his hand to protect it from me. I slid forward off the bed to the floor and hugged his legs.
I was satisfied, and he was satisfied. We had waited almost 10 days with this promise to be alone and we wasted no time to get to our most intimate. I wanted to make love sometimes without all the hard prep that anal sex should really have. Just dropping your and doing it is not so easy back there. Today was as close as we ever came to that. Bill didn't know the whole truth of the pain I endured to do it this way today, and I wouldn't doing it again too soon either. Taking him in my bottom was not something we did on a regular basis. The fact that it had been just a month since the last time probably marked the shortest time between, except for once when we did it on consecutive days. We had vowed to make it special, and we had kept it that way. After doing it today, I was pretty sure it wouldn't happen again until summer. If I knew then how sore my butt was going to be the next morning, I would have signed off before we started, even though it was my idea, especially the spontaneous, spur of the moment part.
We didn't leave our room the rest of the night. We stayed close to each other, kissed a lot, and necked a lot too. Around 7 o'clock we had a pizza delivered and ate it with a bottle of champagne Bill had brought with him. After a schmaltzy HBO we retired to bed, but I wanted to shower, still feeling a little "slippery" between the cheeks. Bill ended up coming into the shower with me and later we sixty-nined on the bed, falling asleep in each other's arms. Except for the sore butt I had, every couple in love should have multitudes of days like this. It was a private "us" day that I will never forget. When I think of it now I miss him even more . . . . But appreciate the time I had with him more. . . . . what if this day never happened and I DIDN'T have this memory.
We spent the next few days shopping and being with each other, seeing our friends and having dinner with our families. On Christmas Eve after intimate moments, over a breakfast that Bill made for us, we went to the Mall to watch kids with Santa, their faces lighting up with the joy only Christmas knows. This is one of the perks of having children, and I know we dreamed of the day when it would be our child on Santa's knee.
Early in the afternoon Bill brought me home to my parents house and he went to his. There, we spent our last Christmas with our families. After our Holiday dinners Bill came over and we exchanged presents at our house and then brought our bag of gifts for his family. It was truly a special time for us. One gift we got from my future employer, Arens and Ponds, was a special surprise. It was an 8-day get- away to Maine as soon as school ended, as long as I wanted a working vacation. They wanted a review, and pictures from a condominium hotel on the seacoast. Miranda Ponds called me the day after Christmas and told me that they had this opportunity to work with some New England resorts, but the time frame fell just prior to their yearly meetings in the Caribbean and the staff was stretched to the max. Would I be open to doing the 8 days for two, and then have 6 days off before going to meet her and the company in St. Thomas? The only catch was, it began 2 days after graduation, it left me only 6 days afterward to move to Baltimore and then fly to the yearly company meetings. I would then have until the Fourth of July, when the office re-opened, (actually on Monday the 7th) to begin work. It would be hectic. Miranda had taken the liberty of contacting my to make sure Bill didn't have to start work that early. (He didn't, he was free until the second Monday in June)
Christmas night, and every night that remained of our Holiday recess we spent falling asleep in each other's arms. That alone was "making love". Our contentment from just being with each other was palpable.
The only evening we did not spend in our hideaway was the one night we spent in Baltimore. Arens and Ponds had flown me to Baltimore for a company New Years Eve party. This, along with their yearly meeting in St. Thomas, was another general meeting that mixed business with pleasure and was a real morale booster. Seminars, meetings and company updates began at noon and continued throughout the day. Bonus incentives were handed out at a general meeting at 6:00pm, over dinner. The New Years bash began at 10:00 in the same Hotel/Convention Center. Everyone was encouraged to stay off the roads and stay at the hotel, all paid for, of course. I paid an extra plane fare for Bill, as we would spend New Years Eve morning looking at the prospective property Arens and Ponds had set up for me, with an option to purchase after 24 months. It was everything Miranda Ponds had promised and more. The neighborhood was definitely upscale and the paper they held on the property would have been a bargain at near double the price. I did need to complete 2 years at Arens to qualify for the option to buy.
Schools swan song was sweet as our educations already bore the fruit of selected careers. Saying goodbye to my roommates, Henny and Maria, was a task. We planned to visit each other from time to time, while trying to stay in close touch via e-mail and telephone.
Our families combined our Graduation parties into one huge get together. The Wilson's and the Kasc families had gotten to know each other quite well and the fruits of that union were the tremendous pile of Congratulation cards and gifts we received. Many who were aware of our situation in Baltimore helped furnish our new home as if we were getting already. Sweeter yet, the amount of cash we received let us begin our lives together totally debt-free. We were cash poor, but owed no one. We had a stash in the bank, but that was for the future. In Baltimore we would live hand to mouth for a short time, but we saw bright lights at the end of a short tunnel. We figured a budget that had us in daylight in just a couple paychecks, and in bright sunshine soon thereafter.
My life would be hectic for the next month, but after that I figured I would be ready to sit down and absorb everything that happened in the last 4 years and put a perspective to it all.
The day after our party we had one whole day to prepare for our trip to Maine. A voucher came that day to buy a laptop computer for my work. Nothing like cutting it close!! The product order was specific, but CompUSA had it all put together and waiting for me. It seems they had their copy of the order and my voucher for quite a time.
Packing to go to Maine was crazy because I had no idea what to expect. My and Dad gave me a little insight as they had vacationed there right after school themselves. I knew the ocean there would be different from any I had seen in Jersey or the Caribbean, and I didn't know what Miranda wanted when she asked for the whole review and to be New England flavored. But, I was pretty adaptable and, I had a secret weapon along with me, Bill Wilson. Looking back, I don't think I could have gotten serious in my creative writing without his push and ghosting.
As soon as we got into Maine we got off the highways and took the by-ways and it became apparent that finding a different New England feel would be easy. The look, the mood of life, was altogether different from the pace Bill or I knew, and it was to our liking. Once we settled in our condo at Wells Beach our whole attitude changed, life was at a slower pace here and we relished it. We met with the owners, who had 3 properties on the Maine seacoast. They were a nice couple that thought they had a product that was untapped with the international, upscale traveler. The South Sea Isle crowd knew little of the existence of the quaint, relaxing attitude and subtle charm of areas like this. I knew what my job of conveying their product would entail.
When we walked the beach I think we fell in love all over again. There was a feeling of newness to our relationship as we took in the sea air and feel. Instead of long stretches of pure white powder sand, as I knew the Caribbean Beaches to be from my trip there, the beach here was a packed carpet of sand that lent itself to walking. It made us feel alone in our own spot in the universe, despite the hundreds of people, walking and taking in the same feel. Numerous times during our walk we stopped and looked out over the ocean landscape and then turned and kissed to make sure we sealed each moment. Our want for each other was something you could almost reach out and touch.
"How many of the couples walking on the beach right now are going to make love when they get back to their rooms?" Bill asked.
"Every one, it would seem." I said. "Just something about the air and the view and the eternity of it all, I guess. Don't feel bad because we won't be doing it, Billy, I have my period anyway." I added.
"Oh well, I guess we aren't missing anything at all then, but it sure seems like a nice thought though." Bill countered.
"I didn't say I wouldn't mind having you for a little love snack, lover. I might enjoy it as much as you." I said as I stopped and turned to him, giving his crotch a little squeeze.
"You are so bad, Carree, but I love you that way." Bill said laughing and kissing me.
"When I finish my period, do we think we want to try a safe sex session? I know all the things we have talked about, but once I've have stopped flowing, there really is no egg to fertilize for a few days. Plus if you wear a condom, and don't inside of me . . ." I said stopping and looking pleadingly into Bills eyes.
"But, what if . . . " Bill started.
"If I got pregnant from this once, we would be by Christmas and I would have a baby next ummm . . . April. Yes, it would rush things, but I thought we were going to tell our that we were going to start having protected sex, once we began to live together. This is only a few weeks difference. Really Bill, the chance I would really get pregnant are so slim . . . ." I said before Bill interrupted.
"Whoa, you don't have to talk me into it. It's you that always puts the brakes on when we really start to think about this. You know how much I love to make love to you, . . . a . . . you know, in your bottom. But, you must know that I really want to just be inside of the real you, your womb, and your center. The other is nice and has a place in our life, but this is so special. Why don't you think about it up until you finish your period? If you haven't talked yourself out of it, I'm already talked into it. The consequence, if you want to call it that, would be a reason to be sooner and to have a family. We've already talked about what great day-care Arens has for the women there. But, I think we are worrying about nothing. In your situation, and with a condom, and if I pull out before I cum, I think we are over 99 percent covered."
"As of right now, I agree." I said. "Maybe it's this ocean air mood we are in and once we get back to the room we will come to our senses. I won't finish my period until at least tomorrow, so I have time to think." I said.
"It sounds smart and fair to me baby doll. Whatever you decide makes me happy, you know that." He said whispering in my ear as he hugged me close to him, his erection ever so obvious.
"Thanks for respecting me and whatever my decision, Billy. Now, why don't we get back to the room so I can lower the tide on the little wave you have going down below." I said as sexy as I could.
We had already walked about 2 miles of Wells 3 mile beach, but suddenly we had an urgency to get back to our condo that overlooked all of this. I did want to feel that hard cock in my mouth and taste his cum. It made me happy, and him delirious. Although I came spontaneously from giving him oral sex, I knew he would really make it all up to me with his tongue, and soon. He always had. The closeness, the intimacy, the fact it was something only we had experienced with each other, still made oral love a hot turn-on for us.
We reversed direction and began our arm and arm trek back to the privacy of our room.
"Did we really just talk ourselves into taking my real virginity back there, after all of this time and wait?" I asked Bill.
"Isn't it more that we have just reached the moment we always waited for? We always said that a slip up would ruin our future, number one, because of school. Well, school is over. Number two, because we would need to have our careers set, and they more or less are. These aren't our perfect jobs, but if forced to live with them, I think we would both be happy. Number three, financial stability so we could bring a child into the world and not have to make a train wreck of our dreams, and we have that. I, obviously, don't want us to be preggers now, but if the situation presented itself, we are beyond disaster. We just held this one thing, this ultimate sign of our love; in abeyance to be sure we couldn't hurt our future. I think that future is now. Look how we have analyzed it, and the chances of us making a baby are almost nil." Bill rationalized.
"You won't be disappointed, or hold it against me if I change my mind?" I asked, a little facetiously.
Bill stopped in his tracks.
"Carree, you are my life. How can you even ask me that question? Just asking it makes me feel I talked you into something, when it was you who brought it up." Bill said, doubting me.
"I guess I didn't mean it the way it came out, Billy." I said as I rubbed my fingers on his cheek and then cupping his chin to bring his lips to mine.
With our lips just a whisper apart and our eyes looking into our souls, I said, "This is the last thing I've held from you, and you from me; the final proof of our love, as if there is a doubt. I want it to be perfect, and well thought out. A hard penis and a wet don't make wise decisions, as we have seen first hand through others. Whether we do it, or don't do it, I don't want you to love me one bit less." I said as I started the most passionate kiss we ever shared.
We held the kiss and pulled each other closer and left all caution to the wind about how or who might see our expression. Our teeth clicked together as our tongues sought to go inside each other's beings. Bills lips were suctioned over mine, our bodies pressed to each other, with our arms seeming to press every breath from each other's bodies.
He finally relented and we looked into each other's eyes.
"Wow, that was hot. Have we ever kissed that deeply?" I asked.
"I don't think so, but I never loved you more than I do now, or will, until the next tick of time goes by. I love you Carree, and you are me and I, you and both, we." Bill philosophized.
I locked arms with Bill and tugged at him to start our walk again in earnest.
"Come on, I've got to have you right now. Let's get back to the room before I end up taking you in my mouth right here on the beach." I said impatiently.
If I didn't have my monthly flow we would be making love in just a few minutes. Admittedly, during that flow it may have even been safer for sex, but we had read that, even then, couples had gotten pregnant.
But, the mess, the whole thing, was something I wanted no part in sharing, especially that way. Making love should be perfect, and somehow, rutting in my blood was not my idea of perfect. As much as we shared each other's lives and its personal details, the most chagrin I felt in the past was when I had burns on my hands and Bill had to change a tampon for me. Wiping my butt was personal enough, but it seemed minor compared to the tampon thing. I was mortified, but had no choice but to ask him at the time.
I quickly put all those thoughts away as we picked up our step to get back faster. I really wanted him between my lips, and over my tongue. I wanted to feel the heart of the I loved. I wanted to feel it beat in my mouth as I brought him to his orgasm. I also knew that the mere act of taking him into my mouth would bring me to orgasm. Not as deep an orgasm as one he would assist me with, using a tongue or finger. But I know I need only to reach down and touch my bared clit to feel a wave hit me. I needed that release now.
We climbed the steps from the beach to our condo two at a time. We were both hot for each other. Once inside the door Bill turned to me to say something, but I just covered his lips with mine and grabbed at the band of his shorts. I pushed him backwards to the edge of a desk where he could rest his cute butt. I pulled up the desk chair and sat in front of him. Curling my fingers in his waistband at his hips I slid his shorts down. He was already pretty hard as his penis popped up, released from its entrapment. I took it in my hand and bent towards his belly to expose his balls that I quickly took into my mouth, one at a time, to loll over my tongue and tease him further. Once wet with my spittle I used my other hand to rub that cute sack and look into his face.
"Oh Carree," he breathlessly whispered. "You're so good to me. How could I ever deserve your love or repay you for the pleasure you give me?"
"Don't you believe we were put here for each other, Bill? Pleasure needn't be repaid when it's mutual, lover. Making love to you has got me so turned on." I said as I stood and slipped off my walking short.
My bare needed my hand to pull at its lips and arrange them, as well as my tampon string. I closed my eyes to revel in the pleasure my hand brought to my now blood filled mound. I felt my clit pop its hood like a little hard on as it anticipated my touch. I realize that pulling at my lips made it pop up, but it still seemed to have a mind of its own.
I got my crotch to the edge of the chair where I could easily touch myself and looked up only to have Bills penis bump my nose.
"Somebody's impatient." I scolded as I kissed the tip and its little slit.
There would be no more words from my mouth as I filled it with his cock, over and over again, as I it like a melting ice cream stick. The deep exhales, catches of breath and subtle moans told me that he was enjoying this little prelude.
Once I had and licked every inch of him I took him from my mouth to admire him at full attention. I couldn't help but drop my mouth over him and begin to bob my head over plum of it. With one hand holding his balls while using that hands thumb to rotate over and over the base of his cock, my other hands fingers were pinched together behind my middle finger as it slid long strokes right over my clit. If I didn't push the hood over it on the down stroke to blunt the direct touch, I would be sore and cumming already.
Bill nudged involuntarily toward my mouth on each down stroke trying to get a little more into my mouth, but I was happy for just the head and another inch or so to piston in and out. The velvet smooth of the plum felt so erotic on my tongue as it passed over and over it. I was a razors edge from hitting a perfect orgasm from my clit. It was the little charge I was looking for. Almost electric, it was like a constant exposure to a low voltage charge. With just the right touch I could hold that bare wire to my sexual release for quite a time. It was time to get to the business at hand, or mouth, I guess you would say.
I rolled my eyes up to see Bill's pleasure and he was looking right into my eyes. He smiled, mouthed a kiss and rolled his eyes to the ceiling to show me his pleasure. I half smiled around the shaft in my mouth as our eyes met again. Without words we had decided that this was the way he would cum, with our eyes locked together to convey wordless affirmations of passion and pleasure.
It didn't take long for me to taste a little bleachy report from his pre-cum as his body ran through its final systems check for a good blast off. What strange creatures we were with perfect systems of checks and balances for its purposes.
I increased my suction just a little to help Bill get over the edge. I know I always compared the closeness of orgasm like climbing a ladder and balancing on the top step. Sooner or later you would lose your balance and have to jump off to safely. Bill was about ready to jump, he was losing his balance.
One watery blast hit my tongue and Bills right hand loosened its grip in the edge of the desk to wrap two if its fingers around the base of his penis to help pump out his orgasm. His fingers did not impede me at all as I sought to on each up stroke to make sure I didn't gag or choke with a full mouth. He seemed to shoot and ooze for minutes, when I know it was not that long, but the seeming slow motion of the situation made the pleasure seem to last forever. My orgasm was steady and kind to my mood as I relished in the pulsing passion in my mouth and the moans of pleasure and adoring adulation his eyes conveyed to mine. Finally he pushed his fingers up his shaft to force my mouth from it. He could take no more of the intense attention I was paying it. Both of his hands went to his crotch as he rolled back onto the desk, folding his knees up with a deep guttural moan. He was in a fetal ball on the desktop. I was just about to end my long orgasm as my strokes went to a loving pinch and massage of my clit. I leaned forward and gave each of his cute butt cheeks an adoring kiss, and couldn't resist giving his little butt a snakey tongue kiss as well, making him spin and jump up.
"Oh stop, Carree, are you trying to kill me? I can only take so much." He shouted impatiently.
"I know," I replied, "I trying to find out just how much," I said with an evil look.
He smiled and came and knelt before me as I lay back in the desk chair a little. His hands pushed up my t- shirt and he dropped his mouth to each of my nipples to sort of crown my tingle session. I could barely stand this for a half minute before I pulled down the shirt and pushed his mouth away.
This wasn't intercourse, but it was certainly making love, and we were exhausted by it. After being shunned away from my Bill fell back to the carpeted floor and stared at the ceiling. I fell forward to my knees and slumped over him, hugging my to his. We lay like this on the floor to the sound of the waves crashing outside our room. A ringing phone would eventually interrupt our reverie.
"Oh crap, that's that Allan guy who was supposed to call. I better get it." I said as I climbed from the floor.
It was Gary Allan, a publicist friend of the resorts ownership group head, who wanted to meet with me. We spoke briefly about ideas he had for promotion of the Maine seacoast and his friends 3 resort properties. If he was any kind of publicist, why didn't he take the job himself? He kept babbling about getting money from the State tourist council for using their logo, and to tell you the truth, I was so burnt from my session with Bill that I didn't hear a word he said. I arranged to meet him the next morning. He was someone I really didn't need to meet, but Seaside Resorts Inc wanted me to meet with him, so I would. I really wasn't there to get marketing ideas. I was there to put the experience into words to spawn marketing ideas from the team at Arens and Ponds. They wanted my suggestions, but the translation of my experience was their real job.
While I was on the phone Bill got up and went to the shower to freshen up and hope for a second wind. I knew we were both hungry and a seafood dinner at an ocean restaurant would satisfy. However, four miles of walking and hot love making tended to wear a body down in this air. I did a zombie walk into the bath area and as long as I was not dressed, I got into the generous sized shower with Bill. He turned and smiled me and we hugged, telling each other how tired we were. We each washed separately and while he rinsed I bent to pay special attention to my feet, getting the sand from between my toes. When I straightened up I turned to see Bill with a smirk and a hard on. Although proud that my butt could generate life in a well-spent penis so easily, I shook my head at him.
"You are a horn toad." I said. "Does that thing ever rest? Ummm, not that I want it to, but you should give it time off occasionally."
"I'm sorry, Care, but you have the finest ass I have ever, or will ever, see. The sight of it makes me nuts, plus knowing that I have been in that little hiney that shows when you bend, makes me even harder. Don't blame me for getting horny over you, Care. You turn me on so, and I love you so."
"Well, relief is your problem. I'm hungry, but I want dinner. Right now any sex would wear me out." I said exasperated at his ever-erect penis.
We walked out of the shower area and started getting dressed, but Bill wanted to keep the subject alive.
"Geez Care, it's no big deal. It goes up and down a lot during the day with you around. You didn't think I had to wank it or stick it someplace every time it got hard, did you?" Bill said to me, a little annoyed. "Why do you think I always have so much to give each time I splash? I leave it alone and let it build for the best time for us."
"To quote you Billy, "Geez", did you think I was that big a dope?" I joked. "I just said that because you had that "look what I did" look on you face when I turned and saw it winking its one eye at me. I have a feeling that if you had to get off each time it got hard, you'd only weigh 40 pounds." I said as I pulled my shorts up over my while Bill was stuffing the monster into his jeans.
Bill chuckled and we hugged, and locked up the condo and headed out for dinner.
"If you feel like it, we can take the Trolley to the Grey Gull Inn for dinner and walk back. The brochure says tonight low tide is about 8:30. They say you can walk all the way to Wells Beach from the Gull at low tide." I said as I perused the brochures I singled out on the way here.
"Sounds good to me, if you're up to it." Bill said.
I couldn't resist. I turned and patted him right on the penis. "I know you're always UP to it, huh, little Billy." I said as I turned and ran from him. He caught me at the door and pinched my ass.
"Very funny." He said as we went arm and arm down to the trolley stop to go to dinner.
Dinner was as romantic as it gets. We watched the ocean go dark and the reflection of the moon on the cold black surface. Occasionally a boat would sail through the long lit reflection of the moons light. After dinner we asked the waiter the best place to get to the beach for the walk to Wells and he took us to the front porch and counted down houses and told us the path to follow. It was a beautiful long romantic walk. We stopped to kiss, hug and neck, over and over. If I had one more drink I would have loved to have sex on the beach right there. I still was flowing a bit from my period so it would have had to been me doing him, but it would have been incredibly sexy. But the wine would have had to make me brave enough. As much as I wanted to do it, and it was dark, it was still outside, in public. Our smooching, feeling, and hugging was sexy enough though. We came upon other couples doing the same thing. We walked close to the water, but wondered what was happening back up on the dunes. We thought we saw movement, but we let people have their privacy.
When we got back to our condo we climbed the steps and went inside, only to walk right out on the veranda to enjoy the ocean air and ink black view splashed with moonlight. We ended up on the chaise together and just watched the water crash and ebb. After a time I became aware of another sound and I motioned to Bill to be quiet and cupped my ear to signal him to listen. On the veranda beside us, separated by only 2 feet in between and a thatched web blind, we heard a couple making love. The squeaking chaise was unmistakable, as well as the moan of the woman. The simply hummed a loudly as he struck bottom each time. She was obviously beginning to orgasm as she got a little louder in unison with the quickening squeak.
The more we listened the more aware I became of Bills hard cock under me. I slid over a bit and pulled down his zipper and reached inside to set him free. I kissed the tip and smiled at Bill as I began to stroke him. He stopped me and peeled my cropped sweater top off over my head. While I stroked his cock, he massaged my and pinched at my nipples. His attention made my ache and want to be at. He was only glad to oblige me as I fed him my breasts. Once the tingle in my subsided, I got beck to jerking him off. I was going in rhythm to the couple next door, but they got pretty fast paced. Finally she said something urgent to him and he got up. As we craned our necks as much as we could from the chaise, we figured he was jerking off over the balcony. We just couldn't figure what else he was doing in the low light we had. We kept perfectly still so as not to be discovered. A few seconds later we heard him grunt and groan, sounding like he was cumming. She giggled and said something like, "That was nice", and they got up and we heard their door slide shut.
What we heard was hot, but we were sure embarrassed to be caught out there. Actually, we discovered that the only people who could see you on your veranda or balcony were people on the beach. For you to see into anyone's balcony you really had to lean out over the rail and that would be just too gauche. We later realized that maybe they knew we were there and wanted to put on a show for us. The only thing we were jealous of was the fact they were having intercourse and we weren't.
Between hearing them making love and Bills hand and tongue play with my I was ready to get off. He didn't like to play with me during my period; we had one too many accidents when we were inexperienced with each other. I didn't blame him, the bloody mess freaked me out too, but I knew how to get off without making one. So, I got up from the chaise and spun around, sitting at the foot.
"Watch me, Bill. Watch me get my jollies while you stroke that beautiful cock for me." I said to his smiling approval. We both began to in earnest. I should have told him to wait, and that I would finish him with my mouth, but I really needed to get off. The whole night of romance had me totally frustrated. If there was a night when I wanted to 69 and have a monster O, it was tonight, but with Bloody Mary at the bar, nothing was going to happen.
My orgasm was going to be fast and I wanted to lie back, but being on the end of the chaise it was impossible. Once I began the cumming stage of my clit play I brought up my knees and spun around again and laid back so I could really grind one out. This put my head right between his legs, and if I looked up I saw his hand going up and down. My O came with a big spasm and I did just what I turned and laid back for, to grind out a knee biting, toe curling spasm to soothe my pussy. I just got to where I could no longer stand my own touch when I felt a splat hit my boobs. Bill came.
"Oh, don't get it in my hair." I said trying to move away, but I felt a drop hit my forehead. I risked looking up and getting a shot in my eye, but I saw Bill put his hand over the tip so he couldn't spray me. He laughed and made a joke about the conditioner I might be using, but he really didn't hit my hair at all. We ended up laughing and cleaning each other up.
It had been a nice day for us. We hadn't just kissed and smooched and necked so much in a long time. Not really having any mutual sex available to us made those things even sexier. The oral sex I had done on him earlier was so nice. It was my idea and my aggression that made it happen, I liked that. Any woman who doesn't feel the power she has and the absolute sexiness of doing her man, without any expectations, has really missed something. We fell asleep in each other's arms to sounds of the crashing ocean. What a peaceful and sexy way to end the day.
About 3:30 in the morning I heard Bill get up and go to the bathroom. He saw I was awake and apologized for waking me.
"You didn't wake me. I was awake already, lying here thinking." I said.
"About what, the review and things you have to get done?" Bill asked.
"No. About us, about us making love like real couples do. I think I want it Bill. You know, on my safe days. They say 72 hours after you stop flowing is safe, but if we keep to 48 hours and use a condom and you pull out. . . . I know it sounds like jumping through hoops, but I want to have you in me, in my vagina, where you should be, reaching the depths of me. With our lips locked together with our eyes open to see the pleasure we give each other. I want it to happen Bill. I want it to happen now, as soon as I stop, OK?" I said looking at him in the dark with just the ambient light from the outside reflecting in his eyes.
"Oh Goddddd, Carree," Bill said, his voice quivering. "For the first time in our life together you are saying this where I can really agree with you. It's time. We need to cross this bridge. God, I'm trembling, Carree. You must think I'm a big wuss or something, but this means so much to me, to us. Yes, I think we are ready. Let's make it happen here, with the ocean crashing." He said sliding over and holding me tighter than he ever did.
We held each other and cried each other to sleep. No tears of sadness were shed, just sheer and utter joy. All of our careful waiting was going to have its first finale.
We woke in the morning still in each other's arms and the sun peaking into our room. It was very early and we watched the sun come up. The tide was pretty high and there were not too many walkers on the beach. Once the sun got above our window we lie back and just looked at each other and smiled. We fell asleep for another couple hours, waking to the ring of the phone.
After a groggy "hello" I realized it was Garry Allan the fellow I was supposed to meet on behalf of Seaside Resorts.
"We have an 11 o'clock appointment and I know how easy it is to let time slip by up here. The sound of the ocean can make you sleep for hours." He said.
"Oh my God, Garry, I'm not late, am I?" I asked incredulously.
"No, but it's 10 o'clock and you wouldn't be my first morning appointment who slept through it." He said.
"Well, I'm a little surprised we aren't up yet, so thanks for calling. I'll see you in the office in an hour." I said as I hung up.
Holy crap, I really may have slept through if he hadn't called. I shook Bill and told him we were late and I was getting in the shower. He acted like he had a hangover.
Before I got in the shower I checked my tampon and knew I was at the end of my flow, or near the end. I was excited that tonight might be the night.
I was just rinsing my hair when Bill came into the shower. We kissed and I got out to dry and do my hair.
"Are you expecting me to go with you this morning?" he shouted over the shower.
"Of course. I'm meeting a I don't even know who wants to ride me along the coast to show me romantic reasons why couples might come here instead of the Caribbean. I can handle myself, but I would like you to be there." I said.
"I know I would feel better." Bill said as he finished up his shower.
Garry Allan was a guy very full of himself and a local know-it-all, it turned out. He thought he was big city slick but his naeveties really showed through. His homespun attitude may have worked with the locals, but we were trying to sell this to a client totally the opposite of the Down East Mainers. The Seaside Resorts owners were just making sure that the city slickers knew what they were selling. I am sure they had never spent this kind of money before on promotion and advertising, but were ready to graduate to the big time and maybe get some international business to get their feet wet and expand beyond Maine. Bill summed it all up. Garry was a protection for the nervous local stockholders, and he was probably right. I thanked Garry for "all his help"; made evident by the hundreds of faux notes I took. I had done a service for the client by seeing this fellow, and maybe even made some points with them.
After just 24 hours I could have written enough to fill a brochure. The New England feel of the area was quite pleasing and made me feel like I had been here forever. We still had a lot of food to try and local entertainment and sights to see. We still had 6 more nights here, and we knew at least one of them was going to be very eventful.
We spent the rest of the day, after Garry Allan's meeting, visiting local antique dealers of which there were many. Bill was surprised his had never been here with their obsession with stuff. Bills knowledge of antiques helped me tremendously in my note taking and descriptions. We got permission for some photos of a few places more quaint. This assignment was given to me because it was fluff, compared to the high roller accounts Arens and Ponds normally handled. I was going to make an impression with my report and input.
We got back to our room about 7 o'clock and we were famished. We should have stayed out to eat, but I got caught without a bathroom when I needed it. Rather than stop at the grocery store or a gas station, we were close enough to get back to the room. I knew I could check my progress with my period too. I was excited for both of us that a new door was going to open for us, sexually.
I came out of the bathroom and saw Bill sitting in the easy chair beside the bed where he was, of course, reading a newspaper. (He was in his glory here, they had both Boston papers, both New York tabs, a New Hampshire and the Portland paper, plus the WSJ) I went to the back of the chair and bent to whisper in his ear.
"Guess whose gonna fuck my tonight?" I whispered in his ear.
The paper went down.
"Are you sure? You think you're all done? Even now in the light of day and everything, you haven't changed your mind?" Bill asked.
I massaged both of his shoulders with my willowy fingers.
"Unt - Uh. No change of mind, no change of heart. I want you to make love to me tonight. I would do it right now, except in my fantasy it's in a dark room with candles lit. We have to go get dinner, and buy candles. This is going to be the night we have waited all of our life's love for Billy Wilson. I may not be a real virgin, but you know I've always wanted you, and only you Bill."
"God Carree, lets get out and do something before I burst out of my pants." Bill said getting up grabbing his crotch. He grabbed my arm and we left. He was so cute.
We hopped into the car and went to Oqunquit and Perkins Cove. These were two real touristy spots that screamed big bucks for those who wanted to shop. The women's clothing stores and the gift shops were very pricey, if not exclusive. We found a little spot called the Lobster Shack and had a quiet dinner even though the place was packed. Afterward we got an ice cream and took a nature walk on a path called the Marginal Way. It was as romantic as anything else we had done. What great sights from the walkway!! The walk ended in the middle of town and we walked back to where we had parked. It was close to dark and we passed a candle shop and went in and bought at least 10 candles with bases, floating candles and votives. We were ready for the drive back for our night of love.
The drive back was very quiet as we sat and thought, looking to read each other's eyes from time to time. Each time our eyes met it elicited a big smile from either of us. We were ready, we were thought out, it was time. The rest of the ride back was eerily silent and we contemplated what we were going to do. No change of mind, no change of heart. It was going to happen. There was a tension that was between us when we pulled into the parking garage and gathered our things and went upstairs to our room. The only way to describe it was that the world was buzzing by at 100 MPH, while we stood frozen and watched. It reached a fever pitch until the walked in to the room. The latch clicked to signal the door closed and locked and our eyes met and we leapt into each other's arms.
"Oh my God, Carree, I never realized how much I love you, how much I want to possess you and be yours until this moment." Bill whispered into my ear. "We've spent years and years saying I LOVE YOU and making each other happy with physical gratification and enjoying each other as if there were no one else in the world. But, now it really is true. There is no one else in the world and our union really could bring another life into our world, a direct result of our love. What an incredible miracle. I know we are taking every precaution to make sure that doesn't happen, but I just realized that if it did, what an absolute joy and gift it would be, because I love you and you love me and together it's a love so strong we can make another life to share that love with."
I went to answer Bills realization but the overwhelming desire to put my mouth on his and kiss him won over. I his tongue deep into my mouth and then rolled mine with his together in each other's mouths. My arms were glued to his back and I could feel each of my fingers between ribs, as I held him tightly to me as if some force might want to take him from me. His hands held my lower back and my ass to him, as we stood for minutes in this passionate embrace. It was the kiss of the ages and it transmitted volumes of feelings to each of us.
Finally our lips parted and I was able to form sounds to whisper in his ear.
"Your words, Bill. Your read your words right off my heart, I swear. So beautiful, Oh my God Bill, so beautiful, we are one. There will be no time in our lives so right for what will happen tonight between us. Fate planned this all for us. How perfect." I breathlessly worded into his ear.
Finally our embrace and kiss broke and we eased our grips on each other to stand back and look at each other. After what seemed a long moment, I spoke.
"Part of me wants to throw you to the floor and push you inside of me to love and possess me and prove our oneness and relieve the excitement and joy that is building within me. Another voice is telling me to let you gently take me, and me take you, both under the shower to wash everything else away and leave nothing but our flesh for each other to consume. Consume we must with our tongues at every tender part of our bodies to excite and anticipate the great union we will share tonight. As much as I cannot wait to have you within what makes me a woman, I do want to wash and make perfect your body for me to consume and excite." I said philosophically to be sure Bill knew how I loved him so, but I really had no doubts. He knew, I knew.
"Let's get everything in the room ready the way we want it so when we come out of the shower we have no interruptions." Bill said as he retrieved the bag from the candle store.
We each took candles and put them around the room. The owners of the condo must have made this their love nest often enough as well. There we candle dishes, floating candle pads, and other holders placed around the room. Each were in a safe spot to be left to burn for hours, and once we had ours lit it was obvious that they formed a circle around the bed, each strategically placed to contain light and aim it to the bed. As we lit the last candles and looked at the scene, our eyes met and we smiled. It WAS a place for love, to be sure.
Bill drew open the curtains and opened the French doors wide, while locking the screens. The burst of cool sea air filled the room and made perfect the ambiance. The moon would hang center in our as we lay in bed that night, if we had time to look at it.
The bath in our condo was large and had a tub with shower and a large shower, clearly meant for two, although with its seat in one corner and the safety bars, its intention was probably for handicapped. The placement of the candles, the dEcor of the room, the large added shower told me this room was a love nest for its owners. We would try to hold tradition for them. While the room was spacious for a bath in a unit condo, the addition of the extra shower made it a little cramped. Still though, we waited to get inside the room to begin removing our clothes. We undressed ourselves until we got to our underwear. There and then we embraced again and I heard Bill draw deeply into his lungs as he ran his hands over the near naked skin of my body.
"You are beautiful, so perfect, both inside and out. I have done nothing in life to deserve such perfection. I will be sure to always treasure you Carree, and never ever you." He said as if he were proposing again.
I blushed and relished in his strong hands running over my body. I was doing the same for him.
"I don't know what I have ever done to deserve you either Bill. You are so perfect for me and we know each other, in and out, so perfectly, so intimately. Last night while I lay awake thinking about us I thought of something silly. We have been part of each others life for 4000 days, with few of those ever spent without seeing or talking to each other. For the lion's share of those 4000, any time I spent away from you, I spent wishing I was near you, or could hear your voice. Something tells me that we won't be growing tired of each other soon." I said.
"Not with so many things of love and life to share, if we ever do grow tired of each other, the memories will buoy our love until our last days." Bill said as he unsnapped my bra. I stepped away from him to let my go free and the garment drop. I reached out and slid my fingers over his back and down under the band of his under shorts over his buttocks until they fell to the floor. The only snag I hit was the fact that, surprise, his penis was erect. I reached and took his penis in one hand and his ball sack in my other. They were both warm and damp from their hiding place. My hands and fingers massaged and stretched their prizes to get them accustomed to the free air again. The second I let go, Bill reached out and took the hip ties to my panties and pulled them to let the front and back panels drop. I bought these just yesterday while shopping with Bill. The were cut, and tied, like a bikini bathing bottom. However, they were so sheer you could roll them into a small ball. He ran his hand down my belly over my bare mound and through the furrow of my to arrange and pull my lips, teasing me, as I did him. He smiled and looked me in the eye, winking.
"Hmmt, no string," he chuckled.
We now stood naked before each other and embraced, once again running our hands over each others naked backs as if to feel and verify each others body while our sexuality intermingled. It was as if we were seeing and touching each other for the first time.
Bill stepped back and turned on the shower, adjusting the water to our liking and he took my hand to escort me in. Now, we had showered and washed each other many, many times before, as well as having both oral and anal sex under the steams of a showers water. But, tonight was totally different. We each gingerly washed each other as if we were porcelain dolls, gently cleansing and scrubbing each other from between our toes to behind each others ears amid giggles and sighs.
Upon finishing we gently dried each other and went arm and arm to the dressing table where Bill helped me dry my hair, and I combed his. When we turned off the rest of the lights, only the candles glow from the bedroom remained. We turned down the sheets and bedspread beforehand, so the bed was set. We stood back and looked outside to the sound of the waves crashing in the distant low tide, and then Bill put his arm around my shoulder and scooped me up into his arms. He carried to the bed and set me down on the cool sheets.
"You are my virgin bride tonight, Carree. This is the night we have waited for, it seems forever. I cannot put into words how much I love you, especially right now." Bill said sweetly.
He treated me so kind and gentle when he needed to, like now; yet at times, so firm and convincing when I was more prone to tantrums, or when our sex got mutually rough (to a point). Tonight he was the perfect husband to me, treating me like a fragile doll, so far.
"When was the first time you really wanted to make love to me, Billy. I don't mean the first time you looked at me physically and had naughty ideas, but the first time you really thought we should go all the way?" I asked him.
"The first time? I remember it distinctly. We had been necking and humping like crazy for a couple nights in a row. You attacked me each time, and on the third night you said you had a leg cramp and changed positions. You lay right on my cock and we humped. I used to carry a condom in the glove box and I wanted to show it to you that night, but I chickened out. But, for a minute I really thought we were going to DO it. Man, was I na‹ve." Bill explained.
"I remember that night. It was the third time in a row I had to take care of business when I got home. I was so exasperated with you." I admitted.
Bill knelt beside me and said, "Enough of past history, we have some new heights to reach."
He laid his lips to mine and we soft kissed for a moment or two, and then he tried to devour me, nipping at my lips, then my ears. He quickly moved to my breasts and my nipples, but it was clear where his target was. He soon passed my navel and was head first at my pussy. His licking, nipping, and fondling were all meant to excite me and get me wet for his cock. But, that cock was in my reach now. I wanted to love it tender before he pushed it into me for the first time. I was in a place I had not been before. It was like being love drunk, or sex drunk. I was light headed from the anticipation and also from the erotic mood of the room. I suppose Bill's tongue on my clit might have had a little to do with it too. My eyes had been closed for a few minutes as I began to float away on an orgasmic trip and when I opened them as I began to flounder around a bit, I saw Bills cute penis just with in the reach of my mouth. I reached out my hand and pulled it to me and enveloped the perfect plum in my mouth. Never had it felt so good, tasted so good, or felt so natural as it had now. If I were to have cataloged the hundreds, maybe thousands, of times we had each other genitals in our mouths, tonight would stand out. It was truly special. After lolling his dick in my mouth a bit I really wanted to get into it and turned a bit to get at it more. Feeling this, Bill began to turn a bit to me and soon we were on our sides, our heads deep between each other's legs. As we bent and hunched over the next few minutes we were able to kiss, lick, and suck each other's sex right down to our butt holes. On a normal night of sex like this I would have been over the top with a screaming, mind blowing orgasm, but tonight I seemed to have a control over myself, knowing this really was foreplay.
However, a person can take just so much and I was reaching that point with Bills tongue driving me crazy. I wiggled and squirmed away from his tender kisses and licks, letting him know that I had reached a pinnacle. He could barely argue because it meant that I could pay a lot more attention to him. I gave him a heavy tongue and spittle bath from the top of his cock, the creases of his balls, and the of his cute butt and asshole. I wanted to taste and feel every part of him, as he had me tonight.
At one point I sought out his mouth to kiss and our turning and wrangling left him with him kneeling in front of me, my legs spread and his cock pointing towards the ceiling, engorged, shiny and curled hard. He smiled at me and asked if I was truly ready. I just nodded my head.
"Slip your hand under that pillow and get the condom." Bill said pointing beside my head. "You can help me put it on."
I slid my hand under the pillow and sure enough, there it was. It was the one thing in tonight's love making that wasn't really a part of either of us. I found the little place where you could tear open the package and I had the blue colored ring in my hands. I crooked a finger to get him closer to me, and he quickly straddled me sitting just below my breasts, presenting his cock to me so I could roll it on. Everything tonight had been so perfect, so beautiful; we traded smiles as I began to fumble with the slippery disc.
"Remember before when we were talking and you said something like umm . .There really is no one else in the world, besides us, and our union really could bring another life into our world, a direct result of our love, for us to love, and what an incredible miracle it would be?" I asked Bill.
"Yeah, I remember, and I assumed you feel the same way, right?" Bill asked.
"You know I do, and for that reason, I don't want to put this on you. I want to feel you, and only you inside of me. I want to feel your splashing inside of me. Our chances of getting pregnant are almost nil, and if that small chance happens, we will have the most beautiful and most loved baby ever. It would be a direct result of this night. How could that be bad?" I asked a shocked Bill Wilson.
"Oh Carree, if that's what you want, I am with you. I couldn't agree more with you, my virgin bride." He said touching my cheek so affectionately.
"Bill, I don't want to talk you into this, I want you to go along if you really feel that way in your heart of hearts." I cautioned him.
"No Carree, I've felt this way from the start of the night, that the end would be, somehow like a cheat to you and me and us. I truly would feel blessed if we got pregnant from tonight. Since I'm not the one who would have to bear it, I really didn't want to say anything. I hope you understand what I mean." Bill said, a tear coming to his eye.
"I understand," I said, now stroking his beautiful cock as it rested between my breasts. "I want this inside of me so I can only feel you tonight. There may be other times when we have to settle for the protection, but tonight . . " I said craning up to plant a kiss on the head of his penis, "I just want this." I said as I flipped the condom ring aside.
I really hadn't thought that I could get Bill to go along with my idea, but he later explained that he felt cheated at times before when he wanted to make love to me and we used alternative methods, and then was his chance to really be in me and make love to me, but he had to "wear a raincoat".
Bill braced himself up on his hands and kissed me, then settled on his knees between my legs. I smiled at him and wanted to just get up and hug him again. His adoring smile back at me was accompanied by tears, which began to roll down his face.
"I'm sorry, Care. You probably think I'm some sort of wuss or wimp. This moment is so emotional to me. This is almost 10 years of dreaming and imagining if this would ever happen. I was always so afraid I would lose you and I would never have made proper love to you." Bill said through his tears.
"Bill, Oh Billy baby, you could never lose me, and you never could have. It was always you and I never wanted to even think about anyone else. Show me how much you love me." I said coaxing him on.
My legs were still spread as Bill knelt up between them. Holding himself up with one arm he used his other hand to place his penis between the splayed lips of my pussy. He was going to come into me. Once I knew I wasn't a phyical virgin, I had used the Great White Wonder dildo on myself, or with Bill doing me with it. In itself it was 7 or 8 inches long, but I don't think I ever had more that 3 or 4 inches in me. When I looked down at Bills seeming huge penis before he put it into me, it suddenly occurred to me how big he was.
"Be gentle, you look awfully big." I cautioned Bill.
In reality, he was probably 8 or 9 inches erect, or so it seemed. When I first bought the toys, as an experiment to bring into our lovemaking, I did measure them, and the White Wonder was over 7 and less than eight. I always thought Bill was bigger.
I felt Bill slide down over my clit and he nudged forward a bit into the opening of my vagina. I drew a deep breath as he began to me open. Emotion tears formed at the corners of my eyes to match Bills, as we silently read each other's excitement. Slowly he pushed into me. He was definitely bigger than anything I ever had in there, and the sensation that it and he created was much heavier than anything going in there. He had pushed into my anal canal from this same position, but this felt altogether different. I raised my hand to his hip to prevent him from going too deep, and as soon as I did that he pulled from me a bit and then rocked to re-insert to at least as deep as he had been. He did this over and again a few more times and I realized: HE WAS FUCKING ME!!
I looked up from where we were joined to look at my Bills face. He was smiling and crying at the same time.
"I'm really inside you and it's wonderful. I really am part of you. God, I love you." He exclaimed.
I was especially shocked that I didn't or feel stretched out. I really expected to be in some pain, but he was right, it was wonderful!!
The realization he was making love to me was shadowed by the beginnings of my first orgasm. The feeling was familiar, but it was beginning in a new place.
"Oh, fuck me, baby, fuck me!" I surprised myself by saying, but it felt so good. I began to pop off little orgasms with his rhythmic pumping at me. My breath would catch with each one and I was smiling at Bill as he gave me adoring looks back.
Suddenly he stopped and gathered my legs up and hung my knees over his shoulder. He had almost done this once or twice when he was doing me anally before, but never really accomplished it. This time he was. I was bent up with my legs over his shoulders and I felt him rise up. He pressed his penis as far and as deep as I could take it.
"Whoaaaaaah", I expelled as I felt him deeper and in a place nothing had ever been. Without a chance to protest or get used to him so far into me, he began to piston in and out.
I was without breath as I felt him all the way into me and the shaft of his penis was right on my g-spot in a way I had never felt it before.
"Gnnnnt, gnnnnnt, gnnnnnt", I moaned as my orgasms doubled and tripled as they popped up on me. Then just one big grinder took over and I looked at Bill in a panic trying to get my breath and push the orgasm down the chute.
"Cum baby, cum." He said breathlessly. "Catch your breath and for me." He said as he pounded me.
I told myself I wouldn't pass out and I forced a big lungful of air into me, catching my breath. I got into a cadence and two hard breaths and then grinding an orgasm down the chute. Somewhere along the line here I realized I was squirting and we were both pretty wet down there. But, I was finally in control with my cumming and keeping from passing out, forcing air into my lungs.
"All the while I was loving being screwed hard and having multiple orgasms, Bill was crying out, cheering me on.
"Squeeze me, on that cock, for me baby! I love you!" He carried on and on.
I was in a delirium as he pounded me hard and deep in this position. He was right on my g-spot and the position was squeezing him hard and making me feel every pulsing inch. I finally could take no more without a respite and I pushed down hard with my knees to break his stride.
He stopped his assault on my and sat back on his haunches and let my, near paralyzed legs fall from his shoulders. He grinned as our eyes locked on each other.
"Oooooooooo, Ooooooooooo, Arghhhhhhh," I emoted as I felt my eyes roll back into my head.
Everything on my body felt so good as the aftershock of my orgasms rippled through my body. But, Oh how my legs ached.
"My legs, my legs Bill. Let me move them." I said as I tried to push him from me.
His cock popped from me leaving a huge void as I turned on my side and stretched out my aching legs. I felt blood rushing to them, soothing the ache. But, Bill had an ache to relieve himself. While on my side I must have provided him an open view of my because he crawled right up and snaked his cock back into me. My void was full again and I was full of cock. Bill wrapped his arms around my prone body and whispered in my ear.
"I never want to be away from you, I want to be inside of you forever. God, I love you. Are you OK, baby?" he asked.
"Gnnnnnnt! I answered to his thrust into me. "Fuck me more and more Billy. Make that cock in me. Fuck me till I can't walk." I said pushing my ass in the air so he could get at me easier.
He pushed at me a few more times and then I felt him shove all the way into me and he sort of crab-walked his one leg over me as he pulled me up into a kneeling position. I realized he was near standing behind me while I was in a doggie position as he hovered over me. He settled his knees on either side of mine and picked up a rhythm of plowing me as I vocalized my delight.
"Eeee, Ooooo, fuck-fuck-fuck," I squealed feeling his cock hit new spots within me, but I couldn't hold myself up any longer. I dropped my arms in front of me and arched my back so I could rest my face on the bed.
He stopped his fucking for a second and drew up his knee from beside me and I felt him try to settle it between my legs. I took the hint and opened my knees on the bed as he knelt between them with his cock stuffed in me. Bill began to fuck me slow while running his hands over my back, occasionally leaning up to cup and squeeze my breasts.
"Mmmmmmmmmmmmm you feel so nice baby, but I've got to cum. Can I fuck you till I in you Carree? Do you want my cum?" he asked.
"Cum baby, cum. Fill me up with it." I answered as I pushed back at him.
He needed no more prodding. I hadn't realized how much deeper he could get into me from this position until he near pushed the breath from me.
"Ohhh, Ohhh, Ohhh," I chanted as he hit bottom over and over again as he began to screw the daylights out of me again.
I heard the slap of his groin against my ass as I pushed back to meet his thrusts. It felt so good to have his cock head kissing the very bottom of womanhood. One of his hands that were gripping my ass slid over and I felt a thumb snake up my butt-hole and I went over the top.
"Nnnn, Nnnn, Arghh," I grunted as I felt full from both ends and orgasm sweep over me simultaneously. He kept the double stroking for a moment or two and then the thumb left me.
"Oh baby! I gonna cum, gonna cum. Here it comes Carree!! Gonna cum!!" Bill suddenly shouted.
I felt the plum of his penis within me swell like a fist opening to a hand inside of me. I was cumming at the same time.
"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh, Arghhhh, Ohhhhhhhhhh, Hnt, Hnt, Hnt." He grunted as he pounded me ever harder pushing his cum into me.
I felt the whole situation get real squishy as I became super lubed by his load as he double speed fucked me. Finally he could take no more as I began to squeeze back with my muscles. He fell back onto his knees and crashed on his side on the bed behind me. I fell exhausted forward and to my left side. I felt his cum running from me as I drifted away.
I became aware of a terrible urge to and heard the sea crashing much closer than it had before. I was sore and could barely move, but I really had to go. I opened my eyes and scanned the room for the clock. 3:35, the numerals lit. It was after 10:30 when our fuck session began, I remember seeing the bathroom clock as we got out of the shower.
I pulled myself to the edge of the bed and got to my feet. Lord, my legs were sore, and as I began to stride and pad towards the john something else was sore, my little pussy! But it felt good too.
I parked my nude little butt on the and let my stream loose. All the while I was I felt more cum running out of me. Bill must have a gallon. If I had a fertile egg within me, there was no doubt that Bill creamed it. If that were the case I would love that baby, created by the love we shared tonight, with every molecule of my body and soul. The fact that this maternal feeling swept over me had me convinced I was pregnant.
My was finally drained of Bills cum, it seemed, and relieved of the pressure from my bladder. My thighs ached as I got to my feet and returned to the bed. Bill was breathing heavy and almost snoring in a fetal position. If I could have gotten to it without moving him, I wanted to kiss his penis, but he was almost on his stomach. It would have to wait. The room had gotten cool and I found the spread and pulled it over Bill to keep him warm. I curled beside him and fell asleep almost immediately. Just as I drifted off, I felt Bills arm drape over me, and then another stream of escaped my and ran over my thigh. I snuggled back to him and we fell asleep together in each other's arms. I was glad that he was aware that I had tended to him. I wanted to do so forever.
I was dreaming of Bill and I together with a car full of kids trying to beat the school bell when I shook awake and realized it was the telephone ringing and ringing. I looked up and saw the phone and kicked it with my foot.
"BE RIGHT THERE," I shouted, hoping the caller could hear me as I got my bearings. I sat up and rolled to my side and reached to the floor for the receiver.
"I'm sorry - Hello?" I squeaked into the phone.
"Wow, still in bed? You're taking the expression "working vacation" too seriously." The voice of Miranda Ponds exclaimed.
"Oh, Miranda, it's you. Sorry, I couldn't get to the phone. I was just getting my messages at the same time and . . ." I began.
"Carree, It's OK if you were still in bed, I'm not keeping tabs on you. I don't care what you do as long as the client is happy in the end and I'm sure you will do a great job. I just wanted to touch base on a few things. Did you get with that Garry Allan fellow? I spoke with one of the principles of Seaside last night and he wanted to make sure you got with him. He said he was full of great Maine ideas and could be invaluable to us. But, I have to warn you; I think this guy is just a local who thinks of us all as "flatlanders". Miranda explained.
"You have it right on the bean, Miranda. I met with him yesterday and he made sure that we saw the homespun nature of people here. Told us what they like and don't like and how he would have taken the job himself if he weren't so busy. Never mind that they don't need to sell this to the locals. He was just a blowhard, but I was real congenial and thankful to him. I sensed what you wanted there, and everyone will be happy." I said.
"I thought you would see through him. These people are just paranoid about the money they're spending, and believe me we gave than a great price. It's experimental for us too. Glad that's going OK. Listen I have 2 seats reserved for you on the junket to St Thomas. Is Bill going to be able to go? You can tell him that it's only about 50 percent business and he can have a great time. I would love him to feel like part of our here. I can't tell how excited we are to have you starting here next month. Plus I can tell you that the Arens feels like you have made a big commitment to us by taking the house." Miranda went on.
"Well, wait." I said, "We haven't said we would buy the house yet, only live there for a year or two."
"Oh, I know," Miranda said, "But I can just about guarantee that you'll buy it after you live in that neighborhood. I think if you don't decide to buy it, I might, just as speculation. You'll see what a value they are offering you and what a great place and neighborhood it is. But this is all stuff we can talk about later; I'm way ahead of myself. I'm so happy to have an executive assistant, and I'm overjoyed it's you. I'll let you go and get back to me on the junket seats. If Bill isn't going I can maybe fill that seat. Have fun and stay out of trouble up there. Ok? Bye- Bye." She said as she hung up.
Whoa! I had to filter out everything that happened in the last 12 hours and make decisions about the trip to St Thomas and the house, when all I wanted to do was cuddle up to my man, and that's what I did.
He was just stirring barely aware of the phone ringing and my conversation with Miranda.
He pulled me close to him, where we were face to face.
"Hello, I have to warn you that I love you so much more this morning than last night it's almost scary." He chuckled. "That was the most incredible single event of my life Carree. Will you marry me right now? I want to make love to you forever, everyday, starting now."
The smile on my face was so big that it almost hurt.
"Hee Hee," I giggled. "Me too!! I was just on the phone with Miranda and all the time all I could think about was holding you. I almost hung up on her."
"Wow, we are some kind of lovers, aren't we? Knowing each other so well made last night just the ultimate." Bill said hugging me even closer as I began to giggle and laugh like a schoolgirl.
Bill joined in the laughing and he hugged and rolled over to me hugging, giggling and laughing. At one point He ended up on top of me, his hard cock was right at the entrance of my vagina. We used to pull away from each other at times like this, but he pushed right into me.
"Ooofff, you slid in, lover. You feel so good in me." I squeaked into his ear.
We just lay there enjoined, kissing and rolling around a bit. I wanted him again, right now.
"Fuck me lover. Hold me like this and fuck me while I look in your eyes." I said.
We were wrapped into each other as he began to hump into me. He felt so good just sliding, humping into me. It wasn't a long stroked rousing screw like last night, it was making love face to face. I felt myself beginning to as I gripped Bill even tighter. I caught my breath and felt the next orgasm coming onto me when Bill hastened his push at me.
"I'm gonna again baby, I'm ready, almost." Bill puffed in hard breaths.
"Give it to me again Billy, in me." I whispered as I came again. The words no sooner left my lips when I felt him shoot into me again. We were lovers of the highest degree, for sure.
Bill collapsed on me and hugged his face to my neck. He nibbled at my ear as I felt him shrinking within me.
"Oh, baby. You are so awesome. I know we can't do this all the time, but feeling you in me is just beyond words." I said. He popped out of me and I let him go and he rolled off. I looked over at Bill and knew that I never adored him more than I did this second. He had made love to me twice in the past few hours like he had never done before, like I never had before. Our long and adventurous love and sex life was always missing basic lovemaking. Last night he brought me to heights and places I never thought possible as he used the prowess he learned from his own fantasies to turn me into a gushing font of love and adoration, and possibly even a mother. This morning he simply mounted me in the most common position and made me a delirious woman filled with love and adoration for the I loved. He rocked my world.
We both lay in two separate heaps on the bed, side by side. We were both exhausted from making love to each other. What a feeling. I drifted in and out of sleep and each time I moved a little, I felt leaking out of me. I mustered a little strength and made a push in my to clear myself and stop the ooze, but that only lasted a few minutes.
I felt a mouth attach to my nipple and I opened my eyes. It felt great and I hugged his head to my breast. I was glad he hadn't had enough of me yet, because I wanted to love for hours more.
"Are you sure you're going to be able to douse any fires you're going to start down there?" I asked.
"I just saw this beautiful tit in my face and I could not resist it." Bill said as he lifted himself away from my and kissed my face all over before settling on my lips.
"Umm, you didn't give me an answer to my proposal." He said between kisses.
"What proposal?" I asked.
"To get right now, right here, so we could make love like this forever." He responded.
"You know I would marry you this very second, Bill Wilson. You also know we can't make love like this everyday, but you also know the love we always make is beautiful. The memory of this and the promise of more will make our love burn forever." I promised.
"Oh, I know that, I just want to every little chance to prove you are mine, and I am yours." He responded.
"There should be no doubt in your mind", I said.
"Oh, there is no doubt, no doubt at all. I just want to call you my wife." Bill said.
"Maybe you can call me the of your children after last night. Would that be proof enough?" I said with a serious tone. "I had this feeling while I lay in bed afterward, that there was a change inside of me. I know I'm probably being silly. But, you know what? If it were true, I wouldn't care. We would have the proof of our love as a beautiful baby. Wouldn't that be something?" I asked excitedly.
"That would be incredible Carree." He said as he showered my face with kisses again.
"If I'm not pregnant, and you know I'm probably not, lets move it up a year." I suggested.
"Next summer? Really? I'm all for that. We kind of told our 2 years, but for next summer they have all the time in the world to plan, and so do we. After last night I don't want to wait another minute. Carree, I'm really serious when I say that I love you more than ever this morning." Bill admitted.
"I know. I feel the same way Billy." I said as I climbed back onto him. "Don't get any ideas down there, we really have to get going this morning." I said as I put my hand over my so nothing could slip in. "C'mon, lets jump in the shower. We have to scrub each other up good this morning."
"This bed is a mess." I said to Bill. "There's everywhere. I leaked every place I moved. I imagine the maids will love me today."
"The maids will be jealous, for sure, Care." Bill said matter of factly, and he was probably right.
We dragged our bodies into the shower and made a deal to wash our hair first, and then we could wash each other's bodies and get out together. This all worked out well until I was finishing Bill up. It seemed I spent a little too much time washing him. I looked up from my scrubbing and asked him, "Did I scrub him too much? He doesn't want to go down. Last night when I got up to I wanted to give it a kiss before I went to sleep, but you were on your stomach. Now, that kiss I owe you has interest applied."
"Will you be this insatiable when we get married?" Bill asked. "More so." I answered as I dropped to my knees.
I really loved the feel of his cock in my mouth and the power it gave me, and the love I could show him by doing it. Of course, he loved it as well. As much as I hate the term, I finished my little and we got going for the day. We spent the remainder of our vacation touring the seaside of Southern Maine during the day, and making love every night. The next 2 nights we used condoms for our new lovemaking, with Bill pulling out before he came. We finished each other with our mouths each time with a sixty-nine. Then when we were fairly sure that vaginal sex was unsafe, we loved each other in every way possible the rest of the week. On our last night there we made all the preparations for butt-sex, and before he lubed himself and removed the Little Blue Devil, he sheathed on a condom and plowed my for a few minutes, catching me by surprise. As fantastic as that felt, I had to scold him later, a lot later (I admit), for breaking the rules. But, I have to come clean. Having him in both places on the same night was an experience I will not forget soon, as well as being filled in both places at once.
The ocean air made us insatiable and we took every chance to take advantage of it.
It wasn't until the ride home that I realized I hadn't spoken to Bill about going to St Thomas on Arens and Ponds junket. It would mean him having to take a few days off from his new job, after only working a few days. The thought of more ocean air to fill our lungs and fuel our sexuality excited him though. He began work tomorrow in New York City, the ninth of June. He would commute by train that week and then we, along with our Dads, would pack his car and a rental truck, and we would move to Baltimore on Saturday. Sunday Morning they could return the rental truck and both our Dads would take Bills car back home. We figured we didn't need a car for a while and it saved train or plane fare back for our Dads. Bill could then begin his commute from Baltimore to New York for the week of the sixteenth while I set up the house and began a little orientation into Arens and Ponds again. The office closed Monday and Tuesday and we all flew to St Thomas on Wednesday and had meetings and leisure time until July second when the junket came back. With the Fourth being a Friday, we all had 4 days to decompress before going to work on the seventh. (Even though Miranda told me to be in town for the weekend.) The office being closed for 13 days, with only answering and message services to relay problems to the Caribbean meant there would be lots of catching up and client fixing.
It all sounded so hectic that Bill wanted to pass at first, but Scott Wilkens, Bills immediate boss at Time, reminded him that he had 42 hours of comp time he couldn't carry over after a year, and he should use it if he wanted to over the July Fourth Holiday. (It was from his emergency trip as a field assistant where he was credited 24/7 pay, but only saw 12 hours per day real pay) He really wanted Bill to use it up now, and not lose it. If Scott could give him 6 more hours of comp or LWOP he could make the whole junket with me, or leave on Sunday and pay his own way home. Luckily, Mr. Wilkens remembered the favor he kind of owed me for forgetting to call me when Bill disappeared last summer to go on the field trip. He told Bill that an intern wanted the Saturday off. If Bill could work it for him, Scott would add it to his comp time and he could take it. This meant Bill would have to meet us in Baltimore on Saturday night, but between my 2 Dads, I thought we could manage to pack. Bill was going to be able to spend 8 days in the Caribbean with me! If my body didn't let me down, I would get my period the day before we left and I would finish Saturday or Sunday, leaving a big green light for Bill and I. Everything was going our way.
Look at me prattling on about minor details. Please understand this is one of the most precious times of our life together and holding on to every detail makes me feel I can live it over and over again. William was my love and I will never forget a detail for the time we spent together, which seems like the whole of my life. From the time I drew my first breath in this world until this moment, I spent part of each day of a full half of my life, 14 years, thinking about, being with, or talking to Billy, Bill, William Wilson. As he promised when we got home from that wonderful trip to Maine we recalculated our Wedding day and moved it up one year. We would be wed Saturday, June 27, 1998.
Look for CARREE'S WEDDING DAY later this year or early next. I want to thank all of you who have written. Many of you have made the healing period since William's death so much easier to get through. Your understanding and kind words make my day sometimes. I've carried on my working life and am doing well. The hit the travel industry took from the 9/11 tragedies only prolonged my hiatus from work, but that all seems to be behind us, business-wise. As a nation, the recovery is much longer. I've heard from some 9/11 victims who had their loves ripped from them even more cruelly than my situation, and we try to comfort each other. Their reminders are endless though, because of the media.
I have chosen a few pen pals from the many who have written, and when I need an anonymous person to cry to, I have them. They too, have confided in me, making me feel like I have something to offer to someone from my life's experience. It has been 20 months since I lost the love of my life. For the past few months I have had a special friend, the person from my I call "Russell". He has been a pillar of support for me and I am afraid I have used him taking advantage of his kindness and affection for me. However, in getting through this part of our I feel I can finally open up to him so we can become lovers, so I can begin life anew, William would have wanted it that way, I am sure. I want to finish all 10 of the as William outlined for himself, but they have gotten hard to do when trying to start a new life with a new love. I will finish the of our Wedding and include the details of our Honeymoon and last cruise together. But, I'm afraid that may be it. To lead a double life on the Internet, by keeping these from Russell, is not fair to him or our relationship.
If he were to read them, he might see a woman he does not know. In my I say often how pretty or beautiful I am, and while it may be true, I am not the type of person to flaunt or brag of that, in real life. I am shy, quiet and unassuming. If any of my friends, or even Russell, knew of my walking, without a stitch, on the nude beaches of the world that my job brings me to, they would be shocked and amazed. My friends still think of me as "Carree Virgin Mary". When William pointed out to me that stare at me walking by them, I was mortified. I was that na‹ve of my looks and body, and how they affected men. William ONLY knew the insatiable sexual being, the multi-orgasmic nymph that I am. I flaunt and brag in my for erotic effect to make sure the reader knows the real me inside the bedroom, behind the closed door. I am a 28-year-old widow with a broken heart that will never mend, but I have finally learned to let someone else in.
CARREE
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