WARNING: This includes sexually explicit material.
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IOU
Chapter 5
Ellie was feeling very pleased with herself as she ate breakfast. She
had more than fulfilled her part of the IOU and had enjoyed herself in
the bargain. She just hoped Carl was feeling equally satisfied.
Hoping for some appreciative comments, she could not help asking, "Was
last night what you were hoping for?"
To her surprise he seemed hesitant about answering her. In seconds her
pleasure turned to insecurity. "Didn't you have a good time? Is there
something else you fantasised about doing? You can tell me. We could
do whatever it is now, if you want."
"Calm down, Ellie," Carl told her reassuringly, "you were wonderful
last night. I can't think of a better way for anyone to lose his
virginity."
"But... Come on Carl, I could hear the 'but' in your voice."
"Look... This is a bit embarrassing for me..."
"You used to tell me all your embarrassing secrets when you were
younger. What can't you tell me now?"
"This involves you though. I don't want you to feel you have to live
up to my stupid expectations."
"Carl, at the moment you are making me feel very insecure. I would
much rather you told me what you wanted to happen last night instead of
me torturing myself trying to guess how I let you down."
"You see, Ellie?" Carl groaned. "You're already blaming yourself."
"So why don't you just tell me?" Ellie retorted in exasperation.
"You have to understand that I've been dreaming and planning for nearly
four years about the day I could ask you to pay that IOU. I learnt to
cook all your favourite things. I sneaked a look at Beth's magazines
whenever I got a chance to try to find out what women want from a
lover. I even joined a gym so you wouldn't be disappointed with my
body. I wanted everything to be perfect so that just maybe you would
forget how I was and just see me as a person, not Beth's little
brother. Then maybe, just maybe you would fall in love with me. I
know it was stupid. I didn't just want to have great sex, I could
probably have got that anywhere. I wanted to hold you and make love to
you and wake up next to you. And even if you never speak to me again,
at least for one night I loved you and held you close."
Ellie gazed at him in stupefaction, unsure just what to say in reply.
Taking courage from her silence, Carl continued. "You asked what I
fantasised about. I don't have normal fantasies about rolling around
naked with you. Actually that's not true, I do. But my favourite and
most frequent fantasy is nothing like that. It's ten years time and
I'm coming home from work. I walk in and you're in the sitting room
with the kids. I give you a kiss change the baby's nappy while you
tell me about your day and I tell you about mine. We go into the
kitchen and make dinner together while the kids do their homework.
Then after tea you finish writing an article while I bathe the kids and
put them to bed. Then we sit on the sofa and watch TV, just the two of
us. Then we go to bed and we make love before we fall asleep with our
arms around each other. That's what I fantasise about."
"I don't know what to say, Carl," Ellie stammered, feeling overwhelmed.
"You don't have to say anything. I know you don't feel the same way
about me as I do about you."
"How long have you felt like this? I know you had a bit of a crush on
me a few years ago but I wasn't aware of anything as intense as this,"
Ellie observed gently.
"For as long as I can remember I've loved you," Carl said simply. "I
tried not to be too obvious because I didn't want people laughing at me
and I knew I was too for you to take me seriously."
"But why me?" Ellie asked in bewilderment.
"Because you're a very special person, Ellie. You hide behind your
blonde bombshell image but I remember the who used to kiss me
better when I myself and sing me to sleep at night. My
are great but I was just one of four and I sometimes got lost in
the crowd. But you always saw us as individuals and you made me feel
special. Then as I got I began to understand you more and more.
The way your brought you up has made you so appreciative of any
affection anyone gave you and I wanted to give you all my love. Then
you became so beautiful and I thought I would never get a chance. But
so far you always seem to pick boyfriends who treat you just as badly
as your parents. So I thought I'd give it a try. You need me, Ellie.
You don't have to bend over backwards trying to make me like you. I
love you just the way you are."
Ellie couldn't think of anything to say. On one hand Carl was saying
the kind of things she had dreamed of a saying to her. But on the
other hand he was Beth's little brother. Her mind was a whirl of
conflicting thoughts and she had no idea how to even begin respond to
Carl's declaration.
"There's nothing wrong with the way my brought me up, thank you
very much," Ellie declared at last, taking refuge in indignation.
"Nor, if it comes to it, has there ever been anything wrong with my
boyfriends."
"Of course Ellie. All virtually ignore their child's
existence. The only thing they ever show any pride in about you is
your beauty. They don't know enough about you to appreciate anything
else. You try desperately to make up for being born as if it was your
fault. You've never stood up to your once in your whole life.
Instead you go along with every demand they make. And you behave
exactly the same with every boyfriend you've had. You deserve so much
more and I know if I ever had the chance to be your boyfriend I'd never treat you like that." Ellie glared at him, trying to think of some way
to refute his statements. To her confusion he suddenly gave a short
laugh.
"It's okay, Ellie," he said. "I don't expect you to fall on my neck
and declare undying love. It's just this was probably my one and only
chance and I would never have forgiven myself if I hadn't told you how
I felt. Just forget what I said and lets talk about something else.
How did you interview go?"
"My interview?" Ellie asked dazedly.
"Your job interview at the local place."
"Oh, that... It was good. They offered me a job."
"That's fantastic. So are you going to be a researcher or something."
"No, They offered me an on-camera job presenting the weather report."
"The weather report," Carl echoed. "But you know nothing about
meteorology. I thought you wanted to be a journalist."
"Well, they didn't think I had what they were looking for to be a
serious news reporter. This could be a great opportunity," Ellie
pointed out defensively. "My was very impressed. After all...
look at people like Ulrika Johnston. She started off as a weather
and look how far she's gone."
"It's not what you want to do, though. You don't want to spend the
rest of your life playing a dumb blonde."
"I am a dumb blonde, so I don't have much choice, do I?" Ellie
retorted.
"Don't be silly, of course you're not. You just hide behind that image
because it's one a lot of people find easy to accept. You're not
naturally and you're not naturally dumb, either. You should
stop trying to be what other people want you to be and just be yourself
for a change."
"Oh, sure! After all, it's that easy," Ellie said sarcastically.
"I'll just stop streaking my hair and suddenly people will be falling
over themselves offering me jobs and my will realise I'm
exactly the they always wanted."
"You know I don't mean that. But I bet you went to that interview in
high heels and a short skirt." Ellie glared at him and didn't answer
his challenge, as he was correct. "You say you want to be a journalist
but you haven't tried to do anything about it."
"Like what, Einstein?"
"I don't know. You could try writing an article and taking it around
the local papers. At least then you would be judged on your ability,
not your appearance."
"Okay, what should I write about."
"You're the journalist, not me. Write about something that really
annoys you. That way you'll get some passion into it."
"This has been a very strange breakfast," Ellie observed. "You've gone
from declaring undying love to criticising my appearance to giving me
career advice. Somehow I wasn't expecting anything like this when I
arrived last night."
"I'm sorry," Carl said contritely. "I care about you so much and I
just want to help you in any way I can."
"Well I'm going to go home and think about what you said. I guess I'll
see you around. Thanks for breakfast."
"No. Thank you, Ellie, for not being furious with me."
"Who says I'm not? I might just hide it well," Ellie suggested
lightly.
"You forget... I know you."
"I think I'll be going before you start all that again. Bye."
Ellie had a lot to ponder over as she drove home. Eventually she
decided to try to forget Carl's declaration of love. At the same time
it gave her a warm feeling to know that he cared about her so much and
it somehow gave her confidence as well. She decided to take his
suggestion about writing an article and act on it. After all she had
nothing to lose. It would also help to distract her mind from thinking
about Carl. All she had to do was to find some local topic of interest
that was unlikely to be already covered. Accordingly she was unusually
observant as she drove down the high street. It was looking very smart
after all the money spent on it by the Middleton Restoration Committee.
It was marred, however, by the litter being blown about by the wind.
Ellie had heard several complaints about the litter problem recently so
she decided she had found the subject for her article. It wasn't the
most glamorous subject ever but then local papers rarely dealt with
glamorous subjects. She thought it would be sensible to start with
something modest.
She changed out of her black dress into jeans and T-shirt and decided
to get started. She found a small Dictaphone and a notepad and pen.
She spent the morning prowling the high street getting comments from
shoppers and shopkeepers. She seemed to have struck a nerve, as most
people were very indignant about the amount of litter. She made a
rough draft of her article and was feeling very pleased with herself by
the end of the day. She had only thought about Carl half a dozen times
and she hadn't thought about her boyfriend Tim once. If nothing
else had been achieved Carl had certainly helped her to get over Tim.
She was in the kitchen making herself a cup of camomile tea before
going to bed when her entered.
"Whatever are you doing here, Elizabeth?" he asked in surprise.
"Aren't you normally out partying on a Saturday night?"
"I'm having a night in for a change." Ellie explained meekly. For a
moment she was tempted to tell him what she had been doing all day but
somehow she knew he would not be very impressed. Still, she could
sound him out on the topic. "I was on the high street today and
someone was complaining about the litter problem. I was wondering if
the council had any plans to do anything about it."
"There's always someone complaining about something. The council
doesn't have time to deal with every petty complaint, you know," he
told her severely. "Why only last year the M.R.C. spent a small
fortune putting litter bins all along the high street. What's more
they're emptied every day, which is more than most towns do. But still
people whine. No gratitude nowadays."
Ellie listened to him in puzzlement. There were definitely no litter
bins on the high street. However she also knew that her had an
excellent memory and rarely made a mistake.
"Exactly when were the bins put in?" she asked casually.
"Oh it was last spring, beginning of April, I think. If you're so
interested you can look it up in the minutes of the meetings."
"Do you have them here?" Ellie asked eagerly. Her gazed at her
in surprise.
"Well yes. Do you really want to have a look? You've never shown much
interest in the M.R.C. before."
"I was just curious. There's nothing on so I thought it might be
interesting." Ellie said innocently.
"Well it's up to you. I'll show you where they are. Don't get them
out of order, will you, Elizabeth. They are important papers, not
playthings."
"I'll be careful, I promise." It took Ellie a while to find the
relevant meeting but she persevered. Her father's memory had been
correct as usual. She carefully photocopied the pages, then she looked
up the firm which had been awarded the contract in the phone book. She
was pleased to see that they were advertised as being open on a Sunday.
Feeling excited she retired to bed to plot her strategy.
Copyright 1998 Vickie Morgan
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