| Space, Again
Journal Entry 192 / 00622
Noren, Urim 21, 00622
"Ken!" I heard the shout over the general din of boarding. I turned to
see Kathy running towards me at full tilt. "Hi!"
"Hi yourself, sweetheart. How you been?"
"Fine! What are you doing here?"
"Boarding, what does it look like I'm doing?"
"Boarding? You mean... you're going with us?"
"You didn't know?"
"No! I just go assigned to the Pellaeon Elen just a few weeks ago. I
heard they're going to de-commission the Eldarfaroth."
"Yup, and they're re-commissioning the Pellaeon Elen."
"The Eldarfaroth-class Pellaeon Elen."
"Yup. Ian's getting his name in the history books. Oh, by the way,
I have some interesting news."
I nodded. "P'nyssa's coming on."
She looked confused. "You mean, P'nyssa's going with us?" I nodded again.
"Then, that means... you and I can't..."
"We'll see. It'll take some time to work out. But now that we're at
least in the same neighborhood-" she smiled- "we can work things out."
"What about... ?"
"Aaden?" I asked. She nodded. I scowled for a moment and said, "He's not
coming. It was something of an argument between us. He doesn't like space,
but he doesn't know how we'll do away from each other for four years or
so. I'd promise I'd write." She nodded; I could tell from the look on
her face that she sympathized with both of us. How's your new ship?"
"A disaster." Her smile returned wide as she said it.
"The new sickbay is a disaster. Is P'nyssa going to be head of medical? I
haven't had time to check the roster yet. Can you believe, a crew of
nearly three thousand?"
"I can believe it. Some of the arcovessels are that much bigger."
"But those are sea-going vessels, not starships. I can't imagine three
thousand jobs a starship needs done."
"You can't? Parma support nearly twelve thousand."
"Well, I can. But some of them are... well, they cancel each other out."
We walked down one of the many hallways, this one done in blue. "Well,
what's wrong with the sickbay?"
"After the incident at Aknat, starfleet command decided to take White's
Theorem seriously, so we're getting a full lab. The stresses that the
main White's lab has to take are absurd. Forty Gee, a complete bank of
radiators, and the atmospherics! Up to 200 atmospheres, gas or liquid,
plus a complete AV-VR system that'll survive it all!"
"So, does it work?"
"Of course it works. I helped put it together, after all."
I laughed. "It's nice to hear your confidence. I remember you as a new
Captain of Engineering, almost bald at the end of a mission because
you'd been pulling your hair out."
She smiled. "It took a few decades, but yeah, I feel a lot better now."
"Still play?" I asked, putting an odd stress on the second word.
"Still got the key to my heart?"
"Right here," I said, tapping my shirt. We smiled the knowing smile of
the centuries. "It's good to know you're still you."
"Well, I've still changed a lot. But yeah, I need the release now more
than ever. Oh, you didn't answer my question."
I thought about our conversation. "Oh, about Nyss? No, she's going to
be on second shift. She got a commander's rank respective to the head
of Medical. Who is head of Medical, anyway?"
"Dunno. Like I said, haven't checked that part of the roster. All I've
met is the primary bridge crew and my engineering staff."
"What do you make of Captain Argent?" I asked.
"She's big." I laughed. Etta Argent, in my assessment, has to be the most
muscular human female I've ever met. She stands exactly two meters tall,
and standing in front of her is like standing before a brick wall. She's
also a very sweet person. And, in both Josh and Ian's opinions, a damn
fine captain. She'd better be. They had decided to give her the ship of
"Oh," Kathy continued. "A couple of things you might like to know. Karri's
going out with the exo team."
"The one and only. Or is that 'two and only?'"
"It's 'one,' and don't ever make that mistake. She's gone through a lot.
Building her was a mistake I've regretted for a long time."
"From your letters, I thought you liked her."
"I love her, Kathy, she's a sweet person, but what I did was wrong."
"Kathy, Karri isn't like you and me. Beyond Dolphins and AIs and Tindals,
Karri is alien. Most people want to know the name of her 'other' body,
as if the two were separate. They're not. It takes forever to learn
that. You may be talking to her right in front of you, and she may also
be talking halfway across the ship to another person, but you can't afford
to think of that as 'her other half.' It's not. It's her, and that's that.
"But she talks as if there were two of them."
"Yeah, well, that's because its... I dunno. It's hard to explain. It's
like having to consciousness sharing one memory bank. Since we react to
our environment, and since her bodies are genetically similar, there's not
much difference between them. Even though one 'experiences' an event and
the other 'remembers' it, after a few seconds that becomes insignificant.
They both 'remember' what just happened. The other thing is that I didn't
anthropomorphize her. She's just a standard Pamthreat, except that she
has two bodies."
"And can teleport, and is sentient, and is wired for biocybe, and can
talk. I've met her, Ken. She's really a neat person."
What the... You would think, after almost eight centuries, I'd stop
thinking like a Terran. Habits die really hard. "Well, she can only
teleport her bodies together, not apart. I don't see how useful that can
be. I don't know. Maybe I did the right thing. She's only forty-five. I
still feel bad."
"The Mustel's are only thirty. And we've got a few of those on board. I've
got two on my engineering crew."
"Any racial troubles?"
"A few. The usual. There aren't any Mustels in positions of authority
because they haven't been around long enough to earn any. Second trip
out it'll be different. I'm sure Etta can work around it."
I nodded. "She's good. Really good. I hope so."
"Well," she said, "Here we are."
"Where we are?" I asked.
"Your cabin. I assumed that's where you were heading."
"You're right. Let's see what it looks like." I paused for a second,
and whispered to Kathy, "Before I make an ass of myself, what is the
ship's AI's name?"
"Liffip?" I said aloud.
"Good afternoon, Dr. Shardik. Can I help you?"
"You could unlock the door to my cabin, please."
"Done." The door slid open smoothly, and inside was a large apartment. The
waterbed, I'd say Imperial-sized, sat in the far left corner of the
bedroom on a raise platform, under which was indirect lighting. The
kitchen was an inset on the left wall of the living room. There were no
windows on the walls, but there was an overhead skylight. My cabin was
nominally on the "bottom" of the ship, but with gravitics technology
and SDisks it was impossible to tell. My biggest problem, though, was
navigation. I tend to make mental 3-d maps of places like starships,
and I couldn't reconcile the double-image of 'up' and 'down.' I'd get it
eventually. It was nice, though, that I'd get a full view of any planet
we were in orbit over. We were interrupted by a voice behind us?
We turned to see who it was. Kathy answered, "Yes, Amanda?"
I was stunned. This filly was the first example I'd seen of the
EQ2vR virus. Introduced into the Centaur population about twenty-five
years ago, the EQ2vR was supposed to increase the possibility of
size variation in the general population. Most Centaurs were immune,
but a small percentage experienced a strong effect. The maximum was
still around Clydesdale, but the minimum had been pushed down almost
to Shetland, but not quite. At that level, certain systemic failures
occurred that I'd rather not think about, so I left the size at about
1.18 over minimal systemic support.
Amanda was an example of that. She was barely taller than I was, I'd
guess 190 cm, and she was adorable. And that voice... where had she
learned such an innocent voice?
I resolved, right there and then, to get to know this filly. I was
so completely taken in by her that I completely missed what they had
discussed, until Kathy said, "Ken?" as I watched Amanda turn to leave.
"YooHoo. It's me, Kathy."
"I know, I know... Who was that?"
"That was Amanda Ohadi. She's the project head for Sickbay Engineering."
"She's a project head in your department? How is she?"
"And you trust her?"
"Remember me at sixteen?" I nodded. "She's better."
"Kathy, at sixteen you redesigned starship drives as we knew them!"
"You should see her work. She thinks she can prove a relation between
elemental pattern of configuration waves and quark-quark distance
I thought about it for a second. "She thinks she can prove the Benetti
equations?" Kathy nodded. "Kathy, you couldn't prove the Benetti
equations. People have been trying for centuries! Admittedly, Benetti was
pretty impressive. Despite the fact that Corrane's collary gave us the
C3 hyperdrive, and you gave us C5, and despite the fact that Samunen's
collary of Positional Relations gave us functional teleportation, what
Benetti was actually trying to do has never worked, and I don't think
it ever will."
"She's close, Ken. You should see her work."
"May I see it?"
"If you wish. I'd prefer if you ask her."
I smiled. "I think I'll do that."
She noticed the smile. "She's very pretty," Kathy prodded.
"That she is. What would you guess my odds are?"
"I'd guess, sixty-four to one for. When I was working down under sickbay
with her, she wanted to know all about you."
"Hero worship?" I asked with a groan. That's the last thing I needed,
and would make me avoid her like the plague.
"Not really. She wanted to know more like... what fascinated me about
"Hmmm. Does she..."
"I haven't asked, I wouldn't know. She's young, Ken."
"So were you."
She smiled at that.
"Where to now?" I asked.
"Where's P'nyssa?" she asked.
"She won't be on for a few days. She has to close down her office back
at Cutters, and that'll take a while. She's never been to space before."
"Well, she's been from here to Earth, but that's only a 30-minute trip."
"Now, it's a thirty minute trip. Back before C5, it was two days."
"What I meant was, she's never been on a serious space voyage. Two days
is nothing. She can visit Earth and be home in a week. This is a little
different. This is a couple of years."
Kathy nodded. "Well, we can go to your office, my office, or... Sickbay."
"Not Sickbay?" Kathy asked, her voice tinged with amusement.
"Let's not make it that obvious." I smiled.
"Can I ask you a personal question?"
"I hope so."
"Have you ever slept with a Centaur before?" That "before" made me smile.
Kathy clearly thought that, in the end, I would be sleeping with Amanda
I paused for a few seconds to consider my answer, and said, "Not a mare."
"But a stal?" she asked, raising her voice. I nodded. "You're kidding,
She shook her head. "Sometimes, Ken, you surprise even me." We took
a SDisk to Life Sciences, and I opened the door onto my office. It
looked pretty standard. We went next door to the main lab, and I found
it gratefully low-tech. Real test tubes. And high-tech: a neutrino-
source mapping system. "Looks pretty standard."
"I have another question."
"If you do get Amanda into bed, and I think you will, do you intend to
teach her the same things you did me?"
"Not unless she asks."
"Why, Kathy, I believe you're becoming downright protective!"
"You were protective of me, remember?" I nodded. I had been. And it had
been a good thing. It worked.
"Shall we go see your office?" I asked.
We found that even faster. It definitely qualified as a disaster. "This
is your office?"
"Well, it will be. I haven't quite finished moving in, as you can see.
I've been working out of my cabin. This was one of the last places
Interior Environments got to."
"I notice your little over there."
She blushed, which was quite attractive on her. "Yeah, well... When
they name a starship after you, you should probably have a of it
in your office."
"The P.E.V. Hawkwind. Kind'a nice of 'em."
She shrugged. "In a few years they'll decommission it like they did
"Hey, The Eldarfaroth was our first major starship, Kathy, and don't
forget it. Before it, all we had were a few interstellar couriers."
"I know. And it was a privilege being on her, and being a Captain on her.
I'm just trying to avoid developing a big head."
"You're doing a good job." I smiled, walked around her desk and hugged
her. "I love you."
"Love you, too," she said. "Come on. Let's go visit sickbay."
Sickbay was a shambles. "Kathy," I said. "We're doing to leave Parma
in six days, and this place is a disaster. Do you think you'll be ready
"This is exo-. Sickbay itself is ready to go, whenever our CMO gets here."
She crossed to a door that could have handled two Clydesdales across and
pushed the open button. The bay it opened onto was huge, and in the far
corner I could see Amanda and three others all clustered around a floor
panel that looked like it had been torn apart by some sort of explosion.
"What is this?" Kathy asked.
"Captain," Amanda said. "We had a problem with this gravitics panel. The
temporary placements don't rate to full. Uhm, I'd suggest getting some
matrix-supported ceramics in here for all of them before we power it
Amanda's eyes unfocussed for a moment, and she said, "Three days at two
shifts per, I think."
"Do it. Liffip?"
"Authorize we need a full set of THM replacements for these."
I was watching Kathy and examining the gravitic stress pattern on the
panel when I heard that sweet voice to my right. "Commander Shardik?"
I turned to look up at Amanda, who had approached me silently. I blinked
for a few seconds and said, "Huh?"
"I'm Amanda Ohadi?" She held out her hand. I took it and gently shook it.
"Commander Hawkwind's told me a lot about you."
"She's told me quite a bit about you. I understand you're giving the
Benetti equations another crack."
"Actually, we're almost ready to do field experiments." I was getting
lost in those huge brown eyes. My only objection to Amanda's beauty would
have been her hair; nanotech had allowed some pretty radical chemical
modifications in cosmetology, and the latest rage was really odd hair
colors. Primary green was considered sexy for women, primary blue for
men. was considered 'daring' and yellow was for teenagers. Amanda,
however, had gone a different route; her hair was pastel blue with a
suggestion of magenta. I found it extremely complimentary, despite my
distrust of cosmetics. It was very long and hung free down her back,
the front pushed to the sides and two small, tight curls falling down
her cheeks before her ears. It looked very soft. Her equine half was
white in the front, but became a speckled brown in the middle blending
into a full brown about her hindquarters, with a fully brown tail that
was very thoroughly brushed.
"Mmm-Hmm. In a few months, I think."
"How are you proposing to prevent inter-atomic effects at the field
"Do it in a vacuum, of course."
"But doesn't some of your hardware have to be interactive with the field?"
She smiled. "I'm working on it, Commander."
"Miss Ohadi. I am head of Life Sciences. You are the PD for exobio
sickbay. We may be seeing a lot of each other." Personally, I hoped we'd
be seeing a lot more of each other. "Why don't you call me Ken?"
"Then why don't you call me Amanda?" She said. Ice broken, I thought
"Ken?" Kathy said.
"I'm going to be really busy in a few minutes, could you..."
"Give you some room? Sure. Amanda?"
"Yes, Com... Kennet?"
"I'd like to see your work. It was nice to meet you." I held out my hand.
She extended hers, and I kissed it.
"It was nice to meet you too..." there was a long pause, and then she
said, in a much lower voice, "sir."
I raised one eyebrow. Amanda smiled her sweet smile, but I saw, out
of the corner of my eye, Kathy whirl about in surprise. I walked over
and kissed Kathy on the cheek on my way out. I left the two of them
"Hello?" I shouted aloud when I heard the door open. "Nyss? Is that you?"
"Hello!" I heard from outside. "Yes, it's me!" I smiled and finished
what I was doing before leaving the bathroom. I walked out.
"As you can see," I said, "I've already moved in."
She assessed the appearance of the studio and said "It looks...
"You don't like it?" I asked.
She sighed. "I don't know. I guess I'm just not used to the idea of
moving. I've lived in the same place for how long? Seven hundred years
I laughed. "I know. Moving's a bitch." I walked over and hugged her
close to me. "I love you."
"I'm still not sure about this." She frowned, then smiled. "But I love
you too." She tilted her head up for a kiss, and I gave her one. It was
a long and familiar kiss, and as always it made me feel warm inside.
"What's not to be sure about?" I asked afterwards.
She frowned. "People get killed on this job. It's the most dangerous
life Pendor offers, Ken, and I don't understand why you enjoy it so much."
"Then why did you come along?"
"Because I didn't want to be without you. And because this time, you
asked if I wanted to come along. And because it gives me a chance to
practice medicine, as opposed to giving out pills."
I smiled. "You should do okay, Nyss. You did well when Nance almost got
himself killed. You should do okay."
She frowned. "Ken, the one time I really needed to succeed, I didn't. You
know it, and I know it."
"P'nyssa Traken, you did everything you could, and it almost killed you
in the process. I don't blame you for Donna dying. I blame the asshole
with the gun."
She sighed. "I know. I'm just so... unsure."
"Good. At least you don't think of yourself as completely ready.
Overconfidence leads to mistakes."
She nodded, her head bent down, examining the floor. "Oh," she said,
looking up, "P'rose gave us a copy of her new album. I think she's giving
us a hint."
"What do you mean?"
"The first song on it is called 'Where Are You Going, When Are You
I laughed. Her lips drew into a lustful smile. "So," she said, "Want to
inaugurate our new bed? Or have you already done so?"
I laughed. "Why P'nyssa, I'm hurt. How could you suggest that I would
do such a thing? Of course I've been waiting for you." I paused. "I'm
also surprised that you believe I'm that much of a rakeheart."
She smiled again. "But you are. Come 'ere." She walked to the bed,
her full-length dress flowing behind her, and sat down. "Come on."
I laughed and walked over to the bed, leaning over her and letting my full
balance fall over; we tumbled onto the bed, her tens wrapping around me. I
nuzzled her under her neck and she cooed in response. "Ken?" she breathed.
"It's been five days since I last saw you. Skip the foreplay."
My response was an evil snicker worthy of any bad pirate movie. I reached
behind her and undid the clip holding together her skirt; we managed
to pull it off and throw it across the room. It dimly occurred to me
that we'd left the lights going full blast; not even turned down for
She returned the favor, almost ripping open my uniform in her haste to
free my quickly rising erection. I pulled the over my head and sent
it to join her skirt. She didn't bother to remove hers; just turned over
onto her knees and said "Come on, fuck me."
"My pleasure" I said, positioning my erection at her and pressing in.
Her mitten pad and thumb spread her labia wide, and I slid in. She was
surprisingly wet, and my cock was soon enveloped all the way around by
her hot wetness. She cooed gratefully as I did, my hand reaching under
her to scratch her furred back. "Miss me?"
"Very," she said. "Missed your hot cock. Now, fuck me, please."
I grabbed her hips, and slammed my cock into her. She groaned in response,
and I slid out slowly, only to slam into her again. Her moans grew louder
as I pressed into her, feeling her blue-furred ass against my hips. I
scratched her butt briskly, grabbed her hips and began fucking her with
all my might, taking her. I would stop, every once in a while, to take
a breath, and to look at her, bent at the waist, ass in the air, my cock
in her cunt, her head buried in a pillow. I felt her mitten playing with
her clitoris, sliding up and playing with my cock as well when I stopped,
then retreating as I began fucking her again. She screamed aloud into
the pillow as her orgasms washed over her; I felt it the background,
her telepathy leaking around the edges. It spurred me on, and I shouted
aloud as I shot my semen into her, my orgasm causing me to whip my head
back and forth, my hair striking me in the face.
I took a deep breath, my excitement, my head buzzing. I was surprised
at the intensity; quickies aren't a usual part of our sex life. Maybe
that's why it was so exciting. I slid out of her, feeling her intensely on the top ridge of my cock as I did so.
With absolutely no grace, she fell over onto her side, breathing equally
as hard from her mouth, her eyes shut for the moment. "So," I said,
"How was that?"
"Perfect," she said between gasps.
The next day it was all hands prepare for transit. We headed out;
Our destination was the planet Stinz IV, several hundred light years
away. It would only be a couple of weeks.
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