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It's been a long time since I talked to you, but a
lot is on my mind. School has started and I am still
a virgin - technically anyway. I must be one of the
last virgins at our school. Judy, my best friend, did
it this summer at computer camp with one of the other
counselors. The way she described every little detail
I knew it had to be true, leaving me the last
remaining virgin I know.
My basic problem is that I'm too shy and too much
of a bookworm. I don't get out much because my
parents are so strict. Every time a guy starts to
flirt with me I freeze up, giggle and turn red. I'm
not ugly or anything - my says I'm pretty - and I
think I have a decent body. Judy says that if she had
my looks and body she'd get laid (she uses the "f"
word) every night, and I'm sure she would.
Oh Diary, what am I going to do? Even though I'm
still a virgin I must be oversexed. I think about sex
all the time. Of course, Judy doesn't help. I still
remember that day I stopped by her house and she held
up two big plastic penises. Judy told me it was time
to lose our virginity, and then turned on this really
nasty videotape. I sat there absolutely mesmerized.
I knew a little about sex, but nothing like what I
saw. At first I was shocked. I told Judy it was
gross and thought about leaving. Something stronger
held me there and kept my eyes glued to the screen. I
watched do things I didn't even know were
possible, to one or more and to each other.
I had never seen a man's penis, much less a hard
one. I started to get this terrible tingling between
the legs and wanted to touch myself badly. I resisted
as long as I could even though I noticed Judy had her
hand in her jeans, which somehow turned me on even
more. Suddenly my head started to spin and my body
started trembling. I grabbed the couch and thrust my
hips forward as ripples of pleasure surged through me.
I was gushing juices like crazy and could feel my
panties getting soaked.
When it was over I was really embarrassed. Judy
said she had never seen anyone have an orgasm without
any touching. Then she stripped off her jeans and
told me she would demonstrate how to use our little
"friend". Hers was blue plastic and about eight or
nine inches long. She invited me to join her but I
was still too embarrassed. I didn't leave either
because I wanted to watch more of the movie. I kept
sneaking glances at Judy who had propped her legs up
on the couch and was rubbing the blue thing across her
mound. I had never seen her naked and noticed how
and hairy she was down there compared to me. She
lifted her butt off the couch and I could see the blue
thing go inside her. She only had a little bit in her
and was moving it all around while she rotated herself
against it. It was really hot, and between watching
Judy and the I could feel another tingling
building between my legs.
Judy was getting close to an explosion herself.
That's when she grabbed the blue monster (we named it
that) with both hands, pulling it out and shoving it
in very hard. She let out a squeal and more of it
disappeared inside her. She slid down on the couch
and kept slamming it in and out until her face
scrunched up and she screamed out as if in pain. Her
body thrashed about as she kept slamming the blue
monster deeper and deeper into her belly. She finally
collapsed and slumped lifeless onto the couch.
I needed to touch myself desperately or I was going
to die. I picked up my little friend (which was also
nine inches but red) and slipped it inside the leg of
my loose fitting shorts. When I pressed it against my
panties, I hit my sensitive spot sending jolts through
me up to my head. On the there was a
bouncing up and down on this guy's huge penis. The
camera focused in on her butt. I could see him slide
in and out of her as she lifted up and slammed down
over and over.
I wanted to be her so badly. I leaned forward,
lifted my butt off the couch, pulled my to the
side and slipped "Big Red", as we named it later, into
my opening. Holding it firmly underneath me, I
pressed down against it. It slid into me until it hit
some resistance. I lifted up and slammed down,
squealing as I felt a little pinch. Then it slid deep
inside me. I continued bouncing up and down on it
while watching the on the do the same.
When the guy doing her pulled out and shot his stuff
all over her butt, I exploded like never before. I was
gasping for air as I kept gushing over and over,
unable to stop slamming myself onto Big Red. I don't
know how long it went on, but when I finished my
shorts were a mess and I was exhausted.
Judy congratulated me on losing my cherry, but we
agreed that we were still virgins until we had a real
penis inside. Judy had several videos, so I took one
home and spent hours with Big pleasuring myself
over and over. It became an obsession, and I would
often do it as many as six or seven times a day. Just
last week I worked up the nerve to put Big up my
other after watching so many of the on the
tape do it that way. I had done it with my finger in
the bathtub, and even done both holes at the same
time, but Big was so much bigger. It was
uncomfortable at first, but now I get off just as easy
that way. I wish I had a for Big so I
could do front and back at the same time like the
girls in the video.
It's been a week since school started and so much
has happened. There is this new guy, Shane, who is a
real hunk. He is in two of my classes. On several
occasions our eyes met. He even said "Hi" to me a few
times. I get all wet between the legs when I'm around
him, and every time I use Big Red, which is all the
time, I pretend it's Shane in me. Sometimes I even
bring Big to school so I can get off in the
bathroom between classes. I know, Diary, I'm
shameless. Well, that's not really true because if it
was I'd just walk up to him and tell him what I
wanted. I'm just oversexed but shy.
Judy also had an interesting week, at least
according to her version of events. She discovered it
was a lot easier to get screwed if she lowered her
standards. She got a ride home with Chet, a big
chunky kid, after a chess club meeting. They started
talking about all the popular couples at school and
speculating as to whether they were "doing it". Judy
told him that you didn't have to be popular to get
laid (she used the "f" word being the trash mouth that
she is) and then blurted out that she lost her
virginity that summer. I would have been so
embarrassed, but not Judy.
He defended his manhood and quickly disclaimed his
virginity. Judy dared him to prove it. They climbed
in the back seat and she quickly unzipped him. She
used her hand to make him hard then told him to put on
a condom. She slipped off her jeans and panties,
swung her leg over Chet, placed his penis at her
opening and lowered herself onto him. She told me he
only lasted thirty-second before he grunted and
emptied himself into his condom. Since he didn't have
another condom, Judy made him finger her to a less
than satisfying orgasm.
Judy was really horny. When they stopped to get a
soda she saw Freddy, a tall skinny kid with zits. She
ditched Chet and asked Freddy to take her for a ride.
She asked him to pull behind a deserted building and
coaxed him into the back seat. They started kissing.
Judy rubbed her hand over his hardness, then slipped
her jeans down to her knees. She guided his hand into
her panties, moving his fingers up and down her slit
until he got the rhythm. While Freddy was pumping his
fingers in and out of her she unzipped him and
pulled out what she described as a "monster penis",
although she used different words.
Judy pumped her hand up and down his large organ.
She said that she could barely wrap her fingers around
it. He continued to pump his fingers in and out of
her womanhood. She asked him if he had a condom, but
he didn't. Judy decided she didn't care. She pulled
off her jeans, straddled his lap and guided his
"monster" into her steamy opening. She said she had
to bounce up and down on him several times before she
could feel him slide deep inside her. The pressure
was too much for her. She lost control. Her whole
body started shaking as she squealed and screeched
uncontrollably. She said she could feel herself
gushing like never before as he continued to plow
deeper and deeper into her belly.
What she did next really shocked me. She climbed
off him and put his large penis in her mouth. She
said it stretched her lips, but she was eventually
able to get about half of him in her mouth. She tried
to remember how the in the did it.
Apparently she was successful. He only lasted a
minute before shooting his stuff. Judy told me there
was so much of it that it spilled from her lips. Then
she swallowed the rest. It sounded gross, but she
said it tasted okay, and that it was a real turn-on to
feel his stuff squirting in her mouth. Anyway, Judy
invited Freddy over to her place this afternoon. She
has a whole box of condoms and plans to put a big dent
Oh, Diary, I could never be like Judy. I'm too
shy. I'd do it with Shane in a heartbeat, but I don't
think he'll ever ask me out. I guess Big will
have to keep me satisfied, and I have to admit he's
doing a pretty good job. Every morning when I wake
up I take Big out of my bedside stand, rub him
over my nipples and put him in my mouth. I even
learned how to open my throat and most of Big
Red, just like the in the videos. After that I
rub him across my mound and over my slit until I
become wet enough to put him in me. Once Big is
all the way in me I go wild slamming him in and out
while rubbing my little nub with the other hand. It
doesn't take long before I am gushing juice all over
Big Red, my hand and the sheets.
Well, Diary, that's just the beginning of the day.
Sometimes I have enough time to do it again after
breakfast and before I have to leave for school.
Since I almost always wear dresses (my thinks
jeans make me look like a tramp), it's easy to slip my
panties to the side and shove Big in my until
I gush. Of course, this also means I have to go to
school with damp panties.
If I'm not doing anything after school, I usually
rush home and pleasure myself with Big before my
parents get home. It's during these afternoon
sessions that I get really nasty. First I take it
into my mouth, pretending it belongs to Shane. I work
it down my throat. Then I slip a hand between my legs
and start rubbing myself through my panties, again
pretending it's Shane doing it to me. I begin to gush
almost immediately and have to take Big from my
mouth as I gasp for air.
I remove my soaked and strip in front of
the mirror on the back of my door. I love looking at
my body and watching while I touch myself. I slip Big
Red between my legs and start kissing myself. Well,
Diary, that's when I get really nasty and start
talking dirty just like the in the video. I say
things like "shove your cock up my hot pussy" and
"fuck me like a whore". I yell at him to "fuck me
harder" and "deeper". When I get ready to gush I yell
out "Oh God, I'm cumming. fuck me. fuck me". The
worst part is that I like talking dirty. It makes me
even more excited.
The other thing I really like is watching Big
slide in and out of my (oh, Diary, I hope you
don't mind my using words like this - it'll be our
secret). After doing - fucking - myself standing, I
pull a chair up to the mirror and lift my legs up in
the air. I can see my open wide and glistening
among the soft brown curls surrounding it. I use my
fingers to open it and watch my little nub stand up.
I pull out Big and rub him along my gash and over
my clit until I'm all gooey. Then I watch as Big
spreads my fleshy lips apart and enters my steamy
hole. I shove it in deep and leave it there, swirling
it around inside me. I can feel it deep in my belly
and try to imagine how far inside me it is by looking
at my stomach. Then I start fucking myself, changing
the angle that I use to shove it in me. This time
when I gush I can actually see the juice pouring from
my (God I love saying that) and dripping from Big
Red and my fingers.
Of course, the last time I use Big each day is
when I am in bed and the lights are out. I get on my
stomach and do myself from behind. Then I hold it
under me and bounce up and down on it until I explode.
Sometimes I grease it up with baby oil and fuck my ass
while I finger my clit. Usually I fall asleep right
afterwards, but sometimes I wake up in the middle of
the night and do it again.
So, Diary, that is a typical sex filled day for me.
The only problem is the lack of a man. Will I ever
lose my virginity?
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